Wednesday, June 30, 2004
sighz. back 2 e same old topic. sighz. sighz. sighz. ok shall stop sighin. well 2dae i juz score another F. hahaz. in none other than my worst science: physics. yes. sorrie mr chan but i tink i juz nt e physics material. sighz. onli studied 3 topics out of 9 n i sat 4 e test. i power rite? hahaz. then in e end i tink i no hope lahz. alot of qn dun noe how 2 do. then e first qn: define acceleration. wow liao. i stunned lahz. anihow write. hahaz. i tink e teachers who marked will hav heart attack. yes. then mcq rite. out of 15 qns. i TINK i noe how 2 do 5. e rest i juz put all of them c. hopefully will hav a few correct. pls. pls. yahz. seriously considerin droppin physics. but nvm. i will pull thru. hmmz.
then after sch walk 2 mrt w yee keow. marlom. du yang. hui yun. terrance. n sum 3A pple. yahz. vry funnie can. coz e greatest pope of all. du yang. is so funnie. hahaz. he is in a even worse shape than mi. n his bickerin w marlom khar nv fail 2 cheer mi up. hahaz. then marlom went back w du yang 2 rv becoz du yang wan 2 collect his o lvls cert 2 make himself happie abit (coz got As wat). hahaz.
went back w yee keow 2 woodlands n pass e chem bondin notes 2 my amir mummy. hmmz. well his paper start by now. wish him all e best. cant wait 4 common tests 2 end. but i nv wish 2 hav e results back. sighz.
dreaming awae at 3:32 PM
Monday, June 28, 2004
was readin vicky's blog. then agree totally w wat she sae lahz. sighz. dun noe how long ago. when students join a cca (or eca). it's due to pure interest. n ability/determination to xcel at it. or juz wan 2 try it. now. it's so different. sighz. wat happen 2 singapore's education system?
we r a meritocracy society. it supposed 2 make us more efficient. more talent orientated. but u noe wat. it make us more ambitious. more selfish. there r alot of xamples currently. pple join a particular cca nt becoz of e interest. but e poss of securin a leadership post. i mean wat is singaporean youths cumin 2? we r taught 2 be results-orientated. results r wat matter most. cca points r wat matters. testimonials r wat matter. gd grades r wat matters. gd university educations r wat matters. gd jobs r wat matters. r u sure tt's wat matters? apparently alot of us thot so.
wat happen 2 e basic princples of education. to nurture young individuals. to arouse interest in various subjs. to allow students to xplore their own talents n develop them to their fullest. wat happen 2 all tt? y shld a cert matters more than e person? y?
y shld ur success measure by e job u hold. e things u hav. e education u receive. n nt e type of life u live. whether u r happy. whether u felt tt ur life is meaningful. whether u hav achieve wat u r here. in tis world for. sighz
dreaming awae at 6:59 PM
wat shld i sae abt e above topic? i dun noe lahz. sighz. i seriously nv study lorz. it's like 2dae chem paper rite. then i onli finish atoms etc, mass spec n atomic structure (3 subjs) yesterdae nite. then 2dae. mornin. i speed read thru chem bonding I n II, solid structure, gases n liquids, chemical energetics (5 topics) which r vry heavy in content. all in 1 hr 15 mins. on e train. n in sch. hahaz. i tink i reallie make alot of pple speechless.
then went into e examination hall w e mentality tt i will fail e exam. which is nt tt bad lahz. coz sec 3 n 4 life also like tt. sighz. then it's like e whole structure qn ting. out of 27 marks max i score shld be 10. provided i got 90% of those i try correct. wat rubbish lorz. e essays r ok. juz tt i hav a few qns dun noe how 2 do. sighz. e mcq 4get it. i was havin a throbbin headache tt i reallie cannt tink.
yahz. n lady luck is nt w mi 2dae. juz b4 e exam. i went 2 e toilet. n fall down e stairs while makin my way there. wat rubbish lorz. n sprain my rite ankle lahz. yii ean was kana frightened lahz. so sorrie gurlz. aniwae thruout e whole exam i was rotatin my rite ankle 2 prevent swellin. wow liao. i m so unlucky 2dae. sighz.
then after exam went jurong pt w yee keow. marlom. du yang. terrance. coz 2molo no paper. yahz. then so funnie. coz marlom spilled his drink on e flr n his pants. lucky 4 him. rjc pants r waterproof. 4 8 mins. after 8 mins. then erhz. u can 4get abt it. hahahaz. then we nua n tok rubbish. hahaz. laugh until i wan 2 die can. wow liao. yahz. went home w yee keow. saw tis couple. sumwan tt yee keow noe. hahaz. so nua. they abit e intimate in public can. we both. dotz. hahaz.
sighz. cant wait 4 common tests 2 be over. i xpect 4 F. or maybe 3F n 1O(o level pass). wat rubbish lahz.
dreaming awae at 6:29 PM
Thursday, June 24, 2004
yahz. so in conclusion. luv my stay there. if possible. will wan 2 stay 4 longer period of time. but my bro sae e place is going 2 be spoilt soon. coz e large amt of tourists it receive each day. when he first came in 2001. it was nt so commercialised. then nt so many pple. now rite. more than ten resort on e island. on diff stretches of beaches. then rite. more dead coral lorz. it's like e whole beach is litter by dead coral. n when u step on them. vry pain lahz. vry sad u noe. sighz. then e fish arhz. becoz we keep on feedin them bread. they r gettin 2 fat. ahahaz. n there r alot of flies n mosquitoes. my bro sae there used 2 dun hav wan. human beings reallie bring alot of trouble n probs w us. if u wan 2 go there. go soon. coz e water is nt as clear as it used 2 be(still quite nice). e sand nt as white as it used 2 be (though still quite white). n e corals r dyin. sighz.
oh yahz. n dun take bus. u r juz courtin 4 trouble n discomfort. take a plane 2 kuala lumpur airport n wait 4 transit plane 2 terengganu. it's more comfortable. reallie n u will nt hav 2 go thru e agony of waitin long hrs or spentin long hrs on a bumpy ride. n u can go 2 e toilet as u please. hahaz. yupz. after saein so much hav 2 go n study. i haven touch a single ting yet. sighz. sure fail liao.
