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Saturday, January 08, 2005

well. rjc orientation 05 is over. i dun noe lahz. wat type of feelin i shld hav. e feelin of sadness or e feelin of relief. hahaz. if u my fellow k'zar (ogl) u will understand wat i mean. reallie. hahaz.

spent new yr eve. new yr dae n 2 Jan callin pple up. call n call until i abit e frustrated. but nvm. hahaz. i finallie called up all e gurlz (except 1) n actuallie got sumwan's parents sae tt my spoken eng gd u noe. hahaz. dun faint n puke. hahaz. meet up w swee sen 2 do e k'lam (bk) n e presenz. hahaz. we abit e disaster lahz. but nvm still manage 2 do it. hmmz.

met up w natalie (my obs instructor). karen n lynette. hahaz. our watch outin is abit e failure. but then who cares. as long as tt we still hav tt bond w us. tok abt e gd old times. e times when u dun hav 2 tink abt so much stuff. n juz concentrated being urself. gettin 2 noe urself. n others. how i miss obs. hahaz. hopefully. 1 dae i will be able 2 go back. hmmz.

well orientation starts officially on 3 Jan. woke up at 5am so tt i can reach sch by 6am. hahaz. hav 2 drag my poor papa up so tt he can drive mi 2 sch. hahaz. thruout e whole journey. he keep on saein tt no wan go 2 sch tis early in e mornin. n tt i will be e first wan there. hahaz. in e end i was e last few wans 2 reach. but hey. i m nt late ok. hahaz. everywan is vry excited lahz. cum on lahz. u planned stuff 4 so long. prepared 4 so long. juz 4 tis dae. wun u be excited 2. so e whole grp of us. e k'zars were like how high. hahaz. quite a few hiccups along e wae but who cares. hahaz. as long as we r able 2 get stuff done can le. hahaz. e og is pretti much stonnin e time awae. hahaz. but nvm it's ok. after all it's e first dae wat.

well i m nt goin thru e whole prog of orientation. hahaz. i will take like billion of yrs 2 write tt. juz goin 2 list down sum of e more memorable wans. yahz.

first of all is e time i hav 2 wake up every dae. after e first dae. i m able 2 wake up slightly later. 5.25am coz need 2 report 2 sch by 6.30am. yahz. tis is horrendous when u tink abt e prog of e dae b4 when u r runnin all over e place w ur k'vae (og). n esp when u slept like 1 plus so tt u can finish their presenz. all e k'zars basically look like zombies lahz. hahaz. so funnie. u shld hav seen how all of us look like. hahaz.

next is all e meetins we hav b4 e start of prog each dae n at e end of each dae. e scoldins we received. e encouragements tt each of us gave 2 others. e hugs. e sharing of shoulders 2 rest our tired heads. e borrowin of tis dae most updated version of proposals. e discussion of wat 2 do w our og. when 2 teach dance. who 2 help who 2 bring wat. e bitchin session. abt who n who. hahaz. e yawns tt were being stiffled. e tiredness tt was evident on everywan's face. n 2wards e last few daes. e husky voices tt were being heard. hahaz. i still hav mine now. hahaz. but can no longer speak in one complete sentence. coz my voice will juz disappear 2tally at sum parts of e sentence. hahaz.

thirdly is of course e prog liao lahz. esp e amazin race wan. at east coast park. e og is supposed 2 float a ping pong ball out of a cylinder tt has mani holes. so they basically hav 2 use their hands 2 cover e holes lahz. hahaz. erhz. my og didnt do it in e 'correct method' so they basically were quite wet. hahaz. tis is e onli first part of e game. they r supposed 2 find e clue tt i buried in e beach so tt they can go 2 e next station. hahaz. erhz. becoz they r supposed 2 use their feet 2 dig so they destroyed e markin i make 4 e hole tt i placed e clue in. n they ended up cldnt find e clue. e guys threatened 2 throw mi in2 sea if they cldnt find e clue. hahaz. though in e end they still manage 2 find e clue. they still threw mi in e sea. hahaz. first time in my life. sumwan helped mi take off my socks n shoes (under my request tt i dun wan them wet). hahaz. but i muz sae tt they abit e nt gd at tt can. coz frm my shoulder onwards 2 my head is dry lahz. hahaz. after being thrown i ended up in a sittin position. hahaz.

