Monday, November 29, 2004
hmmz. aniwae i realise i vry long nv blog liao. 1 whole wk. hahaz. shld make full use of tis chance 2 blog.
23/24 November
well i m attached 2 research lahz. erhz. abit e borin lahz. but then i did my first pcr in my life. hahaz. n i managed 2 receive 2 photographs of e electrophosis of my pcr reaction. quite nice u noe. hahaz. hmmz. but then e next dae was vry sianz lahz. reallie didnt do much lorz. yahz.
went 4 batch 35'[s farewell party. erhz. wat can i sae. well e atmosphere is gettin worse as each yr goes by lahz. i dun noe lahz. sighz. juz wish them all e best lahz. in e yrs 2 cum. hmmz.
went 2 ren yu's house 2 stay over lahz. didnt do much. but is vry happie 2 spent time w my sqmates. miss all e lame stuff we said 2 each other. feel so happie. hahaz.
went 2 watch e incredibles w yee ke-ow n marlom. hahaz. goodness it's so funnie n cute. i luv jack-jack!!! hahaz. i luv e show manz. hmmz. i wanna watch again lehz.
25 November
e attachment was cancelled lahz so i didnt get 2 go 2 e neuro-radiology dept. yahz. coz e docs r on a course so no body is free 2 take care of us. hmmz.
went back 2 sch 2 help 2 paint e banners. coz i feel so bad lahz. i didnt do anitin much 4 orientation preparations esp decor. hahaz. n i keep on steppin on paint. dotz. hahaz. yahz. it's quite gross. but i muz sae tt e whole team work vry well 2gather. hahaz. we finish ahead of time. arhz. n i luv my iris biao jie vry much. we r a great pair manz. muack! but e paint all over my arms. legs n foots r so hard 2 get off. hmmz. now i still hav paint on mi lahz.
26 November
went back 2 sch 4 e amazin race dry run. ran thru sum games in sch coz it was rainin. after tt went 2 imm. fort cannin park. n boat quay b4 i need 2 go 4 dvc briefin. was vry late lahz. quite nua lahz. hahaz. but my legs felt like lead lahz. hmmz. luv my lao gong wei ting vry much. hahaz. i m so glad tt we r 2gather! is quite frustrated w e pairin up of e fellow ogl. vry gross out. sighz. realise tt i dun noe alot of pple. sighz.
27 November
went 4 my first band prac (self prac) after 2 wks. abit e gross arhz. was quite surprised tt i can still play. hahaz. hmmz. need 2 stay piain scores le. hmmz.
went 2 a weddin dinner w my daddy coz my mummy nt feelin well. arhz. n i c a shuai ge there. arhz. hahaz. hmmz. 2 bad i dun noe his name. hahaz. yahz.
28 November
went back 2 malaysia w my daddy. mummy n bro. yahz. erhz. slept like a pig lahz thruout e whole journey. hahaz. yahz. so didnt do much lahz. hmmz.
29 November
went back 2 dvc 2 work lahz. hahaz. now workin w joanna n kah ming. both newbies lahz. hahaz. feel abit e weird lahz. coz i m younger than them but i m considered experienced. hahaz. yahz. hav a great time w them 2dae. juz tt sum of e experiments tt we had done abit e hard 2 do. vry tedious. yahz. like my class quite alot. we r A1 Blue. hahaz. saw sum of my charges frm e june camp n saw jess again. my june camp teacher. hahaz. it's so fun 2 c them again. feel abit e tired now. hmmz. 2molo still need 2 go mangrove swamps. dotz. sighz. life is abit e dotz. hahaz.
dreaming awae at 9:29 PM
Monday, November 22, 2004
yahz. erhz. notin much happened lahz. xcept e fact tt my sis married yesterdae. yahz.
20 November
well was packin up my room lahz. it look so neat now tt i cant believe it. yahz. but i didnt file my stuff lahz. i juz dump them into one of e cabinets in e rm. hahaz. then my godmum frm kl came 2 singapore 2 attend e wedding lahz. was hostin them. hmmz.
