Wednesday, August 31, 2005
well well. hahaz. lets c. i haven blogged in 12 daes. well considered 12 daes lahz. since it is past midnite now. hahaz. hmmz. i tink i shld continue w e 'random stuff n events' bloggin style since it encourages creativity. hahaz. ok i m goin mad.
i went 4 my freezing treatment again on mondae. yahz n it hurt like h--- tis time round. n i mean it. dotz. n e nurse kindly inform mi tt e better it gets. e more painful i will feel coz e wounds r nearer to e skin. n as yee keow said. i m 'on e road to recovery'. hopefully. sighz. i cant even walk properly. n i m nt goin 2 wear sandals to sch frm now on. coz they...made my feet stink! oh my goodness! i feel so pai sehz lahz. luckily e nurse didnt faint. or else. i will be supreme guilty. i still prefer my socks n shoes. n dun u dare laugh at mi!
as 4 e event preceding tis rather painful n embarrassing trip to e national skin centre. is my ultimate. horrific. traumatising experience in e sch sports hall. sittin 4 my general paper prelims paper. wat can i sae. wateva i tried 2 mug 4 essay didnt help mi a single bit. reallie nt even a single bit. i 100% screwed up my essay. if i pass. i will laugh till my teeth drop off. did u eva experience tis type of feeling? when u r writing ur essay halfwae. then u suddenly realise/feel/tink tt u r writin out of pt. n it's wae 2 late 4 u 2 change ur topic or stand. so u hav no choice but 2 continue writin. n walk out of e exam hall ultimately traumatised? well. tis is e 2nd time i hav tis feelin. e first time was durin gp common test 2. when i reallie screwed up my compre. if u tink i m juz like those pple out there. roamin in rj. who 4eva kept on saein tt they nv study. tt they will fail. n in e end still get As n Bs. then u r reallie wrong. i mean wat i sae. when i sae i screwed up. i do screw up. wat's e pt of fakin it? tryin 2 be modest arhz? gd lorz. u continue 2 be modest lahz. i will juz ignore u. coz i dun believe in wastin my time on such pple. hypocrites. i m tired of rj.
well. enough of nua stuff. shall tok abt sumting tt is more happie! hahaz. i went 4 band aid last fridae. n i saw my juniors! my darlin juniors! hahaz. n i cldnt stop laughin at e beginning of e concert. pai sehz. dun noe wat triggers mi off. but i juz cldnt stop laughin. hahaz. n i took plenty of photos of my saxes n bassoons! but all turned out reallie horrid. so in e end. i onli hav like 10 pics left. sighz. oh well. so here they r!
dominic n samuel! e ACSI survivors! hahaz.
e Jazz Band if i m nt wrong. hahaz.
jermyn. christine. yeng lin. n we shall ignore e pple in e background. heeheez.
jermyn during one of his mani solos...
my darlin yu kit! priscilla n siok teng. hahaz. watchin siok teng play e baritone sax reminds mi of last yr j2 farewell assembly. when i had 2 play bassoon on stage n totally screwed it up! oh my goodness. so pai sehz. hahaz. but i luv being e base...being a lower woodwind...
n e saxes quartet? hahaz.
last but nt least...Bassoons!!! hahaz! but e photo is so dark! sighz. oh well. i muz learn how 2 master my cam first. hmmz. or else all e photos turn out so bad!
n i reallie reallie reallie miss my bassoon vry vry vry much. sighz. yee keow gd lahz! she had e opportunity to play her horn after e concert! i dun lorz. sighz. coz my dear baby is tucked in e ri storerm. so poor ting. no wan play her now. nvm. i will visit her one dae to take pics w her. my beautiful elegant bassoon. though she is reallie old...
my dear sqmate frm US came back to visit us n i met up w her. but she left last sat. sighz. n i didnt get 2 send her off. coz i was too tired 2 wake up after band aid. sighz. oh well. nvm. at least we did manage 2 do sum catchin up at fish n co. hahaz.
Dreyz!!!
e 2 of us at fish n co!
n i do enjoy watching e channel 5 show [Full Circle]. yahz. e first 2 episodes reallie made mi cry lahz. so sad! oh my goodness! n tokin abt tv. another supreme sad korean drama juz ended last mon. nt tt kind of winter sonata. or autumn tinggy. tt korean show is nt as dreamy n fairylike as e more famous ones. maybe tt's e reason y it's nt famous. hahaz. but e show is reallie gd lahz. aiyohz. sighz. n u reallie feel e sadness of e characters...
n of course. my dear niece. hahaz. she is reallie gettin cuter n cuter. n my father actuallie bought tis 'rocking bed' for her. but can c tt my father n mother luv their first grandchild alot lehz. oh no! i m losing my status in e family! sighz. oh well. nvm...i can terrorise her when she comes 2 stay w mi on sat. hahaz. so here r her more recent photos!
