Monday, June 27, 2005
well. decided i shld blog now n try nt 2 come online as much as i do 4 2molo n e rest of e wk lahz. sighz.
so shld tok abt saturdae. hmmz. went 2 my sis's mother in law house. hahaz. abit e cheem lahz. yahz. 4 my niece's supposedly party. yupz. my niece is 4 mths old liao. n she is gettin cuter n cuter. juz like mi. hahaz. dun puke ok. reallie got pple sae tt we look quite similar. hahaz. so does tis mean i m cute 2? okok. enought rubbish. aniwae. it seemed 2 be a gathering of babies lahz. w my cousin' baby daughter who is also called enxin aka natalie. she is now officially known as da en xin coz she is older by 10 daes. hahaz. n my sis's fren's son is cute too. hahaz. in summary. there's alot of babies lahz. n e mothers all swop e babies 2 carry. hahaz.
after tt went home n tried 2 mug lahz. but nt reallie vry successful lahz. sighz.
sundae noon went 2 causewae pt 2 shop w win2 2 stock up my locker w food so tt i will nt starve in e comin wks n months in which i will be muggin 4 prelims n A levels. hahaz. i bought so much stuff tt i m amazed at myself. hahaz. after tt was walkin ard causewae pt lahz. n lookin 4 jacket. coz e current wan i m wearin. belonged to my bro. thus makin it at least 9 yrs old le. n it is seriously goin 2 fall apart. so 2 pple who still owe mi birthdae presenz. tis is a direct hint tt i wan a jacket! hahaz. yupz.
so was studyin after tt at 7 pm. yahz. as readin newspaper 4 ard 2 hours b4 tt. erhz. ok i m nt being vry practical here. but i m reallie shocked at e picture of olinda! oh my goodness. she looked...so weird n unproportional! sorrie. but i reallie tink tt she looks much betta in e past. yahz. 2 mi. dun hav 2 be skinny. juz be slim n proportional lookin can liao. like irene ang like tt. tis is reallie abit e overdoin it liao.
i was still writin notes 4 e first few agricultural biotechnology notes b4 i realise tt i m being stupid n unproductive. sighz. so decided 2 juz read n memorise as much stuff as poss. slept at 2.45 am.
so 2dae paper is die lahz. i onli finished readin biotechnology n meiosis n mitosis. e rest i nv touched at all can. so obviously waitin 2 die lahz. summore i did e wrong essay qn!!! oh my goodness! y did i do i sewage wan when i wasnt sure of wat i remembered! by e time i realised my mistake. i onli hav 10 mins left. it's was 2 late 2 swap 2 e gene banks wan (which i had made personal notes lorz!) wateva. i m juz gettin ready 2 be in 4 all e rememdials liao. my life is reallie horrid! n i hav no wan 2 blame except myself.
quotin frm sumwan. it's alrite 2 fail all e tests in rj. juz make sure at A levels i get all As then can liao. coz ultimately. it's A levels tt matters. may i move on frm now on w tis goal in mind.
well. decided i shld blog now n try nt 2 come online as much as i do 4 2molo n e rest of e wk lahz. sighz.
so shld tok abt saturdae. hmmz. went 2 my sis's mother in law house. hahaz. abit e cheem lahz. yahz. 4 my niece's supposedly party. yupz. my niece is 4 mths old liao. n she is gettin cuter n cuter. juz like mi. hahaz. dun puke ok. reallie got pple sae tt we look quite similar. hahaz. so does tis mean i m cute 2? okok. enought rubbish. aniwae. it seemed 2 be a gathering of babies lahz. w my cousin' baby daughter who is also called enxin aka natalie. she is now officially known as da en xin coz she is older by 10 daes. hahaz. n my sis's fren's son is cute too. hahaz. in summary. there's alot of babies lahz. n e mothers all swop e babies 2 carry. hahaz.
after tt went home n tried 2 mug lahz. but nt reallie vry successful lahz. sighz.
sundae noon went 2 causewae pt 2 shop w win2 2 stock up my locker w food so tt i will nt starve in e comin wks n months in which i will be muggin 4 prelims n A levels. hahaz. i bought so much stuff tt i m amazed at myself. hahaz. after tt was walkin ard causewae pt lahz. n lookin 4 jacket. coz e current wan i m wearin. belonged to my bro. thus makin it at least 9 yrs old le. n it is seriously goin 2 fall apart. so 2 pple who still owe mi birthdae presenz. tis is a direct hint tt i wan a jacket! hahaz. yupz.
so was studyin after tt at 7 pm. yahz. as readin newspaper 4 ard 2 hours b4 tt. erhz. ok i m nt being vry practical here. but i m reallie shocked at e picture of olinda! oh my goodness. she looked...so weird n unproportional! sorrie. but i reallie tink tt she looks much betta in e past. yahz. 2 mi. dun hav 2 be skinny. juz be slim n proportional lookin can liao. like irene ang like tt. tis is reallie abit e overdoin it liao.
i was still writin notes 4 e first few agricultural biotechnology notes b4 i realise tt i m being stupid n unproductive. sighz. so decided 2 juz read n memorise as much stuff as poss. slept at 2.45 am.
so 2dae paper is die lahz. i onli finished readin biotechnology n meiosis n mitosis. e rest i nv touched at all can. so obviously waitin 2 die lahz. summore i did e wrong essay qn!!! oh my goodness! y did i do i sewage wan when i wasnt sure of wat i remembered! by e time i realised my mistake. i onli hav 10 mins left. it's was 2 late 2 swap 2 e gene banks wan (which i had made personal notes lorz!) wateva. i m juz gettin ready 2 be in 4 all e rememdials liao. my life is reallie horrid! n i hav no wan 2 blame except myself.
quotin frm sumwan. it's alrite 2 fail all e tests in rj. juz make sure at A levels i get all As then can liao. coz ultimately. it's A levels tt matters. may i move on frm now on w tis goal in mind.
dreaming awae at 2:15 PM
Sunday, June 26, 2005
thanx 4 e msges u sent mi todae. i reallie appreciate them. i was reallie surprised when i received ur msges. but they reallie cheered mi up n encouraged mi 2 continue muggin. thanx. hahaz. hopefully all will be well. n we will c each other at e end of e yr. in e mean time. happie bummin n exercisin. all e best 4 ur studies when sch reopen.
thanx 4 e msges u sent mi todae. i reallie appreciate them. i was reallie surprised when i received ur msges. but they reallie cheered mi up n encouraged mi 2 continue muggin. thanx. hahaz. hopefully all will be well. n we will c each other at e end of e yr. in e mean time. happie bummin n exercisin. all e best 4 ur studies when sch reopen.
dreaming awae at 1:38 PM
Friday, June 24, 2005
ok. hahaz. i didnt study one bit 2dae. yupz. n i feel reallie vry guilty abt it. but then. i did enjoy myself 2dae. so i shld nt complaint. n juz pray tt i wun fail my cts as badly as in e past. but i doubt it will work lahz.
went 2 c e chinese physician 2dae again. n undergo acupuncture again. arhz. after tt rushed home 2 change b4 goin 2 jurong pt 2 meet mas 4 a quick lunch n leavin w her 2 chinese garden 2 meet sam 2 go 2 e bowlin place 2gether. hahaz. i was laughin so hard in e car lahz. oh my goodness. w sam n mas. i reallie go crazy. hahaz. was laughin non stop thru out n i tink we shocked sam's fiance. yahz. but he is vry funnie also. hahaz.
we were late lahz. in sam's words. fashionably late. e bowlin is fun due 2 sam's non stop jokes n lame comments. but my bowlin skill sucks! i was named e most pathetic bowler. (cry!) n my prize is one box of tissue paper. (cry!) i m so poor ting! oh well. hmmz. i shld start practisin my bowlin skill b4 another outin of such genre.
went 2 eat w mas. sam. n chris after tt at imm. e choc truffle i ate was quite nice. n i feel quite happie after tt. nt so pathetic after tt. hahaz. n mas n i went 2 burger king 2 continue eatin. hahaz. was juz chattin n tokin lahz. n tok abt my past experiences n emotions abit e overwhelmed mi. yahz. feel abit e pai sehz. oopz. yahz. but reallie enjoyed tokkin 2 mas. maybe becoz she reallie encourages mi alot. yahz. n though there is quite a big age difference between e 2 of us. we r still able 2 connect n i tink tis is reallie sumtin tt shld be cherished.
thanx 4 everyting. reallie. 4 givin mi such wonderful memories. i will cherish them. truly.
ok. hahaz. i didnt study one bit 2dae. yupz. n i feel reallie vry guilty abt it. but then. i did enjoy myself 2dae. so i shld nt complaint. n juz pray tt i wun fail my cts as badly as in e past. but i doubt it will work lahz.
went 2 c e chinese physician 2dae again. n undergo acupuncture again. arhz. after tt rushed home 2 change b4 goin 2 jurong pt 2 meet mas 4 a quick lunch n leavin w her 2 chinese garden 2 meet sam 2 go 2 e bowlin place 2gether. hahaz. i was laughin so hard in e car lahz. oh my goodness. w sam n mas. i reallie go crazy. hahaz. was laughin non stop thru out n i tink we shocked sam's fiance. yahz. but he is vry funnie also. hahaz.