dreaming awae at 10:55 AM
ello pple. i m back. hahaz. ok shld tok abt e trip. hahaz.
day 1 20 june
erhz. left house too early then reach golden mile complex 2 early. so in e end went to drink sugar cane drink at nearby food centre. yahz. took e first bus 2 malaysia checkpt at ard 9.45pm. guess wat. e person in charge miss out our names lahz. so it's like e bus suppose 2 fetch 36 pple becum fetch 40 pple. after alot of rubbishin ard. e pple finally settle it. n here we go. pai sehz amir mummy. we went by second link so erhz i cant wave gd bye 2 u arhz. hahaz. then wait at malaysia checkpt 4 e bus tt will bring us 2 terengganu. wow liao. reallie vry shuai. we reach ard 10.50pm. n e bus was late. vry late. n we ended up boardin e bus ard 12 sumtin. we were e first few 2 reach. e last wans 2 leave. it's like when we reach. there's a few bus. we wait until more bus cum. then they leave. until no bus was there lorz. wat rubbish lahz. it feel as though we r stranded there lahz. sighz. then i slpt on e bus lahz. 4 ard 6 hrs. then we reach terengganu. e seat is quite uncomfortable. n frm wat my bro sae. e drivin is also vry scary. yahz. at turns rite. e driver didnt slow down at all. so erhz. yahz. but i dun care. coz i was like a dead pig. hahaz.
day 2
i 4got wat time we reach. but i tink ard 8. then was transferred 2 a van 2 be sent off 2 a place where we wait a while 4 a bus. which sent us 2 e jetty. after tt. wait like ard 1 hr then board e boat lahz. n spent like 1 hr n 15 mins minimum on e boat. but e view is vry gd. hahaz. all u c is water. water n more water. coz open sea. then pass by a few vry small island. so cute. hahaz. yahz then redang is like super2 big lahz. compare 2 those island. hahaz. i stayed at e redang beach resort at e pasir panjang beach. supposedly e best beach lahz. n face south china sea summore. hahaz. then it's like there is no jetty lahz. so have 2 cross over 2 a floatin platform. then 2 a small motor boat. e last part u juz hav 2 walk w e water. n i was wearin jeans. hahahaz. quite fun u noe.
yahz. then wait 2 check in. super hot. cannt take it manz. but quite like our room. it's like each rm hav one single bed n one double bed. can slp alot of pple. yahz. after tt. i went 2 slp lahz. hahaz. tell u alrdy tt i m a pig.
wake up 2 go n play water. hahaz. it's ard 5 plus liao. then no tan lahz. coz e sun nt strong. e sand arhz. vry fine. vry nice. hahaz. n e wave quite big lahz. wat i did was 2 sit down at e beach there n wait 4 e wave 2 cum in n crash at mi. so fun. hahahaz. oh yahz. alot of fish there 2. hmmz. then feed them bread. hmmz. they all swim 2wards u. hahaz. then my sis abit e siao. i tink sum of them touch her. then she vry scared. sae they molestin her. wat rubbish lahz.
play liao then go back shower. then hav bbq dinner. quite ok lahz. then went to e gift shop. notin much 2 buy lehz. so erhz. yahz. i sure most of u get e hint arhz. hahahz. yahz. then went back 2 read my chem notes. n i onli finished like 9 pages before admitin defeat n go back 2 slp. hahaz.
day 3
act wanted 2 wake up 2 watch sunrise wan. but horz i got no watch n alarm clock lahz. so yahz. miss it. then went 2 hav breakfast ard 7 plus. after tt went 2 play in e water again. hahaz. then tis time bring my mummy also. then we wanted 2 watch e fish wat. so went 2 e more rocky area. then instead of cing fish. we all kana cuts by e sharp n slippery rocks. my flesh at e soles is abit e gone lahz. pain u noe. yahz. but after tt play at e sand area.
after tt set of 2 e redang marine park ard 10 plus. then it's like no jetty when we leave rite. so we hav 2 swim 2 e boat. hahaz. then when reach there. i fall down again lahz. when climbin e stairs of e jetty there. sighz. but nvm. still hav a lot of fun there. e fish there arhz. it's like so mani lahz. u cant possibly count them. then feed them bread too. hahaz. took pics of them. maybe will post them here after i develop them. so fun. juz tis trip is worth e journey 2 redang.
reach back e resort n hav lunch. coz no jetty. i was given e choice 2 jump boat. hahaz. so fun manz. after tt shower n walk 2 adjoinin resort to hav a look at their facilities. oh yahz tt resort is called e laguna redang island resort. n it's nicer than e wan i m stayin lahz. hahaz. n u noe wat. it actuallie hav e mo mo cha inn. e wan tt was used in e film. wow liao. so nice u noe. hahahaz. act it's e rebuilt version. e real wan was demolished after e filmin. but it is on e same beach. which is 2 sae i was stayin on e same beach in e film. hmmz. muz re watch e film liao. then hav ice cream in e cafe on e 2nd storey of e mo mo cha inn. hahahaz. after tt went 2 another resort 2 hav a look at their gift shop. n sis n bro bought stuff lahz. came back wanted 2 suntan. but abit e tired. ended up slpin. hahaz. so didnt tan lahz. play water again n e wave is so nice. luv it manz. then went shower n hav dinner. erhz. we bought our own dinner n nt e set dinner included in e package. so vry nice lahz. hahaz. hav like porridge w alot of stuff. n we ordered 2 person meal. ended up alot of stuff. so e 4 of us were juz nice 2 finish e stuff lahz. n it's vry cheap. hahaz. typical singaporeans.