21 November
was woken up by my sis ard 5.50am. n her make up n hair was almost done le. yahz. feel so pai sehz tt i was sleepin lahz. hahaz. aniwae muz sae tt my sis is vry pretti lahz. hahaz. e most beautiful time i hav ever seen her in 17 yrs of my life. hmmz. aniwae quite alot of hiccups occured along e wae lahz. yahz. but overall it's ok.
went thru e tea ceremony n receive ang baos coz i m e younger sis. hahaz. after tt went 4 my first manicure cum pedicure session. erhz. quite horrible lahz. yahz. coz i seriously dun noe how 2 take care of my nails wan lahz. so it keep on gettin ruined n hav 2 redo. in e end i spent so long at e salon tt i dun hav time 2 doll myself up 4 e dinner. hahaz. tis is so funnie. i spent a 2tal of 30 mins 2 get ready includin showerin. i tink i m e best manz. hahaz.
e heels were killin mi lahz. coz i seriously cannt tahan heels wan. furthermore it's vry tight so my feet got marks now lahz. dotz. yahz. i was vry scared tt i will sprain my ankle. hahaz.
as 4 2dae went back 4 attachment lahz. was attached 2 research 4 next 2 daes also. erhz. didnt do much lahz. yahz. went 2 e labs n stayed there lahz. erhz. i dun reallie tink i m suitable 4 research lahz. managed 2 c how they do pcr n alot of biotech stuff. also went 2 e animal research labs 2 c e rats mice n rabbits. e smell is horrible lahz. hahaz. got a lab coat 2 wear thruout e 3 daes there. hmmz. n e library got quite alot of stuff 4 u 2 read lahz. aniwae e labs r at a negative pressure as compared 2 e outside atmosphere so it feels as though u r at a higher altitude than usual. hahaz. n e doors r supreme hard 2 open lahz. doors tt led 2 e outside corridors n lifts.
dreaming awae at 9:28 PM
Friday, November 19, 2004
yahz. tt's basically sum up e past 2 daes. hmmz. well i was attached 2 neurology 4 tues n wed. as 4 thurs n 2dae i m attached 2 neurogsurgery. obviously u get wat i mean lahz. i get 2 go into e operatin theatres n observe operations lahz.
met Mr Ivan Ng who is a consultant in neurogsurgery. dun ask mi y he is named mister n nt doctor. i seriously dun noe. yahz. aniwae he's frm RI lahz. n it's like e whole neurosurgical department is split into 2 sides lahz. one side is e raffles family e other side is e anglo-chinese family. hahaz. so aniwae. Mr Ivan Ng is like one of e busiest pple i hav ever seen lahz. so obviously he cant take care of us rite? so yahz. we were dumped 2 various docs lahz. hmmz. aniwae in e mornin e whole grp of 7 of us follow a whole team of neurosurgeons lead by Mr Ivan Ng lahz. so we moved frm ward 2 ward lahz. n c quite alot of interesting patients. though most of e time i dun quite understand wat they r tokin abt.
so in e end derrick n i followed Dr Shane who brought us 2 a few more patients b4 we stopped in a rm 2 listen 2 him xplain one type of condition tt require surgical attention. yahz. it's a vry cheem word which i obviously dun noe how 2 spell lahz. sumting related 2 e blood vessel's wall softenin so in e end rite. e blood vessel look like e meanderin river w e ox-bow lake like tt. juz tt e lump/soft tissue/ox-bow lake will burst readily n cause bleeding within e brain lahz. after tt he brought us 2 e operatin theatre where we observe e operation near e back of e head 2 remove a tumour lahz. it's done by Dr Ng Wai Hoe (associate consultant) n oversee by Mr Peter Hwang (obviously is a consultant n who ask us where we r frm n sae luckily we nt frm hwa chong...dun noe y also). aniwae both consultants hav tt kind of boomin voice tt sure get ur attention wan lahz. wonder y? aniwae Dr Ng is vry nice as when he was doin e op, he was also tellin us wat he was doin n lettin us c as e microscrope he was usin was connected 2 a tv screen lahz. then he was like cuttin n cuttin, probin deeper n deeper. b4 he suddenly declared. tt's e tumour. i tell u ok. tumour is nt hard ok. it look like jelly juz like e rest of e brain. but b4 tt. e process of removin e skull n openin e skin was quite gory. hahaz. yahz. actuallie e whole op is quite bloody lahz. so yahz. but wat i cannt stand is e wearin of e rubber boots lahz. coz in order 2 go into ots. u hav 2 change out of everytin lahz. includin ur shoes. n tt rubber boots is like how hard n there is a heel summore. dotz. we stand there 4 ard 3 hrs i almost died lahz. n e aircon is like how cold. i cldnt feel my toes when i was changin. dotz.