we were late lahz. in sam's words. fashionably late. e bowlin is fun due 2 sam's non stop jokes n lame comments. but my bowlin skill sucks! i was named e most pathetic bowler. (cry!) n my prize is one box of tissue paper. (cry!) i m so poor ting! oh well. hmmz. i shld start practisin my bowlin skill b4 another outin of such genre.
went 2 eat w mas. sam. n chris after tt at imm. e choc truffle i ate was quite nice. n i feel quite happie after tt. nt so pathetic after tt. hahaz. n mas n i went 2 burger king 2 continue eatin. hahaz. was juz chattin n tokin lahz. n tok abt my past experiences n emotions abit e overwhelmed mi. yahz. feel abit e pai sehz. oopz. yahz. but reallie enjoyed tokkin 2 mas. maybe becoz she reallie encourages mi alot. yahz. n though there is quite a big age difference between e 2 of us. we r still able 2 connect n i tink tis is reallie sumtin tt shld be cherished.
thanx 4 everyting. reallie. 4 givin mi such wonderful memories. i will cherish them. truly.
dreaming awae at 11:59 PM
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
well. muggin has nt been goin on vry well 4 mi. sighz. 2dae is e dae i officially started 2 mug. n guess wat. i onli like finish readin magnetism notes rite. i m dead. let mi juz proclaim tt i m dead. sighz.
aniwae e dae began w mi goin 2 mug w win2. yupz. supposed 2 be a vry productive dae. but e ting is. i slept at 2 am in e mornin. coz i was packin my notes etc wat. so yahz. i was rather sleepy. keep on dozin off while tryin 2 mug. then guess wat. we met a pervert rite. at fuchun community club study rm. yahz. i cant believe my luck. tis is e 3rd pervert i met in like tis yr? which is like onli 6 mths lahz.
he keep on lookin at us. n smilin at us. win2 almost went up n box him. hahaz. so funnie. then rite. he practically camp there lahz. i tink he stayed there lorz. it's so disgustin. so he left e study rm 2 dun noe go where. n shortly. we left 2. 2 eat lahz.
after eatin n tryin 2 mug in e much noiser environment. we went 2 e toilet. n on our wae there we met e pervert again! oh my. n he actuallie walked near us n stepped between e 2 of us. i quickly stepped out of e wae n we entered e toilet immediately 2gether. it's so disgustin! wow liao!
no 1. i muz sae. i m nt wearin sch uniform like e previous 2 times. no 2. i m nt wearin a skirt or ani revealin clothing. n win2 also. unless u consider shorts revealin lahz.
i cant believe it. izzt becoz i m 18 tis yr or wat? wat e ?!%?
so aniwae. we decided tt muggin is nt productive 4 e 2 of us. n we decided 2 stroll ard rite. hahaz. we r such bad study companion 4 each other. n ended up at causewae pt rottin awae. oh my! 4get it manz. i decided. i shld juz stay at home n mug. or else i wun be able 2 study anitin! oh gosh! A levels is like 4 mths later! n i m still here slackin! i m dead.
so frm 2molo onwards i m goin 2 stay at home n mug. n mug n mug n mug. yupz. i hope i hav enough self discipline 2 c mi thru. sighz. n i m still debatin whether i shld go 2 e dvc gatherin on fridae. oh dear. sighz. we shall c how much i finished by 2molo. sighz.
well. muggin has nt been goin on vry well 4 mi. sighz. 2dae is e dae i officially started 2 mug. n guess wat. i onli like finish readin magnetism notes rite. i m dead. let mi juz proclaim tt i m dead. sighz.
aniwae e dae began w mi goin 2 mug w win2. yupz. supposed 2 be a vry productive dae. but e ting is. i slept at 2 am in e mornin. coz i was packin my notes etc wat. so yahz. i was rather sleepy. keep on dozin off while tryin 2 mug. then guess wat. we met a pervert rite. at fuchun community club study rm. yahz. i cant believe my luck. tis is e 3rd pervert i met in like tis yr? which is like onli 6 mths lahz.
he keep on lookin at us. n smilin at us. win2 almost went up n box him. hahaz. so funnie. then rite. he practically camp there lahz. i tink he stayed there lorz. it's so disgustin. so he left e study rm 2 dun noe go where. n shortly. we left 2. 2 eat lahz.
after eatin n tryin 2 mug in e much noiser environment. we went 2 e toilet. n on our wae there we met e pervert again! oh my. n he actuallie walked near us n stepped between e 2 of us. i quickly stepped out of e wae n we entered e toilet immediately 2gether. it's so disgustin! wow liao!
no 1. i muz sae. i m nt wearin sch uniform like e previous 2 times. no 2. i m nt wearin a skirt or ani revealin clothing. n win2 also. unless u consider shorts revealin lahz.
i cant believe it. izzt becoz i m 18 tis yr or wat? wat e ?!%?
so aniwae. we decided tt muggin is nt productive 4 e 2 of us. n we decided 2 stroll ard rite. hahaz. we r such bad study companion 4 each other. n ended up at causewae pt rottin awae. oh my! 4get it manz. i decided. i shld juz stay at home n mug. or else i wun be able 2 study anitin! oh gosh! A levels is like 4 mths later! n i m still here slackin! i m dead.
so frm 2molo onwards i m goin 2 stay at home n mug. n mug n mug n mug. yupz. i hope i hav enough self discipline 2 c mi thru. sighz. n i m still debatin whether i shld go 2 e dvc gatherin on fridae. oh dear. sighz. we shall c how much i finished by 2molo. sighz.
dreaming awae at 10:38 PM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
was bored lahz. so decided to search 4 pics of bassoons. yupz. n tis reminds mi 2 take a photo w my bassoon after sch reopens. coz i noe i will miss my 'baby' vry vry much after i leave rj. yahz. aniwae i found tis. n seriously it's quite funnie.
hahaz. tis is taken frm an online website tt promotes colourin bks. besides bassoon there r alot of other instru includin saxophone. cello etc which hav been compared 2 clarinet 2 help e kids learn e instrus. find tis reallie quite funnie. hahaz. if u interested. can go to tis website to hav a look.
Cartoons!
was bored lahz. so decided to search 4 pics of bassoons. yupz. n tis reminds mi 2 take a photo w my bassoon after sch reopens. coz i noe i will miss my 'baby' vry vry much after i leave rj. yahz. aniwae i found tis. n seriously it's quite funnie.
hahaz. tis is taken frm an online website tt promotes colourin bks. besides bassoon there r alot of other instru includin saxophone. cello etc which hav been compared 2 clarinet 2 help e kids learn e instrus. find tis reallie quite funnie. hahaz. if u interested. can go to tis website to hav a look.
Cartoons!
dreaming awae at 5:55 PM
ok. i m bored w filin n tryin 2 mug. sighz. still hav abt 1 hr more worth of filin 2 do b4 i m settled once n 4 all. lookin at e amt of notes. tutorials. answers. worksheets. past yr papers. tests. summaries i hav. it's reallie vry terrifyin. i even need 2 go out n buy more files. sighz. oh well. i need 2 force myself 2 settle down n study. i muz study! i cant continue failin like tis. btw i failed my chem mock if i m nt wrong. coz i onli like speed read 2 topics? hahaz. i tink i m unbeatable in e world liao.
Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.
Quiz addy
find tis fairly interestin. hahaz. hmmz. go n try it if u r bored.
Your Working Style
You use you thinking to look for the principles underlying the sensory information that comes into awareness. As a result, you are logical, analytical, and objectively critical. You are not likely to be convinced by anything but reasoning based on solid facts.
While you like to organize facts and data, you prefer not to organize situations or people unless you must for the sake of your work. You can be intensely but quietly curious. Socially you may be rather shy except with your best friends. You sometimes become so absorbed with one of your interests that you can ignore of lose track of external circumstances.
You are somewhat quiet and reserved, although you can be quite talkative on a subject where you can apply your great storehouse of information. In everyday activities you are adaptable, except when one of your ruling principles is violated, at which point you stop adapting. You are good with your hands, and like sports and the outdoors, or anything that provides a wealth of information for your senses.
If you have developed your powers of observing the world around you, you will have a firm grasp on the realities of any situation, and show a great capacity for the important and unique facts of a situation. You are interested in how and why things work and are likely to be good at applied science, mechanics, or engineering. If you do not have technical or mechanical interests, you often use your talents to bring order out of unorganized facts. This ability can find expression in law, economics, marketing, sales, securities, or statistics.
You may rely so much on the logical approach of thinking that you overlook what other people care about and what you yourself care about. You may decide that something is not important, just because it isn't logical to care about it. If you always let your thinking suppress your feeling values, your feeling may build up pressure and find expression in inappropriate ways. Although good at analyzing what is wrong, you sometimes find it hard to express appreciation. But if you try, you will find it helpful on the job as well as in personal relationships.
You are in some danger of putting off decisions or of failing to follow through. One of your outstanding traits is economy of effort. This trait is an asset if you judge accurately how much effort is needed; then you do what the situation requires without fuss or lost motion. If you cannot judge accurately, or if you just don't bother, then nothing of importance gets done.