oh yahz. rush 2 buy e bottles n sum stuff. coz vry poor arhz. so onli bought bottles 4 daddy gabriel n amir mummy. e rest arhz. sorrie arhz. heeheez. then was fillin e bottles w e sand arhz. w no lights lahz. so vry dark. n it start to rain. wow liao. so e quality of e sand tt i collect nt vry white. but still nice. hint. n went back 2 slp. hahaz
day 4
wake up n pack up. then hav breakfast. then check out. then wait 4 boat. hahaz. well as there is no jetty. so hav 2 walk out into e sea 4 a short distance. water reach ard knee. then climb up tis flight of stairs onto e boat. quite fun. then begin e journey back 2 terengganu. like e sea so much. then board a van back 2 e bus interchange n board e bus. e van was lettin off pple at alot of place includin e terengganu domestic airport lahz. wait 4 1 hr plus. then e bus set off at 12 plus like tt. wow liao e journey arhz. almost kill mi manz. aniwae we stop at tis place (i also dun noe where) to hav lunch ard 4 plus. then we set off again ard 5 plus. reach singapore it's like 11plus. set on my daddy's lorry ard 11.30. so e bus journey is like so long lahz. my butt hurt u noe. cannt take it manz. my head ache too. aniwae one of e bus uncle is an indian who converse in mandrian. wow liao. i m so impressed lahz.
dreaming awae at 10:43 AM
Saturday, June 19, 2004
erhz 2dae suppose 2 go 4 nynp alumni games dae lahz. but erhz. got band lorz. then i vry long nv touch my dear bassoon. tone gone liao lahz. then cannt hold notes. furthermore goin pulau redang in malaysia. it's where in chinese arhz. xia ri de mo mo cha is filmed. vry pretty. natural white sand. water clear blue. cant wait manz. hahaz. oh yahz aniwae went 4 band in e end lahz. sighz.
so ended up nuain w yee keow lahz. keep on movin frm one place 2 another. hahaz. then practise lorz. practise halfway started singin lahz. like a radio station like tt. then yee keow is my onli audience. hahaz. i wan 2 go kbox lehz. i wan 2 go. hmmz. but no time liao. holidaes endin n i reallie need 2 study. sighz. yahz. tt's y i m bringin notes 2 rendang can. so tt can study when suntannin. hahaz. later cum back look like another race. sighz.
hav lunch w my daddy gabriel. amir mummy. nigel bro. paula sis. n last but nt least. jun yan my nanny. so funnie can. hahaz. hav a great time. n nigel is tellin us dirty jokes. then meet tse min 2 go orchard 2gether. aniwae e 'relationships' ting in band now vry messy. hahaz. need 2 iron tings out. hmmz.
meet winnie at borders. read bks lahz. then met yee keow n marlom. hmmz. sumtin happen 2 them. yahz. then nua ard. then went shoppin w win2. bought presenz 4 my daddy gabriel n amir mummy. luv them. hmmz. oh yahz. thanx paula dear 4 e presenz frm japan.
then my mother called mi coz cannt find my passport n 2molo leavin liao. luckily found liao. hmmz. i cant wait lehz. hahahz. white sand blue water here i cum...
dreaming awae at 10:34 PM
Friday, June 18, 2004
Dreaming of You
Franne Gold & Tom Snow
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star that somewhere you are
Thinking of me too
Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you ever see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside
Would you even care?
I just wanna hold you close
But so far all I have a dreams of you
So I wait for the day
And the courage to say how much I love you
Yes I do!
I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
Coraz??n
I can't stop dreaming of you
No puedo dejar de pensar en ti
I can't stop dreaming
C??mo te necesito
I can't stop dreaming of you
Mi amor, c??mo te extra?0?9o
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
That you came up to me and said "I love you"
I love you too!
Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming of you endlessly
Dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my roomI'll be dreaming of you tonight
Endlessly
And I'll be holding you tight
Dreaming...with you...tonight!
dreaming awae at 11:38 PM
well i tink in one of my previous entry i sae abt browsin a bk on birthdaes w daddy gabriel n amir mummy. yahz. aniwae decided 2 tok abt it now.
originally set up tis blog 2 xpress my thoughts nt listin of everydae stuff. but sumhow it ended up otherwise lahz. xcept 4 e first entry. everyting else is description. so decided to do sumtin tt i always wanted 2 do.
actuallie i m vry easily depressed. it's juz how much i let others c. reallie. then was readin tt bk. n one of my weakness is reallie depression. wow liao. quite accurate arhz.
unlike other pple. i mind wat others sae abt mi. alot. yahz. n u can sae tt i m superficial lahz. u may nt noe it but i m easily hurt. but due 2 e fact tt i hav a smile plastered on my face (courtesy of tze hui). most pple dun realise it. nvm lahz. used 2 it liao.
i havin probs w my bro now lahz. n it's like i nt happie in e family lorz. then my sis sorta of married liao. juz dun hav weddin dinner yet. but she stay at her new home like 6 daes out of a wk. so i was w my bro lahz. we juz simply ignore each other. then he gettin married soon. i dun noe 2 feel happie or wat. i mean we will nt be stayin under e same roof. no more friction. no more indifference. no more arguement.but i look at my row of looney tunes soft toys then i tink. he bought e whole collection 4 mi becoz i like them. then at tt time he onli taught tuition. still a full time jc student. when i m sec 2 he bought my first n onli discman 4 mi. my sis n mum always tell mi actuallie in e family my bro luves mi e most. but becoz i always nv do hmwk make him angree then he decided 2 juz give up on mi.
then my papa vry...i dunnoe how 2 sae lahz. juz tt he has sum bad frens n he has certain bad habits. sighz. i dunnoe wat will happen in e future lorz. then my mum's health nt gd. reallie. she has high blood pressure. n her legs r bloated lahz. but she still worked coz we dun hav enuf income.
sumtimes i wonder. m i reallie happie? i mean i worry abt my own future. wat will happen 2 mi? no one can send mi 2 university. e onli way is 2 get a scholarship. but how? i nt prominent in aniwae. n singapore system is like i dunnoe wat 2 sae lahz. dun u tink tt u r demandin 2 much? i look at e kids in e dvc camp. my class. 4 goodness sake they r onli pri one. but guess wat. they noe alot more tings then they shld. competition is so stiff. those who cant catch up is juz abandoned. no one is helpin them. tt's wat happen in class. sum students actuallie scold others who r slow in learnin 4 pullin them back. i reallie dun noe wat 2 sae. reallie.