went 4 a late lunch straight after e tumour was removed. cannt tahan alrdy lahz. after tt sum of them left 2 go 2 another doc's clinic. sumting related 2 e spine while mi n jensen make our wae back 2 e ots. tis time round. when we go back. e operation we were observing was endin onli. dotz. they were stitchin up e patient. n i managed 2 ask Dr Ng a few qns. hahaz. like y muz u use hydrogen peroxide 2 stop e bleedin. aniwae as tt op was endin le. so mi n jensen wait 4 e other wan 4 more than 1 hr. durin tt period of time. we were loiterin ard. goin 2 other ots 2 c other types of surgery e.g. ENT. GS. erhz. we didnt dare 2 go into e ots so we were standin at e door n peepin lahz. hahaz. so yahz. e op starts at 5.15 pm i tink. after our dismissal time. but then it's a different type of op lahz. so we decided 2 wait lorz. they r performin a op 2 insert a shunt (tube tt drain e cerebal spinal fluid frm e brain vesticles into e abdomen) as e patient is unable 2 do so normally due 2 various reasons n e excess fluids r causin a compression on e brain. yahz. so e whole process is like preparin e bbq chicken wing where u hav 2 poke e metal grill thru e chicken wing. tt's how it is like lahz. n due 2 tt particular registra who is doin e op rite it becum vry bloody coz his hand arhz. keep on shakin. dun even noe y he becum a surgeon. then there's another doc lahz. a Medical Officer. Dr Lee CK. he was makin a incision on e abdomen while tt registra is makin a hole in e skull. Dr Lee is vry nice as he xplained 2 us wat he was doin unlike tt registra lahz. so aniwae if u wanna noe e gory/bloody details then ask mi lahz. dun wan 2 make tis entry 2 long.
we left ard 6.45pm when they r still doin e stitchin. i tell u ok. my whole leg hurt lahz. dotz. hurt like anitin lorz. my lower back hurts also. i feel so tired tt my legs r ready 2 buckle ani moment.
as 4 2dae. reach vry early 2 attend a meetin w e neurosurgeons. one of them is presentin his analysis on a recent medical paper lahz. learn quite a few tings frm e meetin. hmmz. after tt follow Dr Ng on his round 2 c e patient tt was operated yesterdae. e removal of e brain tumour. he seem vry confused lahz. hmmz. n went on 2 c a few more patients. after tt rotted ard 4 a while b4 goin into e ots again.
went 2 observe Dr Ernest Wang (associate consultant) 2 do a vascular dun noe wat op lahz. e wan where e patient hav e soft tissue vessel. yahz. so they r suppose 2 find e lump n put a clip there 2 prevent blood frm flowing thru there n burstin it. hmmz. quite alot of tings happen lahz. as sum of e less experienced surgeons were doin e intial stages e.g. openin e skull etc. yahz. later. Mr Ivan Ng came in 2 direct lahz. now then i realise tt he is like how qiang. hahaz. vry vry confident. hands r like how steady. oh yahz. they r usin e microscope again lahz. so we get 2 c on e screen again. but tis time round. dun reallie not wat 2 look out 4 coz. dun noe much abt it wat. again lahz. due 2 sum mistakes make earlier. e whole process becum like how bloody. yahz. wanted 2 stay 4 e stitchin up but again need 2 go 4 lunch lahz. sighz. so left lorz.