Another quiz addy
ok. i decided i shld juz stop wastin my time online n finish up my filin. so tt i can start muggin proper. hahaz. i muz mug! yupz. all e best 2 mi! n those who r muggin also...practically everywan i noe. hahaz. jia you!
dreaming awae at 4:35 PM
Sunday, June 19, 2005
ok. i hav been abit e miain. well. shall blog first. b4 i get down 2 serious muggin 4 chem! arhz! i hav Mock Test 2molo!!! n i onli noe it like e dae b4? wat e?!%!
was reallie exhausted lahz. hahaz. muz be due 2 e fact tt i m out like everydae? yahz. so aniwae. was dragged to c a chinese physician by my mother regardin my eva present shoulder n neck pain. experienced acupunture n e hot air bottle tings tt chinese physicians do 4 e first time in my life. quite an experience arhz. aniwae. e chinese physician suspected tt i might hav injured my neck lahz. so sent mi 4 x rae. n it costs $63? oh my goodness. i m goin 2 faint. hahaz. so yahz. now i hav nt onli my pinkie x rae w mi. but also my neck rite. hahaz. lucky 4 mi i dun hav ani fracture. whether hairline or wat. juz tt i sprained my neck b4. but b4 it can fully recovered. i dun noe do wat then worsen it. so it aches continually 4 like 6 yrs? hahaz. i m vry qiang rite?
so after e x rae i went home 2 sleep. n halfwae was awoken by a rather urgent yet amusin phone call. shld nt elaborate. after tt was forcin myself 2 at least read sum of my notes so tt i will start muggin. but nt vry effective lahz. hahaz.
went 2 hav dinner w mas. sam n francis after tt. at lot 1. n it is like how crowded. sighz. 4 goodness sake lahz. hav sum common sense n dun put e power rangers show in such a small shoppin centre. i cant even take e escalator in peace. hav a reallie enjoyable evenin w them. though sum if not most of e stuff tt was discussed r reallie R21. hahaz. yahz. so obviously i was lost alot of times along e wae. but it was reallie fun. hahaz.
went out w win2 2 kbox on fridae. n sang like dun noe how out of key! oh my goodness. it's so disgustin. hahaz. oh well. i shld go n prac more n ensure tt i sound betta. so as 2 make myself feel betta. hahaz.
then yesterdae went 2 e youth challenge headquarters 4 e first time. quite an eye opener lahz. saw e photos of my nynpcc seniors who r involved in yc also. yahz. almost lost our wae there. hahaz. cannt blame mi horz. it's reallie quite ulu. yahz. after tt went shoppin w yee keow 2 find a swim suit. coz my swim suit of ard 5 yrs is dyin. was quite happie w my purchase! hahaz. yupz. so i can like finally go swimmin soon. i missed swimmin. haven swim 4 ard half a yr liao. mostly becoz of my pinkie. sighz. oh well. i m lookin 4ward 2 swimmin!
as 4 2dae. hav notin much lahz. juz slackin online n procastinatin studyin. feel quite bad. oh well. i shld make an effort nt 2 fail. yupz! tt's e spirit! wish mi luck. sighz.
ok. i hav been abit e miain. well. shall blog first. b4 i get down 2 serious muggin 4 chem! arhz! i hav Mock Test 2molo!!! n i onli noe it like e dae b4? wat e?!%!
was reallie exhausted lahz. hahaz. muz be due 2 e fact tt i m out like everydae? yahz. so aniwae. was dragged to c a chinese physician by my mother regardin my eva present shoulder n neck pain. experienced acupunture n e hot air bottle tings tt chinese physicians do 4 e first time in my life. quite an experience arhz. aniwae. e chinese physician suspected tt i might hav injured my neck lahz. so sent mi 4 x rae. n it costs $63? oh my goodness. i m goin 2 faint. hahaz. so yahz. now i hav nt onli my pinkie x rae w mi. but also my neck rite. hahaz. lucky 4 mi i dun hav ani fracture. whether hairline or wat. juz tt i sprained my neck b4. but b4 it can fully recovered. i dun noe do wat then worsen it. so it aches continually 4 like 6 yrs? hahaz. i m vry qiang rite?
so after e x rae i went home 2 sleep. n halfwae was awoken by a rather urgent yet amusin phone call. shld nt elaborate. after tt was forcin myself 2 at least read sum of my notes so tt i will start muggin. but nt vry effective lahz. hahaz.
went 2 hav dinner w mas. sam n francis after tt. at lot 1. n it is like how crowded. sighz. 4 goodness sake lahz. hav sum common sense n dun put e power rangers show in such a small shoppin centre. i cant even take e escalator in peace. hav a reallie enjoyable evenin w them. though sum if not most of e stuff tt was discussed r reallie R21. hahaz. yahz. so obviously i was lost alot of times along e wae. but it was reallie fun. hahaz.
went out w win2 2 kbox on fridae. n sang like dun noe how out of key! oh my goodness. it's so disgustin. hahaz. oh well. i shld go n prac more n ensure tt i sound betta. so as 2 make myself feel betta. hahaz.
then yesterdae went 2 e youth challenge headquarters 4 e first time. quite an eye opener lahz. saw e photos of my nynpcc seniors who r involved in yc also. yahz. almost lost our wae there. hahaz. cannt blame mi horz. it's reallie quite ulu. yahz. after tt went shoppin w yee keow 2 find a swim suit. coz my swim suit of ard 5 yrs is dyin. was quite happie w my purchase! hahaz. yupz. so i can like finally go swimmin soon. i missed swimmin. haven swim 4 ard half a yr liao. mostly becoz of my pinkie. sighz. oh well. i m lookin 4ward 2 swimmin!
as 4 2dae. hav notin much lahz. juz slackin online n procastinatin studyin. feel quite bad. oh well. i shld make an effort nt 2 fail. yupz! tt's e spirit! wish mi luck. sighz.
dreaming awae at 3:23 PM
Friday, June 17, 2005
i feel a sense of loss. i tink he is avoidin mi. seriously. oh dear. wat hav i done wrong? sighz. it seemed so awkward 2dae. even w mas n sam ard us. it still seem vry weird n strained. hav i done anitin tt make him tink in tt direction? but i hav been vry careful. been vry 'normal'. wat's wrong?
i didnt work tis wk. but i went back twice alrdy. yahz. but both times i didnt get 2 speak 2 him much. coz he's bus leader n is rushin off 2 send e kids home. mondae. i went back after my occupational therapy n shoppin at douby ghaut. was rather dressed up as compared 2 usual. was supposed 2 go out 2gether w mas. but last min. he gave a rather lame excuse n didnt turn up. on wed. i went back after my band invest. so i was wearin rj sch uniform. passed him his presenz as a thanx u gift 4 e first wk. n tt's all. 2dae went out as a group of 4. but sumhow i feel tt it's different. n i dun noe why izzt like tt. it feels alot more strained. sighz. oh well. nvm. we wun be cin each other until next fri le. hope everyting will return 2 normal by then. n we will be gd frenz again. w tis tinge of uneasiness gone.
sumtimes i wonder m i being 2 idealistic? hahaz. but guess ultimately i noe. deep inside my heart. such tings dun exist. yupz. shall go sleep now. n start 2 mug 4 my common tests. n everyting will come 2 its end.
i feel a sense of loss. i tink he is avoidin mi. seriously. oh dear. wat hav i done wrong? sighz. it seemed so awkward 2dae. even w mas n sam ard us. it still seem vry weird n strained. hav i done anitin tt make him tink in tt direction? but i hav been vry careful. been vry 'normal'. wat's wrong?
i didnt work tis wk. but i went back twice alrdy. yahz. but both times i didnt get 2 speak 2 him much. coz he's bus leader n is rushin off 2 send e kids home. mondae. i went back after my occupational therapy n shoppin at douby ghaut. was rather dressed up as compared 2 usual. was supposed 2 go out 2gether w mas. but last min. he gave a rather lame excuse n didnt turn up. on wed. i went back after my band invest. so i was wearin rj sch uniform. passed him his presenz as a thanx u gift 4 e first wk. n tt's all. 2dae went out as a group of 4. but sumhow i feel tt it's different. n i dun noe why izzt like tt. it feels alot more strained. sighz. oh well. nvm. we wun be cin each other until next fri le. hope everyting will return 2 normal by then. n we will be gd frenz again. w tis tinge of uneasiness gone.
sumtimes i wonder m i being 2 idealistic? hahaz. but guess ultimately i noe. deep inside my heart. such tings dun exist. yupz. shall go sleep now. n start 2 mug 4 my common tests. n everyting will come 2 its end.
dreaming awae at 1:46 PM
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
todae is investiture. yupz. e last page of my band chapter. feel reallie nostalgic watchin all e videos. hav reallie a great time laughin at some parts esp those tt contains du yang. so funnie! hahaz. but muz sae e last part of e movie/video is reallie vry touchin. i luv my juniors! arhz! yupz. hahaz. u noe who u r. so i dun need 2 sae so much rite? hahaz.
went 2 wild wild wet yesterdae. w lulu n xiu li. as we were rather bored n sianz. we decided 2 call ourselves 'lulu. lala n lili'. hahaz. it's so funnie. so we r officially known as e 3 'll'. hahaz. ok i m lame. hahaz.