n interestin enuf. my tarot card is e card of death. maybe i will get enlighten soon. i hope tt dae will cum.
dreaming awae at 10:56 PM
well 2dae is e last dae lahz. due 2 e fact tt i m a slacker. erhz. i didnt do much lahz yesterdae nite. so in e end 2dae in e mornin was rushin 2 finish drawin e cards n start writin them. yahz. but i feel so proud. i finally finish them. yeahz. hahaz.
well 2dae did nt do much lahz. did e comparison of artificial sweetener n real sugar. which wan is sweeter. yahz. then they design their rollin wheels. then i teach them how 2 use a thermometer. wow liao. will vomit blood lorz. imagine tryin 2 teach PRIMARY ONE students of 7 yrs old stuff tt they learnt like only in pri 3. n i cant sae alcohol contract n xpand coz 2 chim. so all i can sae is when hot. alcohol 'goes up'. when cold. alcohol 'goes down'. cannt stand myself. then they like cannot count e markins on e thermometer. wow. can feel blood pressure risin which may nt be a bad ting coz i 2wards low blood pressure. yahz. then e rest like so noisy. nv queue up. sighz. tt's y i sae i nv wan 2 be a teacher. coz i dun tink i vry patient. yahz.
oh yahz. i came out w e song 4 e kids 2 perform at 2dae's concert lahz. w xiao qing n jess's help. n it turn out a failure coz they dun bother 2 memorise. in e end. it becum a one man show. wilson's show. who is vry loud. n holdin e mike summore. w my notes 4 him. so funnie lorz. ok tis is e song. w e tune of jingles bells.
we r s3
we cum 2 dvc
we do science experiments
and go xcursions
we make bubbles
and fold paper snails
we learnt abt insects
n hav fun. hey.
dvc dvc
s3 came along
oh wat fun at bird park
we fed starlings w worms
dvc dvc
s3 crawl ard
we hav fun w veggie
lady's finger n corn
nice rite? coz i tink wan wat. hahahaz. yahz. but nvm. cheng jun won e best overall camper. n lydia won e best camper in class. luv them manz. will miss them vry much. sighz.
dreaming awae at 10:33 PM
Thursday, June 17, 2004
well. yesterdae was e 3rd dae of e camp. went 2 collect insects in e garden lahz. kana more mosquito bites. so itchy. accumulated frm yesterdae. got moth. big ant. small ant. erhz did sum stuff like e 'powerful' egg shells n e denaturation of egg white. yahz. i also did e hot air xpand n cold air contract stuff lahz. usin balloons n glass bottles. hahaz. quite fun lehz. hmmz. also did magnet stuff w them. erhz n my grp was e slowest. coz i vry long winded. hahaz. yahz. n lastly we did make paper snails. whewz. manage 2 finish e stuff. hahaz.
n i was drawin n colourin e cards durin e lessons when jess is teachin n i hav notin 2 do. becoz of sharpenin e colour pencils n doin e presenz. i slept at 2am e dae b4. sighz.
oh yahz. went 2 meet my dear daddy gabriel n mummy amir at orchard. thanx 2 jess i cld leave quite early. reach orchard mrt ard 5.50pm lahz. coz need 2 walk frm e bus stop to e mrt. then quite far. was writin daddy gabriel's letter on e bus. almost cross eyed coz e bus ride vry bumpy lehz. yahz. then onli finish after i reach e mrt lorz. started writin amir mummy letter like 6.02pm lahz. finish ard 6.20. n both of them were like waitin 4 mi. feel so guilty. yahz.
then we nua ard lahz. were standin in e middle of e buildin 4 15 mins coz we cldnt decide where 2 go. hahaz. then mummy n daddy keep on bickerin. hahaz. so funnie. luv them alot lahz. my hilarious parents.
finally walk 2 scotts food court. then they argued abt e 'niceness' of e seats lahz. hahahz. so in e end we went 2 sakae sushi n eat. n e food quite nice lahz. juz tt in mummy opinion. portion 2 small. hahahz. yahz. gave them e presenz n letters. n we took photos. hahaz.
then we walk ard b4 endin up at starbucks. only mummy bought e strawberry n cream stuff. quite nice u noe. juz tt it's abit e 2 creamy. hahaz. then we took photos again. i tink e pple there vry amused by us lahz. hahaz.
erhz. both daddy n mummy wan 2 go 2 borders toilet so i tagged along. nt into e toilet of course. aniwae we ended up browsin a bk on birthdaes instead of goin 2 toilet. hahaz. read more abt ourselves. n my advice is "a teacher teaches a student to teach himself". up to u 2 interpret it.
yahz. then i n mummy rush back 2 woodlands. on e way tok more abt bassoon n e band n syf. goshz.
well 2dae overslept again. hahaz. then my papa need 2 go sumwhere so onli reach henry park at 8.30am. yahz. was tapin newspaper again lahz. after tt went to collect e food 4 tea n stuff. yahz. 2dae xcursion again. to a vegetable plot. hdb flats. hmmz. was stayin at e playgrd w e children n playin w them. tired manz. they reallie full of energy. yahz then went 2 ghim moh market 2 buy vegetables. was conned lahz. by tis auntie. she tink i look young nv go market. go n die. actuallie ask 4 $2.50 4 veggies tt cost max $1.80. due 2 e fact tt i was tired. i did nt argue w her. irritatin.
e children make a chart w e veggie. n i was cuttin paper lahz 4 2molo. yahz. then started packin e stuff into boxes. coz last camp of e hols wat. yahz. play ball w them. almost died. coz they dun understand how 2 buy. sighz. also make paper cicada w them. yahz. tt's e end of e dae. hmmz. bro usin com soon. yahz.
dreaming awae at 10:56 PM
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
hmmz. 2dae reach even earlier. n was tapin e tables w newsapapers. then read a bk while waitin 4 e dae 2 pass. well. samuel n daniel once again r e earliest 2 reach. but they vry nice. tis time they arranged e chairs on their own. n stayed in e assembly area to play. vry obedient.
