Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Sunday, October 23, 2005
wow! i m so touched! hahaz. there r actuallie pple who missed mi on tis blog lehz! hahaz. ok. so in order to thanx all of u out there who gave mi their blessings n luck n hopefully brain cells 4 e upcomin A levels...i shld blog now!!! hahaz. actuallie rite. i blogged a small paragraph wae back on 9 October. but then who asked my bro 2 come back home lahz. sighz. nvm. i shld blog one supreme long entry 2dae. n continue 2 disappear after tt! hahaz. n i realise tt my last entry is exactly 1 month ago! wow! my freq is reachin a new low! congrats 2 mi! due 2 e long time span frm e last entry to tis wan. i 4gotten most of e stuff lahz. so i shld resume my new style of random events!
first of all is my outing w daddy gabriel n amir mummy. not 4gettin our last min addition of yee kiat! hahaz. as usual. we dun noe where 2 eat lahz. so we made our wae down to orchard frm bishan [coz e parents hav raffles winds prac] b4 walkin all e wae to fish n co. e dinner is alrite juz tt e surround sound was rather bad. 4 those who dun noe wat i m tokin abt. i m complainin abt e singers there. faintx! it was reallie reallie bad. spoil e whole atmosphere there lahz. n we r nt e onli wan who felt tt wae. other diners too. so in order to revive e mood. we went to e raffles hotel's long bar to listen to e band who is reallie gd! dun worry i didnt drink ani alcoholic drink [no interest there] but even if i wanna to. e price will scare mi awae until dun noe where. it was pretti amusin when e female singer asked mi who i m w. hahaz. well. it did seem reallie weird to c a gurl accompanied by like 3 guys? hahaz. unfortunately they r all my family members! hahaz. e music is gd n i thoroughly enjoyed myself. but e smoky air did turn mi off at times lahz. pai sehz. i m a strictly non smokin person. even my papa cant do anitin abt it. hahaz. thanx 2 daddy n bro 4 such a great evenin! n of course my mummy 4 escortin mi home 2 woodlands! e photos will be uploaded soon.
erhz. e next memorable ting i can recall rite now is e first concert i attended! hahaz. dun laugh arhz. i mean reallie dun laugh arhz. coz i hav been laughed at by my sis n my bro. sighz. ok fine. i m abit foolish but it's ok wat! i mean if i m nt foolish now. i will nv get 2 be foolish! so yahz. e superstar concert is pretti good. seriously. certain parts lahz. n it's reallie damn funnie! hahaz. i was seated rather front so can c pretti clearly. but e lightings arhz. wow liao. make photo takin a real disaster. cannt stand it! aniwae e hilarious part was on how 5 of e contestants acted like e 5 judges. sugi-li fei hui [where fei hui is lung grey in direct translation]. chanel-ye pei(hui) fen [where pei fen becomes hui fen(will separate)]. wei choong-lee wei song [where wei song is stomach loose]. jason-fang zhong hua [where zhong hua is plantin flowers] n derrick-xu huan liang [where float on water becomes jump on water]. e atmosphere is quite gd. but e onli ting i wanna complain is tt it ended at 11.15pm!!! n 4 goodness sake it's at expo. n where i live? woodlands!!! u noe how far it is or not? summore becoz got so mani pple. then e taxi queue took half an hour b4 i board a cab. aniwae e total cab fare is 28 bucks which is shared between mi n my darlin son. fainx! but tis marks e end of my obsession w superstars! yeahz! hahaz.
n e ting tt i m e most unwillin to tok abt is of course my prelims results. which i screwed up big time. i reallie mean big time. except 4 gp! hahaz. yahz. except onli gp. well. i shld nt tok more abt tis lahz. juz tt i m workin harder now. n i hope tt miracles will happen. reallie happen.
oh yahz! farewell assembly. erhz. was ok lahz. hahaz. but i felt rather sad when i realised tt i m reallie leaving e sch le. dun noe lahz. it's like no matter how much u complain abt a place. its system. etc. u will still develop a sense of belongin there lahz. even if it's vry little. but maybe i reallie dun belong in rj lahz. hahaz. after 1 yrs plus then i sae tis rite. alot of tings hav happened in tis 1 yr plus. both happie n sad. but disappointment will be e most. yupz. alot of decisions i reallie wished tt i cld hav remake but yahz. it's nt possible. nvm. maybe tis is e rd i need to take lahz. but i muz sae tt i m reallie grateful to my teachers n i reallie count my blessings 4 having such excellent teachers. though i noe they cant c tis. n hopefully they reallie cant c tis. coz in my past entries i tink i got complaint abt them. heeheez. but juz wanna sae a big THANK YOU to mr low. mr lee. mr tay. ms tang n mrs toh. n my fav pe teacher. ms sim! hahaz.
but i did wish tt e band was playin instead of e stereo! sighz. last yr j2 farewell assembly it was e band playin lorz. wat e crap! e atmosphere nt as touchin u noe. oh well. n becoz of tis i dun hav an excuse 2 go n play my bassoon 4 fun. dotz.
i dun noe wat to sae now liao lehz. tell u my memory reallie bad le. oh well. nvm. when i remember i will try 2 blog again. hope tis sustain pple out there readin tis blog 4 at least a few more wks. hahaz. to everywan who r busily muggin 4 As. all e best! n u r nt suppose 2 be online now! hahaz.
dreaming awae at 12:40 PM