hav quite a fun time at www. yupz. enjoyed myself quite alot except i keep on slippin n fallin down at all poss places. so now i hav quite alot of bruises n blisters n open wounds. everyting is fairly alrite except 1 ride which i screamed until i dun noe wat i m doin. 4 those who learned physics. u shld noe abt tt at e turnin pt. v=0. so e obj will be stationary 4 awhile. in tis lapse of time. my heart stop beatin! oh my goodness. i was so scared lahz. dotz.
aniwae there's notin much there lahz. so basically i wun go there again liao in e future. yupz. but reallie enjoyed e time spent w lulu n lili. hahaz.
met e rest of e clique 4 dinner at orchard. nydc. wheelock place. hav a great time there. hahaz. yupz n we ordered desserts 2 be shared among us. i tell u arhz. it's reallie vry sinful! hahaz. i need 2 exercise! arhz.
reached home rather late. was too tired 2 complete all e invest presenz. sighz. feel reallie vry guilty. sighz. oh well. nvm. i can always give e presenz later. yupz. hope all my batchmates dun mind.
was on a photo spree after e presentation. hahaz. daddy i luv u!!! thanx 4 ur cam. or else i will die liao. hahaz. was like snappin photos w all my batchmates. hahaz. so happie! yupz. thanx 2 all who hav given mi cards n presenz. luv u all reallie vry vry much. feelin rather tired now. so maybe will write my individual thanx u speech in a later entry.
but juz wanna sae tt u guys hav been great. wout u all. i wun be here. i will nv hav managed 2 struggle thru everyting. thanx 4 everyting u hav done 4 mi. thanx 4 all e memories we hav shared. i luv u guys lotsa!
todae is investiture. yupz. e last page of my band chapter. feel reallie nostalgic watchin all e videos. hav reallie a great time laughin at some parts esp those tt contains du yang. so funnie! hahaz. but muz sae e last part of e movie/video is reallie vry touchin. i luv my juniors! arhz! yupz. hahaz. u noe who u r. so i dun need 2 sae so much rite? hahaz.
went 2 wild wild wet yesterdae. w lulu n xiu li. as we were rather bored n sianz. we decided 2 call ourselves 'lulu. lala n lili'. hahaz. it's so funnie. so we r officially known as e 3 'll'. hahaz. ok i m lame. hahaz.
hav quite a fun time at www. yupz. enjoyed myself quite alot except i keep on slippin n fallin down at all poss places. so now i hav quite alot of bruises n blisters n open wounds. everyting is fairly alrite except 1 ride which i screamed until i dun noe wat i m doin. 4 those who learned physics. u shld noe abt tt at e turnin pt. v=0. so e obj will be stationary 4 awhile. in tis lapse of time. my heart stop beatin! oh my goodness. i was so scared lahz. dotz.
aniwae there's notin much there lahz. so basically i wun go there again liao in e future. yupz. but reallie enjoyed e time spent w lulu n lili. hahaz.
met e rest of e clique 4 dinner at orchard. nydc. wheelock place. hav a great time there. hahaz. yupz n we ordered desserts 2 be shared among us. i tell u arhz. it's reallie vry sinful! hahaz. i need 2 exercise! arhz.
reached home rather late. was too tired 2 complete all e invest presenz. sighz. feel reallie vry guilty. sighz. oh well. nvm. i can always give e presenz later. yupz. hope all my batchmates dun mind.
was on a photo spree after e presentation. hahaz. daddy i luv u!!! thanx 4 ur cam. or else i will die liao. hahaz. was like snappin photos w all my batchmates. hahaz. so happie! yupz. thanx 2 all who hav given mi cards n presenz. luv u all reallie vry vry much. feelin rather tired now. so maybe will write my individual thanx u speech in a later entry.
but juz wanna sae tt u guys hav been great. wout u all. i wun be here. i will nv hav managed 2 struggle thru everyting. thanx 4 everyting u hav done 4 mi. thanx 4 all e memories we hav shared. i luv u guys lotsa!
dreaming awae at 9:00 PM
Monday, June 13, 2005
ok. juz reached home abt half an hr ago. yupz. my bro is out of country again! yeahz! i hav e com 2 myself! hahaz. so happie! aniwae. i realised tt my bro bought a new digi cam!!! arhz. but i doubt he will lend it 2 mi aniwae. coz it cost like 600 plus? if i was him. i definitely wun lend it 2 my younger sis who has a tendency 2 spoil stuff. hahaz. i m like supreme accident prone. hahaz. so funnie.
well. yesterdae went out w my dear darlin son again. 2 watch magadascar. hahaz. it's quite funnie lahz. hahaz. yupz. n we went shoppin 2. bought quite a few pairs of earings n i m quite satisfied w my purchase. shld stop goin shoppin le. i m like how broke liao. hmmz.
went dinner w my family n c my little niece. who has grown fatter! yupz. she looks more like a normal chubby baby now. so cute!!! hahaz. if poss i will try 2 post her photos up here. yupz. taken w my 1 megapixels cam phone. i hope it turns out fine. hahaz.
i sorta understand y my sis marry my brother in law now. coz he is reallie a great father. at least frm wat i c now lahz. e baby started cryin when we were abt 2 start eatin. so erhz. my sis didnt eat n start 2 feed e baby. while my bro-in-law is like eatin vry fast. after tt he took over my sis's place n feed e baby. e wae he try 2 help e baby burp is reallie vry heart warmin. can c e luv in his eyes. i m so happie 4 e 3 of them. such a happie family.
went 4 my last occupational therapy 2dae. hahaz. was happily chattin awae w my therapist. yupz. so apparently she is vry satisfied w my progress so i dun hav 2 c her animore. after tt went 2 meet up w my insurance agent aka my sis's fren. n signed e insurance form. now did i realise tt i cld hav stay in a higher class ward n stayed 4 a longer period of time so tt e amt i can claim will be much more. oh well. guess it's ok lahz. juz hope tt i dun hav 2 go thru all of tt again. yupz.
went 2 douby ghaut 2 buy stuff b4 headin back 2 woodlands 2 buy stuff 4 invest. n i realise tt they dun hav enough 4 mi! arhz! so sighz. i guess i hav 2 come up w sumtin again. after tt head down 2 bukit timah 2 meet up w sam n mas they all. hahaz. was happily disturbin classes. oopz. then went 2 eat w mas. n loiter ard jurong pt.
will be goin 2 wild wild wet 2molo n meetin my 408 clique 4 dinner. yupz. apparently i haven start 2 study yet. so. i tink i m goin 2 fail my cts. sighz. oh well. shld try 2 mug soon. MUG!!!
ok. juz reached home abt half an hr ago. yupz. my bro is out of country again! yeahz! i hav e com 2 myself! hahaz. so happie! aniwae. i realised tt my bro bought a new digi cam!!! arhz. but i doubt he will lend it 2 mi aniwae. coz it cost like 600 plus? if i was him. i definitely wun lend it 2 my younger sis who has a tendency 2 spoil stuff. hahaz. i m like supreme accident prone. hahaz. so funnie.
well. yesterdae went out w my dear darlin son again. 2 watch magadascar. hahaz. it's quite funnie lahz. hahaz. yupz. n we went shoppin 2. bought quite a few pairs of earings n i m quite satisfied w my purchase. shld stop goin shoppin le. i m like how broke liao. hmmz.
went dinner w my family n c my little niece. who has grown fatter! yupz. she looks more like a normal chubby baby now. so cute!!! hahaz. if poss i will try 2 post her photos up here. yupz. taken w my 1 megapixels cam phone. i hope it turns out fine. hahaz.
i sorta understand y my sis marry my brother in law now. coz he is reallie a great father. at least frm wat i c now lahz. e baby started cryin when we were abt 2 start eatin. so erhz. my sis didnt eat n start 2 feed e baby. while my bro-in-law is like eatin vry fast. after tt he took over my sis's place n feed e baby. e wae he try 2 help e baby burp is reallie vry heart warmin. can c e luv in his eyes. i m so happie 4 e 3 of them. such a happie family.
went 4 my last occupational therapy 2dae. hahaz. was happily chattin awae w my therapist. yupz. so apparently she is vry satisfied w my progress so i dun hav 2 c her animore. after tt went 2 meet up w my insurance agent aka my sis's fren. n signed e insurance form. now did i realise tt i cld hav stay in a higher class ward n stayed 4 a longer period of time so tt e amt i can claim will be much more. oh well. guess it's ok lahz. juz hope tt i dun hav 2 go thru all of tt again. yupz.
went 2 douby ghaut 2 buy stuff b4 headin back 2 woodlands 2 buy stuff 4 invest. n i realise tt they dun hav enough 4 mi! arhz! so sighz. i guess i hav 2 come up w sumtin again. after tt head down 2 bukit timah 2 meet up w sam n mas they all. hahaz. was happily disturbin classes. oopz. then went 2 eat w mas. n loiter ard jurong pt.
will be goin 2 wild wild wet 2molo n meetin my 408 clique 4 dinner. yupz. apparently i haven start 2 study yet. so. i tink i m goin 2 fail my cts. sighz. oh well. shld try 2 mug soon. MUG!!!
dreaming awae at 11:15 PM
Saturday, June 11, 2005
well. juz woke up after a nap. yupz. feelin abit disorientated now. hmmz. shld try 2 write down wat happened durin work first.