after tt rotted 4 vry long time lahz. includin e time we went into ots again lahz. but didnt get 2 c animore ops coz one of them is finishin le. then e next wan will start like in 1 hr time n last ard 5 hrs? dotz. tt's how long. yahz.
aniwae durin 2dae's op. met e anaesthesian again frm yesterdae. Dr Mah CL. yahz. specializes in anaesthetics. seen all type of ops lahz. n tell us nt 2 becum a doc. n most impt nt 2 becum a neurosurgeon. ok. gd can. tt's wat i wan n u tell mi nt 2. dotz. hmmz. will tink abt it lahz.
dreaming awae at 10:27 PM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
ok lahz...i dun tink i will be closin down e blog lahz. hmmz. coz i seriously hav a bad memory n need 2 note stuff down. so yahz. hmmz. i realise i stop 4 a vry vry vry long time. ok. i shall c wat i can recall ok. hahaz.
well e first few daes of nov is spent on pw lahz. dun feel like elaboratin. juz tt i abit numb le lahz. sighz. nvm it's over now. hopefullie life pass on peacefully.
aniwae celebrated twin sis birthdae lahz. n my dotz amir mummy n gabriel daddy actuallie sang e birthdae song wrongly...hahaz. hav so much fun tryin 2 learn e song in various languages. hav a great dae w them. miss my 'useless' parents so much. n of course my twin sis. hahaz.
well i went 2 sing k box w win2 n one of her fren. dotz. hahaz. i was so nua by e 2 of them tt i dun noe wat 2 sae. her fren behave in such a nua wae tt i m reminded of marlom...hahaz. he keep on screamin lahz. dotz. hahaz. but i juz cant stop laughin. hahaz. spent a vry enjoyable dae w win2. hahaz. u will always be my best fren. our frenship is like one of e longest i hav. muack!
aniwae earlier tt dae. i 4got which dae le. went 2 sch 2 prac bassoon lahz. went home w yee ke-ow n amir mummy. n tt dae is A levels chem lahz. while waitin 4 e train. i saw my shuai ge!!! arhz. hahaz. so long nv c him le. but...he nv c mi. i m quite dotz. hahaz. nvm lahz.
went 2 swim w tze hui sis one dae also. my memory is like how nt gd. hahaz. we went 2 jurong east swimmin complex. where u got e slides n e wave pool. yahz. so fun. tis is my second time there. e first time was w my ah bu. jasmine lee minyi. my sqmate of 4 yrs. hahaz. miss her so much. hahaz. so long nv c le. aniwae. we hav a great time lahz. esp at e wave pool coz we always stand at e part where u experience e water splashin down on u. hahaz. n we went down e slides. hahaz. sister so bad arhz. whenever she goes down she will juz keep on screamin my name. goshz. e lifeguard was like starin at mi lahz. dotz. n my float hav a habit of turnin sidewae or 180 degree on e wae down. so i m always facing e side or facin e back. dotz. hahaz. but it's reallie vry fun. hahaz. sis hav 2 go 4 metro cip after tt. so i went home lahz. n on e train i met sherry who was on her wae 2 woodlands metro 4 cip 2. hahaz.
went 2 watch movie w e whole band as part of e batch outin. was in sch earlier in e dae 2 prac abit of bassoon. left 4 batch outin w nick mai n nanny. watched shark tale. n didnt find it gd lahz. or funnie. but then i hav darryl sittin next 2 mi. so it's an understatement lahz. he keep on laughin in e movie. so i was affected lahz. but overall i dun reallie find it gd lahz. but then we sit thru e credits lahz. then they keep on got sum animation inserted in between e credits. at e last animation i tink i juz go siaoz lahz. so i cldnt stop laughin. hahaz. aniwae it's vry cool durin e movie coz we hav 13 pple. so we took up e entire row. hahaz.