fourthly is e 3 rubber bands tt they bought 4 mi n swee sen. we got dark pink. blue. n black. while each of them hav light pink n black or blue n black 4 e k'ruz (J1 og leader). hahaz. mi n constance act retro n tie 2 pony tails. hahaz. erhz. abit e off lahz. but nvm. hahaz.

fifthly is o nite yesterdae when all of us tied our hair. tis time round i act cute n tied my hair higher so tt i look like a young gurl. ok i m still young ok. hahaz. oops. hahaz. n e guys look so funnie. but e poncho is like how hot. i was sweatin like mad inside lahz. u can actuallie c e sweat on my arm. hahaz. e sight of them wavin their handphone 2 make up 4 no light sticks while we were singin touched mi lahz. coz they r even brighter than e light sticks. e cheers they gave mi when i cldnt dance soleila in my slippers make mi feel reallie touched. i dun noe lahz. though they laughed at mi quite alot but i muz sae tt i do appreciate them. reallie.

b4 i 4get i muz also tok abt e 'cheatin feat' of my og. e wan n onli cheatin feat tt my og performed durin orientation is at e game called struction destruction. hahaz. they stuffed more of their own plastic bottles in2 e structure 2 make e structure more stable. n jonathan actuallie stuffed my red metal bottle inside also. n summore rite at e top. n jeslyn exposed them after e game. wow liao. n e ogls presenz started chantin tt i m nt a gd ogl. tt i hav no integrity. hahaz. so funnie. hahaz. started 'scoldin' e og. n they reallie believed tt i m scoldin them. ok. fine. hahaz. but their integrity is sumtin tt i trust. becoz i did indeed c alot of examples of real cheatin n playin dirty. i luv them 4 their honesty. reallie. thanx aesapedeur. thanx.

n i muz thanx mingkai 4 his cam. wout it i tink we will die lahz. hahaz. n princess 4 her cam 2 n her hug. hahaz. luv u vry vry much. n shi min 4 her dance moves. her company when goin home. n vicky. iris biao jie. hui yan uncle. xinyi 4 being there. n e whole of o team 4 being there. 4 being there while all of us r tired n exhausted. lastly will like 2 thanx my co-ogl. swee sen. though we hav abit of miscommunication sum times. but hey we did work it out rite. thanx 4 being there. it hav been great workin w u. thanx.

dreaming awae at 9:47 PM

Saturday, January 01, 2005

well. wasnt listenin 2 e news 4 on 26 n 27 Dec. so didnt noe abt e tsunami victims. as a geo student. i understand e full power of e tidal waves. or killer waves. 4 e past few daes hav been listenin 2 e news n realise tt e situation is reallie vry vry bad. juz wanna sae tt i do believe in miracles n hopefully e world is able 2 walk out of tis.

life is pretti much e same 4 e past few daes. went 2 sch 4 o prep everydae. except on 29 Dec. which is e big dae coz rjc is movin. unfortunately i cldnt take e train. sighz. miss e once in a lifetime chance. but nvm. it's juz a train ride. hahaz. due 2 sum miscommunication. i didnt wear sch u 2 sch lahz. in e end hav 2 borrow frm hui yan uncle n wear a blouse tt is one size smaller than my usual wan. n we hav 2 ask tse min 2 bring another shirt. sighz. helped 2 tour sum parents ard e sch b4 rushin down 2 get ready 2 perform 4 e college anthem. erhz. i sound real horrible. but nvm lahz. i tink most pple cant hear mi either. hahaz. aniwae after tt rotted around while waitin 4 e repair man 2 cum n repair my bassoons. yahz. goin 2 keep e lousier wan 4 myself n give e betta wan 2 my junior. hahaz. oh dear. i reallie hope tt he hav a lot of patience so tt can teach mi. yahz. hahaz.

yesterdae went 2 spotlight 2 buy stuff 4 orientation w uncle hui yan. hahaz. we almost cldnt get anitin coz e shop is closin early 4 new yr eve. well. treat uncle 2 sundae 2 thanx her 4 accompanyin mi. yahz. n e dae b4 went 2 j8 w swee sen 2 buy stuff 4 orientation 2. all i can sae is tt i m vry vry broke. but nvm. i will survive. hahaz.

dreaming awae at 5:46 PM