wednesdae. we did rockets n i hav fun launchin e rockets w a pump etc. hahaz. juz tt e results r nt as gd as e past classes n dun noe y also. sighz. n my teacher n fellow leader was kana scolded by tt irritatin woman. n becoz i was downstairs preparin e launchin of e ro-kit set i was spared. or else i will give her e utmost 'buai song' face. i juz dislike her immersely lorz. tt irritatin woman! went shoppin w mas after tt 2 buy sandals. yahz. so now e previously sandals-less estella has a pair of sandals! yeahz! ok i m mad.
thursdae. we went 2 e navy museum. which is a total wasted trip coz e curator is on leave thus no guided tour. n e 3D show is cancelled due 2 technical probs. yahz. so basically e children was bored n they didnt learn anitin much lahz. after tt built a glider which was quite fun! hahaz. spent like e whole nite tryin 2 rush finish e drawings 4 e kids. n i slept at 2 plus am. after tryin 2 finish packin my stuff 4 chalet also.
fridae. did e moon buggy which is nt vry successful. but overall e kids hav fun. then after tt we did e skit w them. hahaz. muz sae tt mi n joanna r reallie a great pair of actors. we worked reallie well w each others. hahaz. e skit is rather funnie. ok lahz. n quite lame. but basically e kids hav fun wat. hahaz. met joyce n her sis. hahaz. she arhz. nv fails 2 suan mi wan. 4eva like tt. sighz. n one of e first tings she asked mi was 'is yee keow n yu jin 2gether?' hahaz. i can picture yee keow's face immediately. so funnie. hahaz. met tammy also. rj senior. j6. who also worked in dvc. hahaz. was gossipin w her. arhz. i thrive on gossip. hahaz. collected my 2nd pay check 4 e mth. went 2 boon lay w mas b4 goin 2 pasir ris. sighz. feel rather sad tt i m nt workin next wk. but nvm. at least i get 2 study le! arhz!!!
so followin tradition. tis r e kids i taught tis wk.
Kristin. Joseph. Emmanuel. Li Peng. Xin Yi. Christopher. Stefanie. Joshua. Bryan. Xiao Lei. Harrison. Casey. Natalie. Sankari. Utkarsha. Jeffery. Sung Hun. Yong Yao. Chloe. Francis. (last 2 didnt complete camp)
aniwae e trip frm boon lay all e wae 2 pasir ris is reallie nv endin. i reached e chalet at like 8 plus? hahaz. overall didnt do much lahz. juz played quite alot of mahjong n won quite a lot. first time in history. hahaz. n playin mahjong w du yang is reallie hilarious. hahaz. he will like sprout vulgarities every second or so. n was almost forced 2 strip coz he lost all his chips. hahaz. didnt manage 2 chat or so. coz everywan was so tired. includin mi. so went 2 sleep at 5 plus. n was feelin so cold!
was so tired 2dae tt i slept on 168 until e bus reaches woodlands n i still dun noe. so pai sehz. feel reallie drained of energy. next time wun dare 2 do such tings animore le. hahaz. oh well. i need 2 get sum food now. feelin reallie hungry. onli ate breakfast. hmmz.
well. juz woke up after a nap. yupz. feelin abit disorientated now. hmmz. shld try 2 write down wat happened durin work first.
wednesdae. we did rockets n i hav fun launchin e rockets w a pump etc. hahaz. juz tt e results r nt as gd as e past classes n dun noe y also. sighz. n my teacher n fellow leader was kana scolded by tt irritatin woman. n becoz i was downstairs preparin e launchin of e ro-kit set i was spared. or else i will give her e utmost 'buai song' face. i juz dislike her immersely lorz. tt irritatin woman! went shoppin w mas after tt 2 buy sandals. yahz. so now e previously sandals-less estella has a pair of sandals! yeahz! ok i m mad.
thursdae. we went 2 e navy museum. which is a total wasted trip coz e curator is on leave thus no guided tour. n e 3D show is cancelled due 2 technical probs. yahz. so basically e children was bored n they didnt learn anitin much lahz. after tt built a glider which was quite fun! hahaz. spent like e whole nite tryin 2 rush finish e drawings 4 e kids. n i slept at 2 plus am. after tryin 2 finish packin my stuff 4 chalet also.
fridae. did e moon buggy which is nt vry successful. but overall e kids hav fun. then after tt we did e skit w them. hahaz. muz sae tt mi n joanna r reallie a great pair of actors. we worked reallie well w each others. hahaz. e skit is rather funnie. ok lahz. n quite lame. but basically e kids hav fun wat. hahaz. met joyce n her sis. hahaz. she arhz. nv fails 2 suan mi wan. 4eva like tt. sighz. n one of e first tings she asked mi was 'is yee keow n yu jin 2gether?' hahaz. i can picture yee keow's face immediately. so funnie. hahaz. met tammy also. rj senior. j6. who also worked in dvc. hahaz. was gossipin w her. arhz. i thrive on gossip. hahaz. collected my 2nd pay check 4 e mth. went 2 boon lay w mas b4 goin 2 pasir ris. sighz. feel rather sad tt i m nt workin next wk. but nvm. at least i get 2 study le! arhz!!!
so followin tradition. tis r e kids i taught tis wk.
Kristin. Joseph. Emmanuel. Li Peng. Xin Yi. Christopher. Stefanie. Joshua. Bryan. Xiao Lei. Harrison. Casey. Natalie. Sankari. Utkarsha. Jeffery. Sung Hun. Yong Yao. Chloe. Francis. (last 2 didnt complete camp)
aniwae e trip frm boon lay all e wae 2 pasir ris is reallie nv endin. i reached e chalet at like 8 plus? hahaz. overall didnt do much lahz. juz played quite alot of mahjong n won quite a lot. first time in history. hahaz. n playin mahjong w du yang is reallie hilarious. hahaz. he will like sprout vulgarities every second or so. n was almost forced 2 strip coz he lost all his chips. hahaz. didnt manage 2 chat or so. coz everywan was so tired. includin mi. so went 2 sleep at 5 plus. n was feelin so cold!
was so tired 2dae tt i slept on 168 until e bus reaches woodlands n i still dun noe. so pai sehz. feel reallie drained of energy. next time wun dare 2 do such tings animore le. hahaz. oh well. i need 2 get sum food now. feelin reallie hungry. onli ate breakfast. hmmz.
dreaming awae at 6:00 PM
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
seriously speakin. i dun wanna go sungei buloh again. unless it's 4 leisure purpose. draggin 20 kids w u 2 sungei buloh where they complaint abt mosquitoes. e heat. e walkin is more than enough 4 aniwan lahz. n e ting is we spent like almost e whole dae there 2dae can. sighz. n there is like no toilet facilities 4 e kids lahz. feel quite sorrie 4 sum of them who desperately wanna go 2 toilet. hahaz.
but i did hav sum fun 2dae lahz. hahaz. made a 'bird nest' usin a big leave. string. toothpick. cotton wool. dry grasses. quite fun. n one of e kids gave mi his bird nest. hahaz. n i challenged e kids durin e drawin com. hahaz. was quite happie w my creation lahz. so was happily showin off. hahaz. coz i finished in like 15 mins? hahaz. but then all e other leaders n teachers upon hearin tt i drew tt pic. sae it's vry lousy 4 my standard. wat e ?!*%!? sighz. n e worst ting is i left my colour pencils there!!! it's like how new lahz!!!
was so late tt e bus uncle scolded mi. sighz. oh well. after tt then realise he wasnt reallie serious scoldin lahz. juz complainin abit. ok. but seriously goin 2 sungei buloh durin mid yr is one of e most stupid ting 2 do. coz there is like no migratory birds 4 u 2 c!
dun noe becoz of e heat. or my multi purpose sports/sch shoes. i hav blisters now! sighz. so now legs/feet pain pain. oh well. guess i will survive lahz. n i m gettin home later n later. i juz hate e bus 961. it nv fails 2 make mi wait until i wanna knock my head onto e nearest pillar. n i realise tt woodlands library dun hav picture bk on birds! wat rubbish. oh well. nvm. i m nt lookin 4ward 2 2molo at all. coz it looks reallie horrendous. but maybe playin w rocket n gettin wet will cheer mi up abit. hmmz.
seriously speakin. i dun wanna go sungei buloh again. unless it's 4 leisure purpose. draggin 20 kids w u 2 sungei buloh where they complaint abt mosquitoes. e heat. e walkin is more than enough 4 aniwan lahz. n e ting is we spent like almost e whole dae there 2dae can. sighz. n there is like no toilet facilities 4 e kids lahz. feel quite sorrie 4 sum of them who desperately wanna go 2 toilet. hahaz.
but i did hav sum fun 2dae lahz. hahaz. made a 'bird nest' usin a big leave. string. toothpick. cotton wool. dry grasses. quite fun. n one of e kids gave mi his bird nest. hahaz. n i challenged e kids durin e drawin com. hahaz. was quite happie w my creation lahz. so was happily showin off. hahaz. coz i finished in like 15 mins? hahaz. but then all e other leaders n teachers upon hearin tt i drew tt pic. sae it's vry lousy 4 my standard. wat e ?!*%!? sighz. n e worst ting is i left my colour pencils there!!! it's like how new lahz!!!
was so late tt e bus uncle scolded mi. sighz. oh well. after tt then realise he wasnt reallie serious scoldin lahz. juz complainin abit. ok. but seriously goin 2 sungei buloh durin mid yr is one of e most stupid ting 2 do. coz there is like no migratory birds 4 u 2 c!
dun noe becoz of e heat. or my multi purpose sports/sch shoes. i hav blisters now! sighz. so now legs/feet pain pain. oh well. guess i will survive lahz. n i m gettin home later n later. i juz hate e bus 961. it nv fails 2 make mi wait until i wanna knock my head onto e nearest pillar. n i realise tt woodlands library dun hav picture bk on birds! wat rubbish. oh well. nvm. i m nt lookin 4ward 2 2molo at all. coz it looks reallie horrendous. but maybe playin w rocket n gettin wet will cheer mi up abit. hmmz.
dreaming awae at 9:45 PM
Monday, June 06, 2005
u noe when u feel reallie exhausted. n it doesnt help when u hav been havin diarrhea e whole wk. i guess i juz nt suitable 2 eat e food provided at e camp. now my stomach is in a vry uneasy state. i dun noe lahz. it was so bad tt i can barely force myself 2 eat 2dae. samantha has 2 go out 2 get food 4 mi. n i feel reallie guilty. n e worst part is. i still cant eat much. sighz.