2dae is xcursion dae lahz. w S3 i went 2 e jurong bird park. wow liao dun noe how mani billion yrs nv step into it liao lorz. i tink e last time was in pri sch n it was becoz of art competition then i enter e bird park. went 4 a birds of prey show. quite nice lahz. but e speakers arhz. their accents abit e heavy. so quite difficult to catch wat they saein. hmmz.
then went to e waterfall there to feed e birds lahz. wow liao. i was so xcited lorz. nv done tt b4 wat. then jess n xiao qing were quite amused by mi lahz. yes i noe. i m childish. but i enjoy e xperience. feel e bird frm my hand. e worms vry ticklish. then i received a big white feather. hahaz. coz i was e eldest 'child' then e person in charge gave mi one of e biggest feather he had. it belonged to a south-east asia bird called silver feather if i remembered correctly. so nice. but a few of e boys lahz. so naughty. they wanted my feather n tried 2 snatch frm it. so i a bit e tug of war lorz. n my feather rite. was ruined in e lower part. sum of e hairs drop off. so it's shape is incomplete now lahz. so sad. but i still luv it. cant wait 2 receive another feather. i m currently in pursuit of another feather.
visited quite sum birds. macraws. emu. flamingo. swan. penguins. owls. nt onli e children learnt stuff. i learnt too. hmmz.
then after tt. e children r quite tired lahz. so nt so much activity. but accident happened lorz. hmmz. esther is tis tiny little gurl n she fall down. then sum of e more 'ba gua' kids lahz. all sae they witness jordion pushin her. but i asked him n he sae it's an accident. but he still kana a scoldin frm jess lahz. coz he mishaved alot of time. n he hav a cut on his eyelid due 2 e fall. n it's swollen lahz. sighz. i tink his mum goin 2 kill us. n at tt time when she asked mi rite. i didnt noe she was his mum. so i juz sae simply tt he fall down when playin catchin n hurt his eyelid. wow liao. i tink i juz offended her lahz. nvm.
so tired. went back 2 woodlands tt almost overslept again lahz. n met amir mummy at causeway pt w joseph. they were leavin lahz. hahaz. then amir mummy go shoppin w mi 4 colour pencils. coz i m going 2 make each child a card w a bird. they alrdy taken orders. got e idea frm 2dae last activity of makin a card w e theme bird. quite nice lehz. so decided 2 draw lahz. w e help of e chart. took ard max 5 mins per card. so i tink i shld be able 2 finish them by fridae.
oh yahz. meetin my dear daddy gabriel n mummy amir 4 dinner 2molo. so muz finish tt presenz 2nite. but i m lackin sum stuff lehz. dun noe how. n i need 2 write long2 letters 4 them. hahaz.
dreaming awae at 11:27 PM
Monday, June 14, 2004
well 2dae first dae at dvc (discovery vacation camp). hmmz. reach there abt 7.45 in e mornin coz dad need 2 bedok 2 work lahz. was e first wan 2 reach. so stayed inside e classrm 2 read. within 5 mins i heard a pair of high heel shoes n e shouts of boys. they r supposed 2 report at 8.30 n tis 2 boys arrived at 7.50. so i hav no choice but 2 'boy-sit' them. guess wat? within 5 mins a pair of brother n sister arrived. so e no of my charges increased. n i collected abt 10 children b4 8.30. hav notin 2 do w them so ended up tokin rubbish w them. yahz.
hmmz. my class is S3. pri 1 students. quite cute lahz. hahaz. n out of e 10 children i collected earlier 2 r in my class. one is samuel(first brothers 2 arrive) n e other is lydia(pair of bro n sis). e class is ok lahz. but nt vry sportin. n jess e teacher is vry fierce though she dun hav much voice left. hahaz. yahz. so i dun reallie need 2 control them. quite slack lahz. n i tok rubbish to entertain my fellow leader. xiao qing. hahaz. she sae i more entertainin than marlom khar. feel so honoured can.
did notin much xcept 2 eat n eat. i ate like 2 teas n a lunch lorz. cannt take it manz. oh yahz. they did e flying fish ting lahz. e paper was cut by mi n xiao qing though she did most of e cutin coz i draw line vry slowly. e kids designed it then we hav competition. we also did e senses ting lahz. blindfold then place onion under e nose. eat apple. pear or orange. e slicin of e fruit using blunt knife n paper plate is quite erhz. hahaz.
enjoy e bubble blowin most. hahaz. mi n xiao qing prepare e mixture n was testin it. then when e kids play. i joined them. yahz i noe i childish. but vry fun lehz. hahaz. enjoy it vry much. was buildin bubbles castle. u shld try it. hahaz.
e kids r generally well behaved lahz. xcept a few. quite ok. n i did nt suffer ani tug of war yet. hahaz. juz tt sum of them vry naughty. keep on bullyin others. esp e boys lahz. hmmz. e gurlz r ok juz tt sum of them quite 'sticky'. oh yahz. i receive 2 sweets frm 2 diff gurlz. hahaz.
n e dismissal time is like 5pm. then there was a huge confusion. coz sum of e kids was told by their parents to wait 4 them at e 3rd level while e pickup pt set by e camp is 1st level. sum of e parents were like so gek lahz. n then horz. becoz of sum children i stayed until like 5.45 lahz. e last pair who went home is none other than e first pair 2 reach e sch. samuel n his elder bro daniel. wow liao. i dun noe wat 2 sae lorz.
did nt mix ard w other leaders alot. but do noe most of their faces. feel quite awkward lahz. coz i m e youngest there n most of them done e camp 2gether liao. hmmz. miss my rj frens.
dreaming awae at 10:22 PM
Sunday, June 13, 2004
hmmz. well i realise tt i vry longwinded in my entries. but who cares? coz tis is my blog. n it is suppose to reflect my character wat.