she reallie looks like her father when he was younger. they look like they came out frm e same mould. n she does hav double eye lids! hahaz. even though it seems 2 be present onli on one eye. but i tink both will start appearin soon lahz. hahaz. my sis n her obssession w double eyelids. hmmz.
n e blog tt was highlighted in Sunday Times is reallie vry funnie. oh my goodness. n even though e blogger keep on stressin tt he is a fake doc. but i tink. frm his entries n his familiarity w e runnin of e hospital. hierarchy. sterotypes of docs arhz. confirmed doc liao lahz. n most prob HO. hahaz. so if u r interested for sum gd laugh. can go 2 my links n link 2 tt blog. vry interestin. hahaz.
n samuel arhz. y is my note disturbing arhz? do u noe how hard it is 2 write in e dark? oopz! yahz. but aniwae. hope my dear juniors like e roses. tt will nv wilt unless u all pull it. then gd luck lahz. hahaz.
well. i guess tt's all 4 now. i cant seem 2 remember wat else i wanna sae. but i will juz leave it as tis. n 2 my junior(s). u noe who u r. if tings reallie seem 2 be hopeless. maybe u can come n find mi? n save mi frm e tonnes of notes n tutorials n summaries n past yr exam papers tt i need 2 mug. do/redo. complete. try for e next few daes. i dun mind company...n sumting 2 distract mi frm sinkin into depression n self pity.
well well. hahaz. lets c. i haven blogged in 12 daes. well considered 12 daes lahz. since it is past midnite now. hahaz. hmmz. i tink i shld continue w e 'random stuff n events' bloggin style since it encourages creativity. hahaz. ok i m goin mad.
i went 4 my freezing treatment again on mondae. yahz n it hurt like h--- tis time round. n i mean it. dotz. n e nurse kindly inform mi tt e better it gets. e more painful i will feel coz e wounds r nearer to e skin. n as yee keow said. i m 'on e road to recovery'. hopefully. sighz. i cant even walk properly. n i m nt goin 2 wear sandals to sch frm now on. coz they...made my feet stink! oh my goodness! i feel so pai sehz lahz. luckily e nurse didnt faint. or else. i will be supreme guilty. i still prefer my socks n shoes. n dun u dare laugh at mi!
as 4 e event preceding tis rather painful n embarrassing trip to e national skin centre. is my ultimate. horrific. traumatising experience in e sch sports hall. sittin 4 my general paper prelims paper. wat can i sae. wateva i tried 2 mug 4 essay didnt help mi a single bit. reallie nt even a single bit. i 100% screwed up my essay. if i pass. i will laugh till my teeth drop off. did u eva experience tis type of feeling? when u r writing ur essay halfwae. then u suddenly realise/feel/tink tt u r writin out of pt. n it's wae 2 late 4 u 2 change ur topic or stand. so u hav no choice but 2 continue writin. n walk out of e exam hall ultimately traumatised? well. tis is e 2nd time i hav tis feelin. e first time was durin gp common test 2. when i reallie screwed up my compre. if u tink i m juz like those pple out there. roamin in rj. who 4eva kept on saein tt they nv study. tt they will fail. n in e end still get As n Bs. then u r reallie wrong. i mean wat i sae. when i sae i screwed up. i do screw up. wat's e pt of fakin it? tryin 2 be modest arhz? gd lorz. u continue 2 be modest lahz. i will juz ignore u. coz i dun believe in wastin my time on such pple. hypocrites. i m tired of rj.
well. enough of nua stuff. shall tok abt sumting tt is more happie! hahaz. i went 4 band aid last fridae. n i saw my juniors! my darlin juniors! hahaz. n i cldnt stop laughin at e beginning of e concert. pai sehz. dun noe wat triggers mi off. but i juz cldnt stop laughin. hahaz. n i took plenty of photos of my saxes n bassoons! but all turned out reallie horrid. so in e end. i onli hav like 10 pics left. sighz. oh well. so here they r!
dominic n samuel! e ACSI survivors! hahaz.
e Jazz Band if i m nt wrong. hahaz.
jermyn. christine. yeng lin. n we shall ignore e pple in e background. heeheez.
jermyn during one of his mani solos...
my darlin yu kit! priscilla n siok teng. hahaz. watchin siok teng play e baritone sax reminds mi of last yr j2 farewell assembly. when i had 2 play bassoon on stage n totally screwed it up! oh my goodness. so pai sehz. hahaz. but i luv being e base...being a lower woodwind...
n e saxes quartet? hahaz.
last but nt least...Bassoons!!! hahaz! but e photo is so dark! sighz. oh well. i muz learn how 2 master my cam first. hmmz. or else all e photos turn out so bad!
n i reallie reallie reallie miss my bassoon vry vry vry much. sighz. yee keow gd lahz! she had e opportunity to play her horn after e concert! i dun lorz. sighz. coz my dear baby is tucked in e ri storerm. so poor ting. no wan play her now. nvm. i will visit her one dae to take pics w her. my beautiful elegant bassoon. though she is reallie old...
my dear sqmate frm US came back to visit us n i met up w her. but she left last sat. sighz. n i didnt get 2 send her off. coz i was too tired 2 wake up after band aid. sighz. oh well. nvm. at least we did manage 2 do sum catchin up at fish n co. hahaz.