2dae is e first dae of my 2nd wk w e camp. tis time w B7. e gd ting is. i reallie like my teacher n fellow leader vry much. e bad ting is. all of us r so blur tt alot of hiccups occurred along e wae. alot of our expts dun work. n it reallie reflected badly on us. esp boon khing. sighz. luckily i managed 2 get e 'super duper ancient' ammeter 2 work in time. it's tt kind analogue wan. nt e digital i m so used 2. it's so ancient tt e needle will deflect 4 awhile. n if u were 2 knock e table it was restin on. it will juz go back 2 zero! wat e ?!%^!?
in e end i hav 2 resort 2 slammin e lemon everytime tt happen. n miraclously e needle will deflect again. hahaz. i m such a genius. but seriously they need 2 change e equipment! n we r doin electrochem stuff w them rite. rubbish lahz. wow liao. i learnt such tings in depth now in jc2 n they r learnin in pri 4 n 5. wat logic?
another supreme irritatin expt is e electromagnet wan. e tings tt were given 2 us r so old n over used tt i dun noe wat 2 sae also. do u noe e expt fail until i wanna knock myself on e wall? in e end i cldnt take it n spent my tea break tryin all means 2 make it work includin rubbing off e rust on e iron nail w a sand paper. n it's so gross tt i m abit irritated. then i hav 2 search high n low 4 a new battery n lastly i hav 2 dig 4 a much thicker wire 2 coil ard e nail. n 'huang tian bu fu ku xin ren'. it works!!! i was so happie tt i shouted in joy in e classrm lahz. but nobody was there! sighz. everywan else was happily makin popcorn downstairs. hahaz. oh well. it's alrite. but i feel so proud of myself!!! hahaz.
missed mas vry vry much. hahaz. n i sorta feel sorrie 4 her. coz she hav 2 do so much work now. sighz.
aniwae i went shoppin w my darlin son yesterdae. n i made alot of purchase. managed 2 get sum birthdae presenz 4 sumwan. hahaz. was quite happie. luved 2 go shoppin w my darlin son. coz we r reallie gd shoppin mates! yupz. i need 2 buy a digi cam soon. unless my bro buy wan lahz. hahaz. i m waitin 4 him 2 buy. coz his old wan is spoilt! sighz. or else i hav no camera 2 take pics on invest. how? how? how?
my eyes r goin 2 close soon. but b4 closin. let mi post sum of e old photos frm last yr nov-dec camp up here. hahaz. tis r e kids i taught last yr. e pri 2-3 kids. as 4 last wk kids i will post them later lahz. when i get e photos frm francis n i scanned them in or otherwise. bring back alot of fond memories. lookin at e photos. hahaz.
my kids frm e 1st wk of e Nov/Dec camp
my kids frm e 2nd wk of e Nov/Dec Camp
so do u tink they r cute? hahaz. all these kids r frm pri 2 n 3. yahz. now shld go on 2 e teachin stuff...
angel. kah ming. samantha. mi. naveen. joanna.
we r e crazy pple. hahaz. almost brought down e whole zoo n sungei buloh park. hahaz. fond memories manz. well shld end off here le. yupz.
u noe when u feel reallie exhausted. n it doesnt help when u hav been havin diarrhea e whole wk. i guess i juz nt suitable 2 eat e food provided at e camp. now my stomach is in a vry uneasy state. i dun noe lahz. it was so bad tt i can barely force myself 2 eat 2dae. samantha has 2 go out 2 get food 4 mi. n i feel reallie guilty. n e worst part is. i still cant eat much. sighz.
2dae is e first dae of my 2nd wk w e camp. tis time w B7. e gd ting is. i reallie like my teacher n fellow leader vry much. e bad ting is. all of us r so blur tt alot of hiccups occurred along e wae. alot of our expts dun work. n it reallie reflected badly on us. esp boon khing. sighz. luckily i managed 2 get e 'super duper ancient' ammeter 2 work in time. it's tt kind analogue wan. nt e digital i m so used 2. it's so ancient tt e needle will deflect 4 awhile. n if u were 2 knock e table it was restin on. it will juz go back 2 zero! wat e ?!%^!?
in e end i hav 2 resort 2 slammin e lemon everytime tt happen. n miraclously e needle will deflect again. hahaz. i m such a genius. but seriously they need 2 change e equipment! n we r doin electrochem stuff w them rite. rubbish lahz. wow liao. i learnt such tings in depth now in jc2 n they r learnin in pri 4 n 5. wat logic?
another supreme irritatin expt is e electromagnet wan. e tings tt were given 2 us r so old n over used tt i dun noe wat 2 sae also. do u noe e expt fail until i wanna knock myself on e wall? in e end i cldnt take it n spent my tea break tryin all means 2 make it work includin rubbing off e rust on e iron nail w a sand paper. n it's so gross tt i m abit irritated. then i hav 2 search high n low 4 a new battery n lastly i hav 2 dig 4 a much thicker wire 2 coil ard e nail. n 'huang tian bu fu ku xin ren'. it works!!! i was so happie tt i shouted in joy in e classrm lahz. but nobody was there! sighz. everywan else was happily makin popcorn downstairs. hahaz. oh well. it's alrite. but i feel so proud of myself!!! hahaz.
missed mas vry vry much. hahaz. n i sorta feel sorrie 4 her. coz she hav 2 do so much work now. sighz.
aniwae i went shoppin w my darlin son yesterdae. n i made alot of purchase. managed 2 get sum birthdae presenz 4 sumwan. hahaz. was quite happie. luved 2 go shoppin w my darlin son. coz we r reallie gd shoppin mates! yupz. i need 2 buy a digi cam soon. unless my bro buy wan lahz. hahaz. i m waitin 4 him 2 buy. coz his old wan is spoilt! sighz. or else i hav no camera 2 take pics on invest. how? how? how?
my eyes r goin 2 close soon. but b4 closin. let mi post sum of e old photos frm last yr nov-dec camp up here. hahaz. tis r e kids i taught last yr. e pri 2-3 kids. as 4 last wk kids i will post them later lahz. when i get e photos frm francis n i scanned them in or otherwise. bring back alot of fond memories. lookin at e photos. hahaz.
my kids frm e 1st wk of e Nov/Dec camp
my kids frm e 2nd wk of e Nov/Dec Camp
so do u tink they r cute? hahaz. all these kids r frm pri 2 n 3. yahz. now shld go on 2 e teachin stuff...
angel. kah ming. samantha. mi. naveen. joanna.
we r e crazy pple. hahaz. almost brought down e whole zoo n sungei buloh park. hahaz. fond memories manz. well shld end off here le. yupz.
dreaming awae at 9:53 PM
Saturday, June 04, 2005
i m such a pig. hahaz. sleep like one e whole dae. basically i didnt get ani work done lahz. sighz. nt even e filin i set myself out 2 do. lookin at e mess i hav created in my room. i tink i m goin 2 get an earful frm my mummy 2molo mornin. oh dear.
hav muscle ache all over my body. muz be i sleep 2 much le. but was reallie vry tired lahz. tired until i hav 2 push my window shoppin trip w my darlin son 2 2molo. feel abit bad 4 postponin last min. hope my darlin dun mind. hahaz.
i dun noe lahz. i seriously tink tt e more i sae. e more wronged i sound like. y like tt? sighz. i mean wat i wanna sae is tis. but always. wat came out n came across is always like a different ting. maybe tt's e reason y i nv seem 2 be able 2 communicate properly w others. oh well. maybe becoz i m physically exhausted until i dun noe wat i m doin le ba. hopefully one dae it will clear up. n we will watch sunrise 2gether.
i m such a pig. hahaz. sleep like one e whole dae. basically i didnt get ani work done lahz. sighz. nt even e filin i set myself out 2 do. lookin at e mess i hav created in my room. i tink i m goin 2 get an earful frm my mummy 2molo mornin. oh dear.
hav muscle ache all over my body. muz be i sleep 2 much le. but was reallie vry tired lahz. tired until i hav 2 push my window shoppin trip w my darlin son 2 2molo. feel abit bad 4 postponin last min. hope my darlin dun mind. hahaz.