aniwae yesterdae didnt do much lahz. suppose 2 go 2 sch lahz but erhz. overslpt. then give up. so erhz. rush down frm woodlands to boon lay to go 4 interview 4 boon lay youth club(blyc). yes. actuallie i dun reallie noe y i m there lahz. coz tt time it's like tis lady she called mi then she juz asked mi whether i wan 2 be a full member. then i sae yes. then she ask mi to cum down 4 interview can. yahz. so i blur2 go down. hahaz. aniwae e interview was hilarious. so funnie. all e qns i dun noe answer wan. but hav fun lahz. but i tink e j2 muz tink tt i m mad. keep on laughin can. hahaz. yahz. after tt wait 4 marlom khar until i sianz. then go all e way to imm to buy reed case. walk ard e buildin like 4ever. to realise tt e shop closed. wat rubbish.
after tt rush down to vch 4 hc co concert. 2 c boon2, xiang2, my darlin goddaughter n kai xian. hmmz. e concert is vry nice. yahz. n i gave them chocolates. hehez.
as 4 2dae. i was roused by a phone call frm my ah gong suyi ard 10. coz due 2 miscommunication. my sqmates r suppose to meet in sch at 10.30 instead of 1.45. wat rubbish lahz. n i live in woodlands lorz. ny is like in bukit timah? which is 1 hr journey frm my home. in e end reach tt like 11 plus. n miss everytin of e atc(annual trainin camp) cheerin com xcept e nco item. which is nt bad. tis yr bravo best company then i was like tellin ah gong tt she n catharine arhz r no gd. 4 yrs they spent in ny then bravo nv best company. now they gone liao then immediately best company. i was in all 4 companies b4. bravo, charlie, delta n alpha in tt order. so hav lunch lahz w sum of my sqmates n tok rubbish. yahz. after tt cum back to woodlands to nua w yee keow e pope coz too early to go to vch 4 e rv cum yuhua alumni band concert.
erhz e concert is vry gd. vry entertainin. e music gd too. but e emcee. marlom khar was vry nua durin e first half coz he...yahz. aniwae he is gd lahz in e 2nd half. but his hair look horrible. n e dancin n actin by e yuhua pple is vry funnie. hahaz. hmmz but i will sae i enjoy it immensely. yes.n i lost e chocolate tt mi n yee keow buy 4 du yang e pope n jonana. feel so guilty. aniwae gave marlom. hui yun. tze hui. yi jing. esther. vicky n daryl flowers. with thorns. hahahz
so u c. i basically can camp at vch lahz. within 4 daes go there 3 times. 2molo dvc starts. i will be workin lorz. wish mi luck. hope e kids r nice.
dreaming awae at 10:20 PM
Friday, June 11, 2004
well let's tok abt yesterdae. erhz. i woke up ard 11 am lahz. hahaz. then watch tv. slack ard. read newspaper b4 forcin myself up to shower then make my way 2 win2 (winnie) house. my pri sch best fren. who is 1 wk older than mi. yahz. oh how i miss puppy. win2's dog. so cute. aniwae my purpose is to go her house n do hmwk. but guess wat. i didnt touch it at all. coz i was usin her com to do sum changes to tis blog. but erhz. luck wasnt on our side lahz. n i ended up tokin 2 marlom khar n remindin him abt e acjc concert yesterdae. oh n his cousin is reallie good lookin. may consider showin u all his pic later. yahz.
at e acjc concert at vch (victoria concert hall) saw my daddy (gabriel) n yee sheng n i tink yee kiat arhz. erhz e concert is nt bad lahz. in my opinion. yahz. i like e lion king wan. hmmz. n du yang in e end cannt make it there 2 c jonana. sighz.
n then reach home n call yee keow. e pope. n we laugh until we die can. tok n tok until like 12+. hahahz.
2dae wake up ard 11 plus again lahz. then went out. after tt reach frm yishun to henry park pri in ghim moh. i thot i was late then run until my whole face drenched in sweat. then realise i was early can coz e briefin was postponed. yahz. n ended up watchin e concert put up be tis wk dvc kids (discover vacation camp). saw hao ming who nv fail 2 remind mi tt 2molo is his birthdae. hahaz. oh well. shall do tt 2molo. aniwae e kids r so cute lahz. especially S1. reallie vry cute. hahaz. juz hope tt they r nt little devils. quite look 4wards 2 next wk. juz hope tt e kids r quite obedient. yahz. set up e classrm by pastin newspapers on e desks n distributin e bags, worksheets etc.
hmmz. muz reallie thanx win2 4 helpin mi 2 do e blog. coz i seriously hopeless at html. yahz. coz she spent alot of time doin it. muz give her a real treat. then now i m like askin her 2 help mi do sum repair work coz sumtin went wrong w e blog. hope all is well. luv u win2. luv u alot. hahaz.
dreaming awae at 6:16 PM
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
2dae is band investitue. well my section gave amir n gabriel tis bottle filled w reeds lahz. i m supposed to give them each a double reed. but unfortunately i dun hav lahz. i only hav one reed to last mi until i get a new wan frm e new qms. aniwae luv yee kiat coz he help mi glued 2 single reed to form a double reed. hahaz. n wrote a short msg to each of them. hmmz. there's e card too. reallie luv my seniors.
but my band uniform -- white blouse, black skirt, black stockins n court shoes is quite horrible lahz. my blouse is abit e too small. my skirt to big, long n loose. i seriously too long nv wear stockins liao. then it's like i 2tally 4get abt it until like 5 mins b4 e investitue. ended up wearin it under e staircase. so stupid. then yee keow n tse min hav 2 hold up a blazer to cover mi. n e guys r like so nosey lorz. keep on cumin over. i ended up screamin at them all. sighz. wat happen to my image. but e end product which is mi w blazer n tie is nt bad. quite like it. but i seriously need 2 alter my skirt n practise wearin stockins.
yahz. e investitue is nt bad. n amir as emcee is vry funnie. tis yr pei xuan is band major n nigel is ass. bm. then he said tt it's nt normal coz 'there is a woman behind every man but we hav a man behind a woman'. speechless. then he continued by saying e head of band is called e band 'major' so e vice head shld be called e band 'minor'. hahaz.