Dreyz!!!
e 2 of us at fish n co!
n i do enjoy watching e channel 5 show [Full Circle]. yahz. e first 2 episodes reallie made mi cry lahz. so sad! oh my goodness! n tokin abt tv. another supreme sad korean drama juz ended last mon. nt tt kind of winter sonata. or autumn tinggy. tt korean show is nt as dreamy n fairylike as e more famous ones. maybe tt's e reason y it's nt famous. hahaz. but e show is reallie gd lahz. aiyohz. sighz. n u reallie feel e sadness of e characters...
n of course. my dear niece. hahaz. she is reallie gettin cuter n cuter. n my father actuallie bought tis 'rocking bed' for her. but can c tt my father n mother luv their first grandchild alot lehz. oh no! i m losing my status in e family! sighz. oh well. nvm...i can terrorise her when she comes 2 stay w mi on sat. hahaz. so here r her more recent photos!
she reallie looks like her father when he was younger. they look like they came out frm e same mould. n she does hav double eye lids! hahaz. even though it seems 2 be present onli on one eye. but i tink both will start appearin soon lahz. hahaz. my sis n her obssession w double eyelids. hmmz.
n e blog tt was highlighted in Sunday Times is reallie vry funnie. oh my goodness. n even though e blogger keep on stressin tt he is a fake doc. but i tink. frm his entries n his familiarity w e runnin of e hospital. hierarchy. sterotypes of docs arhz. confirmed doc liao lahz. n most prob HO. hahaz. so if u r interested for sum gd laugh. can go 2 my links n link 2 tt blog. vry interestin. hahaz.
n samuel arhz. y is my note disturbing arhz? do u noe how hard it is 2 write in e dark? oopz! yahz. but aniwae. hope my dear juniors like e roses. tt will nv wilt unless u all pull it. then gd luck lahz. hahaz.
well. i guess tt's all 4 now. i cant seem 2 remember wat else i wanna sae. but i will juz leave it as tis. n 2 my junior(s). u noe who u r. if tings reallie seem 2 be hopeless. maybe u can come n find mi? n save mi frm e tonnes of notes n tutorials n summaries n past yr exam papers tt i need 2 mug. do/redo. complete. try for e next few daes. i dun mind company...n sumting 2 distract mi frm sinkin into depression n self pity.
dreaming awae at 1:11 AM
Friday, August 19, 2005
alrite. time 2 update. hahaz. let mi c. my last entry was on 9 August. arhz! n tt's 10 daes ago! hahaz. so i actuallie dun quite remember wat happen. well. basically life is quite boring nowadaes lahz. hmmz. so i shld juz blog randomly lahz.
so lets begin. i would like to complain abt e air quality in sch. esp in blk A. goodness lahz. wat r they burnin next door arhz? i almost choked to death 2dae lahz. my eyes were so itchy n painful tt i hav 2 consistently wet my eyes w eye drops. can barely breathe wout feelin suffocated. dotz. maybe e sch shld consider installing filters at e windows. at one pt of time. i thot singapore is affected by e haze over malaysia.
erhz. i noticed tt there is tis gurl who lives near mi who takes her father's car 2 sch lahz. but horz. her sch rite. is riverside secondary sch lahz. which is like juz 10 mins walk awae frm my house. n she actuallie need her dad to fetch her 2 sch. wat kind of rubbish is tis? wow piangz! i thot i vry lazy liao. but actuallie there r pple in tis world who r reallie much worse than mi. hmmz.
n horz! i realise tt i m nt tt 2pid! i can do quite alot of physics qns!!! arhz! i m so proud of myself! hahaz. n i hav confidence i will be able to score betta 4 physics in e comin prelims. esp w e help given by benny lee! hahaz. i betta score a C or else i will cry! but then. my chem reallie cannt make it. my ionic equilibria foundation is like totally non existent! hmmz. i betta start redoin e tutorials! n i need 2 start on e horrible organic chem. yuckz! n i realise tt gp is like in 10 daes time? n i haven started revisin n memorisin stuff! dotz!
i cant stand e time in sch. yahz. every time after e nv endin remedials. i will juz dash out of e sch wout a backward glance. i feel so suffocated within e compound everydae. yuckz! sch is reallie gross nowadaes. hmmz. i rather they let us study at home. furthermore e amt of remedials i hav is reallie gross. n chem is reallie drainin. i hav 2 daes worth of chem remedials! i wanna die! oh my goodness! tis is an advice 2 all my slackin juniors. dun slack! start muggin now. it's ok 2 be labelled a mugger than to undergo all tis 'remedial torture' now. faintx!