i dun noe lahz. i seriously tink tt e more i sae. e more wronged i sound like. y like tt? sighz. i mean wat i wanna sae is tis. but always. wat came out n came across is always like a different ting. maybe tt's e reason y i nv seem 2 be able 2 communicate properly w others. oh well. maybe becoz i m physically exhausted until i dun noe wat i m doin le ba. hopefully one dae it will clear up. n we will watch sunrise 2gether.
dreaming awae at 11:55 PM
Friday, June 03, 2005
todae is e last dae of e camp 4 e first wk. n my last stint w S5 for tis camp. sighz. in e end i didnt manage 2 go back 2 S5. but i guessed it's ok lahz. come 2 tink abt it. i m also abit unreasonable. hmmz. coz my teacher 4 B7 is an experienced leader but juz become teacher recently. then my fellow leader is a newbie. n we r teachin a B class. whose theories r onli learned in sec sch. n alot of tings need 2 be prepared b4 hand. so i muz c tis as a 'promotion'. but sumhow i tink i will reallie miss mas n francis alot. hahaz. workin w them is reallie great.
felt reallie vry tired todae after e concert. when mas n i were dancin w e kids 4 3 hrs plus. as they were practisin their item. hahaz. as usual. e rehearsal is betta than e real performance lahz. but we reallie hav a great time dancin w e kids. who r so cute! hahaz. but being so 'loud' 4 e camp is reallie vry tirin. everydae when i reached home. i will juz flopped onto e bed after showerin. n i will need 2 summon all my will power 2 push myself out of e bed each mornin.
feel rather guilty 2dae. coz went 2 eat w tze hui twin sis who is leavin e country 4 new zealand obs soon n daddy gabriel. as i was reallie tired. i was in e dream-like state n wasnt payin attention 2 them lahz. at least i cldnt concentrate on e conversation. n in e end i hav 2 go home early coz i noe i wun be able 2 last tt long. reallie feel bad abt it. sighz.
juz in case i 4get. following my practice. i will write down e names of e children i teached.
sean chan. yang dingg. jo-adam. nicole. jia cai. jeriel (wei sheng). wei jie. jing lin. clarissa. annah. noorishah. grace. rachel. nicolette. charlene. sean wang. claudia. austin (nt powers). jodene. nicholas. hannah. yingqi. amirah. edley.
so tt's abt it lahz. will be workin w boon khing n joanna next wk. hope i will still be alive after tt. hahaz. frm wat happened tis wk. i tink i may nt be goin 4 chalet le. coz i may end up so tired tt i will juz sleep after reachin e chalet. hmmz. shall c abt it later. n i realise tt i need 2 set up another appointment w my occupational therapist. my finger hurts. sighz. tis is such an old piece of news. shall go n sleep now. n catch up w sum dreamz. hahaz.
todae is e last dae of e camp 4 e first wk. n my last stint w S5 for tis camp. sighz. in e end i didnt manage 2 go back 2 S5. but i guessed it's ok lahz. come 2 tink abt it. i m also abit unreasonable. hmmz. coz my teacher 4 B7 is an experienced leader but juz become teacher recently. then my fellow leader is a newbie. n we r teachin a B class. whose theories r onli learned in sec sch. n alot of tings need 2 be prepared b4 hand. so i muz c tis as a 'promotion'. but sumhow i tink i will reallie miss mas n francis alot. hahaz. workin w them is reallie great.
felt reallie vry tired todae after e concert. when mas n i were dancin w e kids 4 3 hrs plus. as they were practisin their item. hahaz. as usual. e rehearsal is betta than e real performance lahz. but we reallie hav a great time dancin w e kids. who r so cute! hahaz. but being so 'loud' 4 e camp is reallie vry tirin. everydae when i reached home. i will juz flopped onto e bed after showerin. n i will need 2 summon all my will power 2 push myself out of e bed each mornin.
feel rather guilty 2dae. coz went 2 eat w tze hui twin sis who is leavin e country 4 new zealand obs soon n daddy gabriel. as i was reallie tired. i was in e dream-like state n wasnt payin attention 2 them lahz. at least i cldnt concentrate on e conversation. n in e end i hav 2 go home early coz i noe i wun be able 2 last tt long. reallie feel bad abt it. sighz.
juz in case i 4get. following my practice. i will write down e names of e children i teached.
sean chan. yang dingg. jo-adam. nicole. jia cai. jeriel (wei sheng). wei jie. jing lin. clarissa. annah. noorishah. grace. rachel. nicolette. charlene. sean wang. claudia. austin (nt powers). jodene. nicholas. hannah. yingqi. amirah. edley.
so tt's abt it lahz. will be workin w boon khing n joanna next wk. hope i will still be alive after tt. hahaz. frm wat happened tis wk. i tink i may nt be goin 4 chalet le. coz i may end up so tired tt i will juz sleep after reachin e chalet. hmmz. shall c abt it later. n i realise tt i need 2 set up another appointment w my occupational therapist. my finger hurts. sighz. tis is such an old piece of news. shall go n sleep now. n catch up w sum dreamz. hahaz.
dreaming awae at 11:59 PM
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
hav a reallie great time 2dae at DVC. even though e kids almost drove e 3 of us mad. n e food juz nv seem 2 get betta. hahaz. e 3 of us were happily gossipin awae. hahaz. esp abt tis boy who seem 2 like tis gurl vry much. hahaz. he is a vry naughty boy until he partnered e gurl n holds her hand. n frm time 2 time. he will look at her hand n smile. oh my goodness. tis is how sweet lahz. hahaz. n was kana sabo by francis. oh well. shall nt elaborate. but i will be sharpenin my knife juz in case i need it. hahaz.
n i realise tt next wk. i will nt be workin w them animore!!! arhz! i m attached 2 a B class (which i hav been complainin 2 samantha 4 a vry long time. coz i nv get 2 work in a B class. w pri 4 to 6 students) but i dun wanna change now!!! i m goin 2 pester e admin 2 change mi back. coz i reallie enjoy laughin w mas n francis!
aniwae poor mas met a pervert 2dae. tt scares her out of her wits. n tis reminds mi of tt mrt pervert i met. eekz! okok. shall nt tink 2 much. tis is so disgustin. i was tryin 2 come up w all weird methods 4 her 2 escape frm e sight of e man. n apparently they didnt work vry well. oopz.
juz finished tokkin 2 mas on e phone. hahaz. we r reallie gd at crappin. hahaz. but we did produce sum results regardin e item tt is 2 be put up by e children on fridae. so yahz. nt considered as crappin lahz.
actuallie i juz dun wanna sae anitin lahz. coz after tryin so hard 2 sae tings 4 so long. n yet still unable 2 communicate effectively. i decided i shld reallie juz shut up. i hav changed. i nv deny tt. i hav changed 2 be more jokes intolerant. n i nv hide e fact abt it. i tried. i tried 2 sae tt i dun like it. but in e end notin much changed. n i m seriously too tired 2 go back 2 e old mi. 2 be nice 2 everywan. 2 accept everywan's streak of insensitivity n try 2 laugh it off. i m alrite w jokes. but when it boils down 2 personal attack. dun blame mi. i dun like personal insults. on others n on myself.
everywan has their own probs. whether in their family or at work/sch. there is tis chinese proverb 'jia jia you ben nan xian jing' which basically mean tt each n every family out there has their own probs. so one shld nv compare one's prob w another's. coz it's unfair 2 both. i may complained alot but i tink i lessen down now. one will nv noe completely wat e other is goin thru unless one is tt person.
i nv sae tt i m an unlucky person. until tis yr. hahaz. but after awhile. i muz admit tt wout my pinkie. i wun be here now. therefore. i believe tt wateva happen. happen 4 a reason. i used 2 tell pple tt i hav an affinity 4 medicine. n pple will go 'huh?'. hahaz. beside e fact tt i will always try 2 get my hand on attachment prog 2 hospitals. i hav actuallie experienced hospital since i was young. i started 2 visit my sis in e hospital when i was 4 yrs old. as my sis was diagnosed w abnormal amt of red blood cells n white blood cells. when i was 10 yrs old. my sis has lupus n was hospitalised in e intensive care unit 4 6 mths. durin tt period of time. my father sleep in e corridor of e hospital every nite. i nv c him unless he came home 2 shower (once awhile, as most of e time he showered in e hospital) or i go 2 e hospital 2 visit my sis. i almost lost her when i was 11 yrs old. i was called 2 go 2 e hospital in e middle of e sch coz e docs sae tt my sis will nt survive e nite. my whole family stayed in e hospital 4 e nite. i dun noe whether u experienced tis b4. but hav u eva c ur loved one changed so much until u can barely recognise her? i did. my sis is so bloated w water tt i almost cldnt recognise her. she cannt breathe on her own. she has 2 rely on e machine 2 pump air into her lungs thru e openin in her throat. she cannt speak. all she can do is try 2 scribble words on e paper tt e nurse handed her. n all she wrote was 'i wan to go home'. everydae. she will write tis. everytime e docs come 2 c her. she will write tis. everydae my father go n c her. she will write tis. she is so angry w everywan tt she pull off her breathin tube n her saline drip. she refused 2 c my father. she refused 2 take medication. n all tis while. her major organs r failin. her lungs has water retention. her liver is failin. her kidney is nt workin properly tt she almost has 2 go 4 dialysis. my mother cried everydae. at nite. when she thot i was asleep. i was young. but i noe tt i dun wan my parents 2 go thru tis eva again. i dun wanna such tings 2 happen 2 other pple.