n we took a lot of photos...band formal photo. section photo. i took w amir n gabriel too. n they gave mi small cards. feel so guilty. suppose to give them sumtin too. but erhz. didnt lahz. so i went 2 spotlight to buy sum stuff. prepare to make 4 them. n i need 2 find amir birthdae's presenz. belated. hahaz. he is 1 yr minus 2 daes older than mi. got e idea liao but need time 2 find it. hmmz. hope i can find it n give it 2 him.
yahz. after investitue went to sumwhere n eat ice cream. was walkin in e rain n singin bimbo cheers. hahaz. so funnie manz. then we ate ice cream w 2 flavours alcoholic. couldnt take it after eatin one mouthful. so stick to normal ice cream. vry nice. then went to orchard to meet sum of e batch pple to go n play pool. well didnt play lahz. was sitin there n tokin. after tt then went to plaza singapura. spotlight. then went home.
truthfully speakin. i m nt close to e seniors. onli find amir n gabriel n eunice n joseph funnie. will miss amir n gabriel e most. my dear mummy n daddy. hahaz.
dreaming awae at 3:13 PM
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
Hmmz. vry long nv blog. hahaz. coz i was away in a chalet. with none other than my bandmates. i luv them reallie vry much. aniwae e chalet lasted 3 days 2 nites. so tis is wat happen lahz.
day 1
reach tenah merah mrt station 5 mins late. luckily wasnt e latest. hahaz. then went to e chalet lahz. settle down. play cards. bbq n i was like preparin e chicken wings. e wan who set up e fire is reallie vry gd manz. e fire is vry pro. yahz. then after tt sum of e gurlz includin mi went 4 a nite swim ard 9 pm. we played e slide. n each of us scream as we cum down e slide. so we were caught n chased away by e security guard lahz. coz e pool was closed by then. but we sneaked back into e pool again lahz. then we started to act like coconut floatin on the pool. so funnie lorz. cing so mani "coconuts" on e surface of the water. then more pple join us. hahaz. so fun. then we pushed/pulled more pple in. i n sumwan pushed amir into e pool. hahaz. n i ended up being pushed into e water again lahz by none other than amir who wanted revenge. hahaz. yahz. but e security guard cum lahz. so sad n we kana scolded. but i hav fun. went back to shower than started to play cards again. then watched movies -- never being kissed n pirates of carribean. but i nv finish e latter coz cannt tahan liao. went to slp ard 4.15 am
day 2
wake up ard 7am. then left e chalet to buy movie tix for harry potter lahz. n to buy gabriel's birthdae presenz w amir, paula, yee kiat n nigel. so funny. aniwae we bought a photo album n papers so tt we can pen down our thots n put it inside e album 4 him. it's vry nice. but e movie is not. sighz. vry disappointed. but all tis while i always feel tt e bk is betta. but tis time it's reallie vry bad lahz. no quidditch lahz. sighz. oh yahz. then after tt mi n iris('cousin') went 2 east coast to meet e rest. n yee keow went home to look after brother. n we went cyclin w zhong ye(ah ma). cycle is so fun. we went to e end of e park n enjoy e sea view. so nice. but i hav a bit of prob cyclin lahz. coz it's my 3rd time cyclin. onli learnt it last yr. hahaz. but tis time no accident. thank gdness. but my butt hurt like anitin. yahz then went back to chalet n play marjong. dun noe how to spell. play until 10.45 went to shower. then start to do gabriel's presenz. yahz. then at 12pm celebrated gabriel's birthdae. so funnie. amir smashed e cake rite into gabriel's face. but e cake is vry xpensive lahz. wasted. hahaz. sorrie i m a treasurer. so abit e money minded. then continue to play marjong. then watch a bit of movie 'mulan' then slp lahz. but couldnt find a place to slp. kana bitten by mosquito. in e end slp like on e sofa w my legs over e arms. super uncomfortable. in e end manage to squeeze into e bed w hui yan n vicky. sorrie for wakin them up. but luv them lahz. 4 sharin e bed w mi. tt's 5.30am.
day 3
wake up at 9am. then ate cup noodles for breakfast. then pack up n play cards. yahz then check out. then went to tampines mall for lunch. but e lunch is vry bad lahz. dun ever go to yoshinoya. e service is vry bad n e food taste horrible. n it's super xpensive. not worth it manz. yahz. wanted to go n sing karaoke but 2 tired. so went home to sleep. take e bus w amir. n we tok crap on e bus again lahz. 2 of us arhz. hahaz. 2molo is band investitue. so went shoppin w yee keow to buy white long sleeved shirt, black alined skirt, black stockings n black court shoes can? wow. feel so accomplished manz. need 2 go n iron e clothes soon. still haven write e letters to amir n gabriel my 2 super lame, funny n nice section seniors. will miss them. sighz. time pass so quickly.
dreaming awae at 8:10 PM
Friday, June 04, 2004
Sighz. i juz survive 2 daes w a grp of kids ranging frm 7 yrs old to like 14 yrs old. i almost die. i feel so lucky tt i m e youngest child in e family. yahz. e baby of e family is so privileged. hahaz.
aniwae tis is a cip(community involvement programme) camp organised by my cca lahz. then we r suppose to have one of e kids as our buddy n i hav tis tamil gurl called thana. she is vry quiet n she hav such short hair tt pple keep on tinkin tt she is a boy. well she is vry gd xcept she dun hav ani confidence n refuse to try new things. also she emphasizes alot on winning. yahz. she is also under social welfare. heartache. i reallie do hope tt she gain sumtin frm tis camp though we r a bit e disorganised lahz.
aniwae i m vry happie w thana. however sum of my fellow bandmates r nt so lucky esp e guys coz e boys tt they hav as buddies r reallie little devils. they r so full of energy n keep on running ard. sum of them keep on asking to be carried ard n sum of them r not tt light lorz. i c my fellow bandmates arhz reallie feel sorrie for them. so at nite rite, mi n sum of e gurls take over their duties of coaxin e naughty ones to slp...n we onli managed tt ard 2 am...sighz. as 4 e gurls they r generally more well behaved but sum of them r reallie vry vry spoilt. i dun noe wat to sae. tis world is juz like tt. sum pple r so deprived while others r like spoilt rotten.
learn a few tings frm tis camp. i tink i start to understand kids betta. yahz. hmmz. most of them listen to reason. wat reallie matter is how u phrase n present ur "arguement" to them. working w kids is tirin but vry wonderful.
toking abt tis remind mi of another cip camp i done w another cca on 29 may. tt camp emphasizes on drama while tis camp is on music. yahz. tt camp rite. my grp hav 3 vry obedient kids. 1 boy n 2 gurlz. n we won e best play, best actor n best actress. feel so happie lahz. muz reallie thanx my fellow group leader nicole who put in so much effort w mi. yahz. reallie enjoy e experience. aniwae we act out a adapted scene frm harry potter n i was e dragon.sighz. why cant i be e pretty gurl for once?