n i went 2 national skin centre 4 my appt on mondae. n undergo e liquid nitrogen treatment. which i hav to go 4 every wk. e whole duration last ard 6 wks. so it's like all e wae until after prelims. oh my goodness! on one of e daes. i hav 2 rush down after prelims lahz. supreme dotz. sighz. but guess i hav no choice lahz. sighz.
n i received e batch bk 2dae. quite funnie lahz. sum of e classes' pages. hahaz. laugh n laugh. oh my goodness. hahaz. but sum classes' pages also abit e pathetic lahz. so yahz. shld nt sae 2 much. later kana bash then die. hav fun gossipin w yee keow n marlom. n i realise tt everywan in class is behavin reallie weirdly nowadaes. muz be due 2 e stress. hmmz.
hav a nice time tokin 2 dawnie 2dae durin break. sighz. how i miss my juniors. esp. yu kit. dawnie. samuel. glen. wen loong n e rest of my asapedeur n band juniors. aiyohz. sighz. tings r not reallie goin smoothly now lehz. n i m quite worried. but i hav no time 2 tok 2 them coz they r also busy w their pw n preparations 4 promos n e nv endin spas. hahaz. which all e j2s went thru last yr. juz tt old statement again lahz. if u eva need mi. juz come n find mi n tok 2 mi lahz. i do miss u all vry much. sighz. n of course. my bassoon! arhz! i miss my bassoon! i tink i 4got how 2 play liao. dotz. sighz.
will be doin community work 2molo. arhz! my first time doin community work tis yr. hmmz. hope i will hav a great dae 2molo. quite scared actuallie. n i received my internship application form 4 e singapore youth challenge 2dae. hahaz. quite excited abt it lahz. hmmz. but guess i shldnt place too much hope on it. since w greater hope n expectations come greater disappointment. yupz.
oh yahz. n i tink xin huey is reallie gd lahz. sighz. but she kana kicked out of superstar le. abit e sianz diao lahz. well whoeva get 2 be e superstar dun reallie matter 2 mi. coz all i wanna do. is juz 2 c all e contestants! hahaz. hmmz.
ok. enough crappin. i need 2 sleep le. feel supreme sleepy. did i mention tt i m sufferin frm a sleep disorder? i juz keep on sleepin. i wonder whether i m sufferin frm ani illness or not? hmmz.
alrite. time 2 update. hahaz. let mi c. my last entry was on 9 August. arhz! n tt's 10 daes ago! hahaz. so i actuallie dun quite remember wat happen. well. basically life is quite boring nowadaes lahz. hmmz. so i shld juz blog randomly lahz.
so lets begin. i would like to complain abt e air quality in sch. esp in blk A. goodness lahz. wat r they burnin next door arhz? i almost choked to death 2dae lahz. my eyes were so itchy n painful tt i hav 2 consistently wet my eyes w eye drops. can barely breathe wout feelin suffocated. dotz. maybe e sch shld consider installing filters at e windows. at one pt of time. i thot singapore is affected by e haze over malaysia.
erhz. i noticed tt there is tis gurl who lives near mi who takes her father's car 2 sch lahz. but horz. her sch rite. is riverside secondary sch lahz. which is like juz 10 mins walk awae frm my house. n she actuallie need her dad to fetch her 2 sch. wat kind of rubbish is tis? wow piangz! i thot i vry lazy liao. but actuallie there r pple in tis world who r reallie much worse than mi. hmmz.
n horz! i realise tt i m nt tt 2pid! i can do quite alot of physics qns!!! arhz! i m so proud of myself! hahaz. n i hav confidence i will be able to score betta 4 physics in e comin prelims. esp w e help given by benny lee! hahaz. i betta score a C or else i will cry! but then. my chem reallie cannt make it. my ionic equilibria foundation is like totally non existent! hmmz. i betta start redoin e tutorials! n i need 2 start on e horrible organic chem. yuckz! n i realise tt gp is like in 10 daes time? n i haven started revisin n memorisin stuff! dotz!
i cant stand e time in sch. yahz. every time after e nv endin remedials. i will juz dash out of e sch wout a backward glance. i feel so suffocated within e compound everydae. yuckz! sch is reallie gross nowadaes. hmmz. i rather they let us study at home. furthermore e amt of remedials i hav is reallie gross. n chem is reallie drainin. i hav 2 daes worth of chem remedials! i wanna die! oh my goodness! tis is an advice 2 all my slackin juniors. dun slack! start muggin now. it's ok 2 be labelled a mugger than to undergo all tis 'remedial torture' now. faintx!