becoz of e medical bill. my mum hav 2 work. n everydae after work she will rush 2 e hospital. n i will go 2 my neighbour's house until she came back frm e hospital. do u noe how it feels like? i doubt u do. but tis is sumtin i will remember foreva. tt's y i always tell myself tt i m lucky. in e sense. i still hav my sis w mi. n now i hav a niece. actuallie i hav quite a high percentage of gettin lupus myself. coz there r cases where both sisters hav e illness. nobody noe how it is spread. though there r sum theories on inheritance factor. after goin thru a op myself n experiencin 4 myself wat gd docs r. i wanna be one.
u can sae tt i m a selfish person. in e sense tt i onli tink abt wat i wan most of e time. n tt i dun discuss w others wat i tink. i may be lackin in others' opinions. but as far as i can. i try 2 consider all sides. quoted frm e analysis. i m sumwan who rely heavily if not completely on my own experiences n hunches. tt's y i rarely act on e advice given by others. i will listen n tink thru. but ultimately i will still follow my wae of doin tings. 2 mi. even after i give u e clear indication but u still dun get it. then i will nt bother n worry myself abt it. if u reallie noe mi as a fren. then u noe mi. if nt. i m too tired 2 try so hard once more 2 make u like mi. if in ur eyes. i m sumwan who throw tantrums frequently. then maybe rite frm e start we r nv on e same rd. as 4 other stuff. i tink i shld juz let e past settle n move on.
i nv like 2 confront others. coz i try my best 2 avoid conflict. if i dun like u. i minimise contact w u. in tis case we will hav less reason 2 be unhappie w each other. another pt will be e fact tt i dun tink i m in e position 2 confront aniwan. i hav my own flaws. n i try 2 accept others' too. so no matter how hard it goes. i will juz complain 4 e sake of complainin. after tt i wun mention it again.
life is such a irony. dun u tink so? hahaz. i hav been forcin myself 2 laugh 2 much. at 2 mani unpleasant n unnecessary tings. 2 mi now is. if fate is like tis. i will accept it. but nt wout a last fight. when all avenues hav been tried n i still failed. maybe it's time 4 mi 2 move on in a totally different direction. watchin sunrise n sunset w e clouds n colours in front of mi is one of e ultimate luxury 2 mi. i wan 2 c e sunrise soon.
hav a reallie great time 2dae at DVC. even though e kids almost drove e 3 of us mad. n e food juz nv seem 2 get betta. hahaz. e 3 of us were happily gossipin awae. hahaz. esp abt tis boy who seem 2 like tis gurl vry much. hahaz. he is a vry naughty boy until he partnered e gurl n holds her hand. n frm time 2 time. he will look at her hand n smile. oh my goodness. tis is how sweet lahz. hahaz. n was kana sabo by francis. oh well. shall nt elaborate. but i will be sharpenin my knife juz in case i need it. hahaz.
n i realise tt next wk. i will nt be workin w them animore!!! arhz! i m attached 2 a B class (which i hav been complainin 2 samantha 4 a vry long time. coz i nv get 2 work in a B class. w pri 4 to 6 students) but i dun wanna change now!!! i m goin 2 pester e admin 2 change mi back. coz i reallie enjoy laughin w mas n francis!
aniwae poor mas met a pervert 2dae. tt scares her out of her wits. n tis reminds mi of tt mrt pervert i met. eekz! okok. shall nt tink 2 much. tis is so disgustin. i was tryin 2 come up w all weird methods 4 her 2 escape frm e sight of e man. n apparently they didnt work vry well. oopz.
juz finished tokkin 2 mas on e phone. hahaz. we r reallie gd at crappin. hahaz. but we did produce sum results regardin e item tt is 2 be put up by e children on fridae. so yahz. nt considered as crappin lahz.
actuallie i juz dun wanna sae anitin lahz. coz after tryin so hard 2 sae tings 4 so long. n yet still unable 2 communicate effectively. i decided i shld reallie juz shut up. i hav changed. i nv deny tt. i hav changed 2 be more jokes intolerant. n i nv hide e fact abt it. i tried. i tried 2 sae tt i dun like it. but in e end notin much changed. n i m seriously too tired 2 go back 2 e old mi. 2 be nice 2 everywan. 2 accept everywan's streak of insensitivity n try 2 laugh it off. i m alrite w jokes. but when it boils down 2 personal attack. dun blame mi. i dun like personal insults. on others n on myself.
everywan has their own probs. whether in their family or at work/sch. there is tis chinese proverb 'jia jia you ben nan xian jing' which basically mean tt each n every family out there has their own probs. so one shld nv compare one's prob w another's. coz it's unfair 2 both. i may complained alot but i tink i lessen down now. one will nv noe completely wat e other is goin thru unless one is tt person.
i nv sae tt i m an unlucky person. until tis yr. hahaz. but after awhile. i muz admit tt wout my pinkie. i wun be here now. therefore. i believe tt wateva happen. happen 4 a reason. i used 2 tell pple tt i hav an affinity 4 medicine. n pple will go 'huh?'. hahaz. beside e fact tt i will always try 2 get my hand on attachment prog 2 hospitals. i hav actuallie experienced hospital since i was young. i started 2 visit my sis in e hospital when i was 4 yrs old. as my sis was diagnosed w abnormal amt of red blood cells n white blood cells. when i was 10 yrs old. my sis has lupus n was hospitalised in e intensive care unit 4 6 mths. durin tt period of time. my father sleep in e corridor of e hospital every nite. i nv c him unless he came home 2 shower (once awhile, as most of e time he showered in e hospital) or i go 2 e hospital 2 visit my sis. i almost lost her when i was 11 yrs old. i was called 2 go 2 e hospital in e middle of e sch coz e docs sae tt my sis will nt survive e nite. my whole family stayed in e hospital 4 e nite. i dun noe whether u experienced tis b4. but hav u eva c ur loved one changed so much until u can barely recognise her? i did. my sis is so bloated w water tt i almost cldnt recognise her. she cannt breathe on her own. she has 2 rely on e machine 2 pump air into her lungs thru e openin in her throat. she cannt speak. all she can do is try 2 scribble words on e paper tt e nurse handed her. n all she wrote was 'i wan to go home'. everydae. she will write tis. everytime e docs come 2 c her. she will write tis. everydae my father go n c her. she will write tis. she is so angry w everywan tt she pull off her breathin tube n her saline drip. she refused 2 c my father. she refused 2 take medication. n all tis while. her major organs r failin. her lungs has water retention. her liver is failin. her kidney is nt workin properly tt she almost has 2 go 4 dialysis. my mother cried everydae. at nite. when she thot i was asleep. i was young. but i noe tt i dun wan my parents 2 go thru tis eva again. i dun wanna such tings 2 happen 2 other pple.
becoz of e medical bill. my mum hav 2 work. n everydae after work she will rush 2 e hospital. n i will go 2 my neighbour's house until she came back frm e hospital. do u noe how it feels like? i doubt u do. but tis is sumtin i will remember foreva. tt's y i always tell myself tt i m lucky. in e sense. i still hav my sis w mi. n now i hav a niece. actuallie i hav quite a high percentage of gettin lupus myself. coz there r cases where both sisters hav e illness. nobody noe how it is spread. though there r sum theories on inheritance factor. after goin thru a op myself n experiencin 4 myself wat gd docs r. i wanna be one.
u can sae tt i m a selfish person. in e sense tt i onli tink abt wat i wan most of e time. n tt i dun discuss w others wat i tink. i may be lackin in others' opinions. but as far as i can. i try 2 consider all sides. quoted frm e analysis. i m sumwan who rely heavily if not completely on my own experiences n hunches. tt's y i rarely act on e advice given by others. i will listen n tink thru. but ultimately i will still follow my wae of doin tings. 2 mi. even after i give u e clear indication but u still dun get it. then i will nt bother n worry myself abt it. if u reallie noe mi as a fren. then u noe mi. if nt. i m too tired 2 try so hard once more 2 make u like mi. if in ur eyes. i m sumwan who throw tantrums frequently. then maybe rite frm e start we r nv on e same rd. as 4 other stuff. i tink i shld juz let e past settle n move on.
i nv like 2 confront others. coz i try my best 2 avoid conflict. if i dun like u. i minimise contact w u. in tis case we will hav less reason 2 be unhappie w each other. another pt will be e fact tt i dun tink i m in e position 2 confront aniwan. i hav my own flaws. n i try 2 accept others' too. so no matter how hard it goes. i will juz complain 4 e sake of complainin. after tt i wun mention it again.
life is such a irony. dun u tink so? hahaz. i hav been forcin myself 2 laugh 2 much. at 2 mani unpleasant n unnecessary tings. 2 mi now is. if fate is like tis. i will accept it. but nt wout a last fight. when all avenues hav been tried n i still failed. maybe it's time 4 mi 2 move on in a totally different direction. watchin sunrise n sunset w e clouds n colours in front of mi is one of e ultimate luxury 2 mi. i wan 2 c e sunrise soon.
dreaming awae at 11:55 PM