2dae went home w amir. senior frm band. same section but i nv noe tt he live in woodlands. aniwae we were tokin crap lahz. then reach woodlands liao rite then we touch on e topic of e band concert at esplanade. then i tell him tt i thot tt i hav a seat in e arrangement. n he say yahz coz there's xtra chair in e saxaphones section. i feel like murderin myself. i had let go of such a wonderful opportunity juz becoz i dun hav e courage to check w aniwan. wat a waste.
i feel depresed lahz. but nvm. becoz i noe tt after a gd nite slp. e day will be brighter. wat do u tink?
dreaming awae at 10:08 PM
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
hmmz. i feel so sianz 2dae. ok let mi xplain a few terms. cca--co curricular activity. compulsory in singapore. instrument playing--bassoon. if you dun noe wat it is. 4get it. dun ask mi. i dun noe how to describe it xcept tt it is a vry 'chio' or 'pretti' instru...luv it to bits. yahz.
2dae is a lazy dae. boring. but nvm coz i doubt i will many of such daes to cum. aniwae 2dae didnt do much xcept to read finish a bk n slack ard. sighz. but was quite happie lahz.
oh yahz. went to visit my parents' friend who juz hav a baby boy. goshz. he is so tiny. reallie vry tiny. but he is so obedient n quiet. it's like he eat then he sleep then he eat again then sleep n e cycle continue. but he is so cute. with two dimples n double eyelid. wow.
looking at him i wonder juz how wonderful life is. how i wish i can experience the birth of a baby. the joy of bringing a new life into tis world. i wanted to be a physician hopefully a surgeon but nt a gynaecologist. dun ask mi y. maybe i juz cant take it? i dun noe. but i always hope tt i can heal others' wounds. hmmz. i tink i m tinking too much. but helpin others reallie cheer mi up. i feel happie durin those moments.
but sumtimes i cant help but question. wat good is it to bring a new life into tis world now. we face e danger of terrorism. the earth tt is slowly dyin awae. the natural disasters tt befall on mankind without any mercy n sumtimes warnings. competition is gettin stiffer n 'darker'. pple is willin to do anitin to achieve their means. sighz. wat is tis world cumin to. where did peace go? or is it not present in this world rite frm e start? i cant wait to watch 'the day after tomorrow'. tell u alrdy. i m pessimistic.
aniwae tokin abt terrorism. i cant help but tink tt actually there is notin much we can do abt it. truthfully speakin. the reason is vry simple. every one of us has a mind which interpret e tings we see. sumtimes objectively. most of e time subjectively. if sumwan alrdy hav tt idea implant in his mind. it's near impossible to 'dig' it out. n tis type of 'unique' n unconvectional ideals appeal to pple coz all of us r tired of convectional stuff. doing e rite tings or else...n stuff like tt. u dare to disagree? sumtimes it's becoz they wan to attract attention but most of e time is nt but becoz they believe tt they r rite. rite by being different frm others. rite by being able to see tings in another angle. a more superior angle as compared to all e other lowly peers. they r betta than aniwan out there. they r rite. it's e world tt is wrong n they set out to correct it. tis is how terrorism cum along. n reallie there's notin much we can do. coz e biggest demon of all is e wan living in e mind. perhaps bush n e govts ard e world can tink abt tis. no amt of weapons of mass destruction is goin to silence them all. no amt of security is going to keep them out. coz they r inside us. all of us. it's juz tt u n i keep them tamed unlike others. tink abt it...
dreaming awae at 10:18 AM
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
well. i juz reach home. came back frm school after...a quite 'useless' dae. after readin my own entry. i tink it is quite hard to read with all the caps letters in between e small letters. so decided not to type in tt manner...unless i feel like it.
erhz. i went back to sch for cca 2dae. my no1 cca coz i hav 4 others. but tis cca take e priority. yahz. it's a musical cca lahz. n i hav no music background. it's quite horrible actuallie. coz i hav to learn frm scratch be ready to perform next yr at syf. shudders. wat a horrible thought. but i reallie like e intrument even though i played vry vry badly. i called it my baby. becoz both of them starts with e same letter. n 2dae i lugged it home. n now my hands r filled with blisters. coz it's super duper heavy to carry n walk 4 15 mins. but i still luv it vry much. plan to practise later n 2molo. coz got a small performance on thursdae. n i seriously cannot make it.
hmmz. i miss my paintbrushes. sighz. 2dae while waitin 4 e mrt train to cum. i stand there n look at e trees beside e mrt station. it's so beautiful. the view is juz like a photograph u taken from any rainforest in e world. n with e overcast sky. it look so radiant n fresh. sighz. but i juz dun hav e patience n ability to sit down n paint. i m getting more n more restless. n i still owe alot of pple painting as their birthdae presenz. as long as 4 mths. i hope they dun mind.
i reallie luv painting though i m nt vry gd at it. i quit my drawing lessons ard sec 2 coz my parents feel tt i m nt managing my time. sighz. n i juz let go of sumting tt i hav learnt 4 10 yrs. wat a waste. n at e beginnin of e yr when i tried 2 pick up e brush. it feel weird. n e result is not as gd as it used 2 be. i feel sad.
dreaming awae at 9:03 AM