n i went 2 national skin centre 4 my appt on mondae. n undergo e liquid nitrogen treatment. which i hav to go 4 every wk. e whole duration last ard 6 wks. so it's like all e wae until after prelims. oh my goodness! on one of e daes. i hav 2 rush down after prelims lahz. supreme dotz. sighz. but guess i hav no choice lahz. sighz.
n i received e batch bk 2dae. quite funnie lahz. sum of e classes' pages. hahaz. laugh n laugh. oh my goodness. hahaz. but sum classes' pages also abit e pathetic lahz. so yahz. shld nt sae 2 much. later kana bash then die. hav fun gossipin w yee keow n marlom. n i realise tt everywan in class is behavin reallie weirdly nowadaes. muz be due 2 e stress. hmmz.
hav a nice time tokin 2 dawnie 2dae durin break. sighz. how i miss my juniors. esp. yu kit. dawnie. samuel. glen. wen loong n e rest of my asapedeur n band juniors. aiyohz. sighz. tings r not reallie goin smoothly now lehz. n i m quite worried. but i hav no time 2 tok 2 them coz they r also busy w their pw n preparations 4 promos n e nv endin spas. hahaz. which all e j2s went thru last yr. juz tt old statement again lahz. if u eva need mi. juz come n find mi n tok 2 mi lahz. i do miss u all vry much. sighz. n of course. my bassoon! arhz! i miss my bassoon! i tink i 4got how 2 play liao. dotz. sighz.
will be doin community work 2molo. arhz! my first time doin community work tis yr. hmmz. hope i will hav a great dae 2molo. quite scared actuallie. n i received my internship application form 4 e singapore youth challenge 2dae. hahaz. quite excited abt it lahz. hmmz. but guess i shldnt place too much hope on it. since w greater hope n expectations come greater disappointment. yupz.
oh yahz. n i tink xin huey is reallie gd lahz. sighz. but she kana kicked out of superstar le. abit e sianz diao lahz. well whoeva get 2 be e superstar dun reallie matter 2 mi. coz all i wanna do. is juz 2 c all e contestants! hahaz. hmmz.
ok. enough crappin. i need 2 sleep le. feel supreme sleepy. did i mention tt i m sufferin frm a sleep disorder? i juz keep on sleepin. i wonder whether i m sufferin frm ani illness or not? hmmz.
dreaming awae at 10:28 PM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
went 4 scholarship dae on sat. well. i m abit e swayed to consider other options beside being a doctor. hahaz. scholarships r reallie desirable manz. hahaz. dun noe lahz. abit e confused now. rite at tt moment. at e exhibition. i reallie feel like grabbin all e opportunities n hopes offered 2 mi. but now. after sittin down n tinkin abt it. i tink my life will be one wout a scholarship. coz i cannt picture myself sittin in a govt agency. sloggin my life 4 e agency. nono. i m nt anti govt nor civil service. but i dun wanna 2 tied myself down 2 an agency. maybe becoz i m used 2 being free lahz. i dun like 2 be tied down. true. a bond is like guaranteed employment but i guessed i hav no passion n interest in e civil sector. i proved myself 2 be unsuitable 4 e civil service via e gradation of e jc system. come on lahz. e pple they r lookin 4 do not include mi. i dun hav e leadership qualities they r lookin for. i dun hav e sterlin grades they r lookin for. i dun hav e impressive track record they r lookin for. so i can kiss scholarships gd bye. hahaz. but i guess. i was nv cut out 2 be a scholar lahz. i dun mug. i dun even attempt 2 mug seriously. oh gosh. guess i m reallie goin 2 be a road sweeper like wat my papa used 2 threaten mi lahz. hahaz.
i believed tt i shld undergo hardships n sufferings 2 luv myself more. yupz. gettin a scholarship is reallie like an easy wae out lehz. dun need 2 worry abt e money etc. hmmz. n guaranteed employment summore. hahaz. so yahz. i can happily declared tt no matter how my grades turned out. i m nt applyin for a single govt related scholarship. tis does nt include universities' based scholarships arhz. hahaz.
yahz. so muz talk abt my life direction rite. erhz. currently i keep my choices to 2 lahz. one is e most widely known wan. be a doc. hahaz. n scared every single patient tt i come across! so fun. hahaz. e other wan. which i secretly harboured. is to become a hotel manager. yupz! n greet tourists everydae. n wished them gd dae! hahaz. n looked so prim n proper! n maybe meet shuai ges! which i definitely wun c in a hospital. yupz. hahaz. but e prob is. i nv work in a hotel b4. so erhz. i m hopin 2 get a job at a hotel 2 gain more experience lahz. hahaz.
so tt basically sums it up lahz. n oh my goodness! i cant do a qn frm e A Maths textbk!!! arhz! i dun noe wat happened. but i cant do tt qn!!! gosh! i need 2 revise e a maths stuff again more thoroughly. feel so sorrie 2wards my tutee. oh well. but i m quite glad tt i helped her understand trigo betta. yahz. while i m strugglin w A levels trigo. eekz!