went 2 watch princess diaries w vicky onli coz tze hui sis stood us up. no lahz. hahaz. aniwae i tink it's alot nicer than shark tale lahz. find it more endearin. n i like tt male lead alot. duke nicholas deveraux. arhz. real name is chris pine. hahaz. coz we sit thru e credits again. hahaz. then e attendant was like standin there waitin 4 us 2 leave. so dotz. hahaz. but aniwae let mi elaborate on y i like tt actor. coz of e wae he look at pple. tt kinda intense look. abit hard 2 find on e streets arhz. i guess tt's y he got e role lahz. hahaz.
went shoppin w my darlin son 4 2 daes. hmmz. coz sis is gettin married. my real sis. who is 8 yrs older than mi. yahz. so i can hav a rm of my own soon. hahaz. no lahz. aniwae. becoz of tis i need 2 find sumtin suitable 2 wear lahz. so went shoppin lorz. luv my darlin son. evelyn tay alot can. hahaz. coz everytime i go shoppin there is a high poss she is e wan accompanyin mi. coz we equally pricky lahz. hahaz. so bought quite alot of tings lahz. n i almost died frm e non stop walkin. dotz. hahaz.
went 2 help zy pack 4 e av stuff lahz. pon band as a result. sighz. aniwae carryin ohps frm all over e sch 2 a few allocated places is not vry fun lorz. i was so sweaty n dirty at e end of it. hahaz. but muz sae tt i m still quite strong. hopefully lahz. hahaz.
aniwae my job attachment 2 e national neuroscience institue at Tan Tock Seng Hospital starts yesterdae lahz. is attached 2 Dr Lee Kim En who appear on e Channel U show REn REn Ai Li. yahz. n Dr Chan. both x-rj pple. yahz. both neurologists juz tt Dr Lee is a consultant. aniwae went 2 c quite alot of stuff lahz. like sum of e tests tt they conduct on patients e.g. EEG (dun noe wat it stands 4) where they connect electrical nodes 2 various spots on ur head n they measure ur brain waves. vry interestin. u can c how ur brain waves changes due 2 e action u done. n hyperventilation can be tested there also. tis reminds mi 2 tell batch 36 of nynp. hahaz. who r always hyperventilatin. dotz.
we observe MRI scan if i m nt wrong. sum scan lahz. hahaz. n e machine look how pro. then u can c wat's wrong w e brain. where got bleeding or dead tissue. then tis indian man who is 67 yrs old. well he suffered frm a stroke lahz. n he is in a lock up condition. which is 2 sae he can c u. hear u. but he can do anitin at all. he is still tinkin n functionin within his brain. but yahz. he cant do anitin w his body at all. xcept blink his eyes. sorta waitin 4 death. sighz. then we get 2 c sum x-rays diagrams n stuff n sum of e tests tt they conduct on e patients. wat r e purpose of these tests etc.
as 4 2dae. i was sittin in Dr Lee's clinic in e hospital lahz. dotz. do u noe how mani patients he c in one dae? more than 24 u noe. i was sittin there. n i feel like dyin. dotz. but i realise e importance of dialects n mandrian. yahz. coz most of e patients cant speak eng. hmmz. i die2 muz go n learn dialects le. we saw a wide range of patients rangin frm stroke 2 epilepsy 2 parkinson's disease 2 headaches 2 brain degenerative illness. yahz. vry interestin. vry interestin. hmmz. my ambition is 2 becum a neurologist/neurosurgeon. tis xperience is great manz. hahaz. Dr Lee is vry gd lahz. he tells us wat 2 expect if we were 2 becum a doc. e criteria. e xpectations. e sacrifices. e workin conditions. e education process. n i m quite disheartened lahz. coz every yr got ard 1400 pple applied. NUS will chose 700 plus w wateva gd records n stuff tt i most prob wun hav. n out of e 700 who went 4 interview. onli 200 will be chosen. i m like how disheartened lahz. sighz. wateva lahz. worse cum 2 worse. i go rob e bank n went overseas 2 study. hahaz. frm tis past 2 daes i sorta decided tt neurology n medicine is my cup of tea. hahaz.
will tell u all more next time lahz. realise tt i m neglectin o team stuff. sighz. n tt i vry long nv hang out w my sqmates le. yahz. i wanna go 4 e chalet! how?
dreaming awae at 9:23 PM