went 2 cut my hair on sundae. actuallie nt reallie cut lahz. thin will be a more correct description. hahaz. my hairdresser spent like ages thinin my hair lahz. she thinned it 3 times in total. coz my hair is reallie thick n heavy. yupz. so at e end of it. i hav tis mountainous range of hair ard my chair. hahaz. but i still hav plenty of hair on my head. hahaz.
as 4 yesterdae. i ponned e celebrations lahz. feel so naughty. first time i ponned sch events rite frm e start lehz. was wearin home clothes under yii ean's request. n find myself rather out of place. went 2 eat breakfast w yee keow. steph n eunice at macs at j8. then tried 2 mug at woodlands library b4 admittin defeat 2 go home n sleep. muz try 2 finish as much bio n chem as poss. yupz. was slackin awae also. hahaz. i m a pig lahz. sleep reallie alot. tink sumtin wrong w my biological clock.
oh yahz. now is babylicious time! hahaz. i tink i did mention tt i m goin 2 flood my blog w my niece's photos. here they r! hahaz.
22 July 2005
6 August 2005
now now. isnt she cute? hahaz. looks like mi rite? hahaz. i tink i shld stop saein she looks like mi. hahaz. later my sis angree than die. hahaz. oh yahz. my sis is complainin tt my niece 'lost' her double eyelids. hahaz. oh well. nvm. i still tink tt she is vry cute. n she starts 2 smile at mi le! hahaz. n my sis is 'forcin' mi 2 buy tis cute pair of shoes for en xin. she keep on remindin mi tt i haven bought a single ting 4 enxin yet. well. i will wan ok. juz tt now no money! sighz. nvm. i will get a gd christmas presenz for her. hahaz. provided i work lahz. no work. no money. sighz.
n b4 i 4get...Happie Birthdae Singapore! i still luv u even though i hate e education system in place by u...
went 4 scholarship dae on sat. well. i m abit e swayed to consider other options beside being a doctor. hahaz. scholarships r reallie desirable manz. hahaz. dun noe lahz. abit e confused now. rite at tt moment. at e exhibition. i reallie feel like grabbin all e opportunities n hopes offered 2 mi. but now. after sittin down n tinkin abt it. i tink my life will be one wout a scholarship. coz i cannt picture myself sittin in a govt agency. sloggin my life 4 e agency. nono. i m nt anti govt nor civil service. but i dun wanna 2 tied myself down 2 an agency. maybe becoz i m used 2 being free lahz. i dun like 2 be tied down. true. a bond is like guaranteed employment but i guessed i hav no passion n interest in e civil sector. i proved myself 2 be unsuitable 4 e civil service via e gradation of e jc system. come on lahz. e pple they r lookin 4 do not include mi. i dun hav e leadership qualities they r lookin for. i dun hav e sterlin grades they r lookin for. i dun hav e impressive track record they r lookin for. so i can kiss scholarships gd bye. hahaz. but i guess. i was nv cut out 2 be a scholar lahz. i dun mug. i dun even attempt 2 mug seriously. oh gosh. guess i m reallie goin 2 be a road sweeper like wat my papa used 2 threaten mi lahz. hahaz.
i believed tt i shld undergo hardships n sufferings 2 luv myself more. yupz. gettin a scholarship is reallie like an easy wae out lehz. dun need 2 worry abt e money etc. hmmz. n guaranteed employment summore. hahaz. so yahz. i can happily declared tt no matter how my grades turned out. i m nt applyin for a single govt related scholarship. tis does nt include universities' based scholarships arhz. hahaz.
yahz. so muz talk abt my life direction rite. erhz. currently i keep my choices to 2 lahz. one is e most widely known wan. be a doc. hahaz. n scared every single patient tt i come across! so fun. hahaz. e other wan. which i secretly harboured. is to become a hotel manager. yupz! n greet tourists everydae. n wished them gd dae! hahaz. n looked so prim n proper! n maybe meet shuai ges! which i definitely wun c in a hospital. yupz. hahaz. but e prob is. i nv work in a hotel b4. so erhz. i m hopin 2 get a job at a hotel 2 gain more experience lahz. hahaz.
so tt basically sums it up lahz. n oh my goodness! i cant do a qn frm e A Maths textbk!!! arhz! i dun noe wat happened. but i cant do tt qn!!! gosh! i need 2 revise e a maths stuff again more thoroughly. feel so sorrie 2wards my tutee. oh well. but i m quite glad tt i helped her understand trigo betta. yahz. while i m strugglin w A levels trigo. eekz!
went 2 cut my hair on sundae. actuallie nt reallie cut lahz. thin will be a more correct description. hahaz. my hairdresser spent like ages thinin my hair lahz. she thinned it 3 times in total. coz my hair is reallie thick n heavy. yupz. so at e end of it. i hav tis mountainous range of hair ard my chair. hahaz. but i still hav plenty of hair on my head. hahaz.
as 4 yesterdae. i ponned e celebrations lahz. feel so naughty. first time i ponned sch events rite frm e start lehz. was wearin home clothes under yii ean's request. n find myself rather out of place. went 2 eat breakfast w yee keow. steph n eunice at macs at j8. then tried 2 mug at woodlands library b4 admittin defeat 2 go home n sleep. muz try 2 finish as much bio n chem as poss. yupz. was slackin awae also. hahaz. i m a pig lahz. sleep reallie alot. tink sumtin wrong w my biological clock.
oh yahz. now is babylicious time! hahaz. i tink i did mention tt i m goin 2 flood my blog w my niece's photos. here they r! hahaz.
22 July 2005
6 August 2005
now now. isnt she cute? hahaz. looks like mi rite? hahaz. i tink i shld stop saein she looks like mi. hahaz. later my sis angree than die. hahaz. oh yahz. my sis is complainin tt my niece 'lost' her double eyelids. hahaz. oh well. nvm. i still tink tt she is vry cute. n she starts 2 smile at mi le! hahaz. n my sis is 'forcin' mi 2 buy tis cute pair of shoes for en xin. she keep on remindin mi tt i haven bought a single ting 4 enxin yet. well. i will wan ok. juz tt now no money! sighz. nvm. i will get a gd christmas presenz for her. hahaz. provided i work lahz. no work. no money. sighz.
n b4 i 4get...Happie Birthdae Singapore! i still luv u even though i hate e education system in place by u...
dreaming awae at 3:44 PM
Friday, August 05, 2005
hmmz. we reached weekend le. yahz. which means i m movin into wk 7. n wk 10 is prelims. dotz. faintx. i tink i m goin 2 fail prelims. n tt is reallie a big nono! sighz.
erhz. let mi recall abit. i ponned sch on wed. hahaz. ok lahz. nt reallie pon lahz since i was reallie feelin physical discomfort. had fever on tues nite. tink over exert myself 4 nafpa or maybe my blister kana infection. aiyahz. wateva it is. i m a clever gurl. so i took panadol but it was reallie hard 2 sleep tt nite lahz. w a splittin headache n pain on my feet. aniwae my wed lesson is reallie crappy lahz. n i dun wan 2 go 4 chem remedial. so decided 2 pon. hahaz. n stayed at home n rest. n read Time magazine which is reallie interestin! hahaz. frm now on. i m kissin story bks gd bye n embracin Time magazines. feel so guilty tt i nv read them in e past. oopz. n major renovation is still underwae in e unit above my house. dotz.
went 2 sch yesterdae. like duh. hahaz. was a rather gd n peaceful dae lahz. since thursdae is lectures heavy. which i luved as compared 2 tutorials. i like thurs most! n hate fri n mon most. hahaz. reason? becoz thurs is rather slack n enjoyable n short! hahaz. but stayed back 4 e med n dentistry talk which is rather interestin n useful. e speaker 4 e med is vry funnie. oh my god. seriously i tink most of e docs i met all abit e siao wan. hahaz. most of them r reallie funnie. hahaz. tt reminded mi of e docs i met durin my NNI attachment. hahaz. n using e hokkien word for doctor as e website name is reallie interestin n innovative. n e consideration of usin 'missi' [older generation's wae of callin e nurses] as e website name for e nurses is hilarious. n they abandoned e idea becoz it will be awkward 4 e male nurses. so funnie. hahaz. n i realised except for IMH. i hav had been 2 all e hospitals in NHG. visited pple in all 3. attached at 2. n stayed inside 1. hahaz. so funnie. my pinkie is hurtin again. hmmz. maybe due 2 e aircon in lt 2 ba. hmmz.
as 4 2dae. it's horrible lahz. n i m nt jokin when i sae fridae is my worst dae of e wk. first i hav civics. ok. tt's juz warm up lahz. was rushin maths. then after tt is 1.5 hr of gp. lucky 2dae. we dun need 2 write essay or compre. yupz. was happily readin my Time magazine on world poverty. n it's so depressing n heart breakin 2 c all e pics n read all e stats. we r reallie vry vry fortunate. we reallie dun noe wat is meant by being poor. 2 tink i always complained tt i vry poor. but at least i m in singapore. then after tt i hav tis big chunk of 4 hours worth of lesson. 1 hr worth of maths plus 3 hours worth of physics [prac/tutorial + remedial]. if u tink tt's fun. picture 2+ hrs of bio remedial after tt. n practically frozen in lt2 in e process. thanx goodness madan lent mi his jacket. or else i would have turned into a cold blooded being. hahaz. i was like runnin awae frm sch after tt. cldnt bear 2 stay for another min inside e compound. gosh!
hav dinner w yee keow n c her in her new specs! arhz. pple nice lookin liao lorz. hahaz. then were happily laughin awae on issues. erhz. nt suitable 2 be typed here. hahaz. n found tis link on samuel's blog. quite funnie u noe. hahaz. if interested can go n take a look.
Student's Sketch Pad
will be goin 2 e scholarship dae 2molo. sighz. need 2 postpone my tuition again. oh dear. i hope she is doin well in her maths! or else i will be sacked! arhz.
hmmz. we reached weekend le. yahz. which means i m movin into wk 7. n wk 10 is prelims. dotz. faintx. i tink i m goin 2 fail prelims. n tt is reallie a big nono! sighz.
erhz. let mi recall abit. i ponned sch on wed. hahaz. ok lahz. nt reallie pon lahz since i was reallie feelin physical discomfort. had fever on tues nite. tink over exert myself 4 nafpa or maybe my blister kana infection. aiyahz. wateva it is. i m a clever gurl. so i took panadol but it was reallie hard 2 sleep tt nite lahz. w a splittin headache n pain on my feet. aniwae my wed lesson is reallie crappy lahz. n i dun wan 2 go 4 chem remedial. so decided 2 pon. hahaz. n stayed at home n rest. n read Time magazine which is reallie interestin! hahaz. frm now on. i m kissin story bks gd bye n embracin Time magazines. feel so guilty tt i nv read them in e past. oopz. n major renovation is still underwae in e unit above my house. dotz.
went 2 sch yesterdae. like duh. hahaz. was a rather gd n peaceful dae lahz. since thursdae is lectures heavy. which i luved as compared 2 tutorials. i like thurs most! n hate fri n mon most. hahaz. reason? becoz thurs is rather slack n enjoyable n short! hahaz. but stayed back 4 e med n dentistry talk which is rather interestin n useful. e speaker 4 e med is vry funnie. oh my god. seriously i tink most of e docs i met all abit e siao wan. hahaz. most of them r reallie funnie. hahaz. tt reminded mi of e docs i met durin my NNI attachment. hahaz. n using e hokkien word for doctor as e website name is reallie interestin n innovative. n e consideration of usin 'missi' [older generation's wae of callin e nurses] as e website name for e nurses is hilarious. n they abandoned e idea becoz it will be awkward 4 e male nurses. so funnie. hahaz. n i realised except for IMH. i hav had been 2 all e hospitals in NHG. visited pple in all 3. attached at 2. n stayed inside 1. hahaz. so funnie. my pinkie is hurtin again. hmmz. maybe due 2 e aircon in lt 2 ba. hmmz.
as 4 2dae. it's horrible lahz. n i m nt jokin when i sae fridae is my worst dae of e wk. first i hav civics. ok. tt's juz warm up lahz. was rushin maths. then after tt is 1.5 hr of gp. lucky 2dae. we dun need 2 write essay or compre. yupz. was happily readin my Time magazine on world poverty. n it's so depressing n heart breakin 2 c all e pics n read all e stats. we r reallie vry vry fortunate. we reallie dun noe wat is meant by being poor. 2 tink i always complained tt i vry poor. but at least i m in singapore. then after tt i hav tis big chunk of 4 hours worth of lesson. 1 hr worth of maths plus 3 hours worth of physics [prac/tutorial + remedial]. if u tink tt's fun. picture 2+ hrs of bio remedial after tt. n practically frozen in lt2 in e process. thanx goodness madan lent mi his jacket. or else i would have turned into a cold blooded being. hahaz. i was like runnin awae frm sch after tt. cldnt bear 2 stay for another min inside e compound. gosh!
hav dinner w yee keow n c her in her new specs! arhz. pple nice lookin liao lorz. hahaz. then were happily laughin awae on issues. erhz. nt suitable 2 be typed here. hahaz. n found tis link on samuel's blog. quite funnie u noe. hahaz. if interested can go n take a look.
Student's Sketch Pad
will be goin 2 e scholarship dae 2molo. sighz. need 2 postpone my tuition again. oh dear. i hope she is doin well in her maths! or else i will be sacked! arhz.
dreaming awae at 9:59 PM
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
ahha! hahaz. i m here 2 blog. after my disasterous nafpa stint. sighz. well. i didnt get e gold i wanted. though my situps improved. n overall i confirmed get gold. if n onli if. my shuttle run didnt screw itself up. my timin is so horrible i dun dare 2 listen. summore i ran until tis big patch of skin on my rite foot came off. yahz. in summary. i hav tis extremely big blister tt is still bleedin abit now. i cant believe my luck. seriously. sighz. i dun tink i m goin 2 retake everyting next wk or on 16 august. which is e last test date le. coz i m juz 2 tired 2 redo everyting again. tink i hav 2 be content w a silver ba. sighz. wat a failure.
went 4 e hc talk on sat mornin. a total waste of my time lahz. i thot e sharing session will be like engagin q n a. in e end it turned out to be juz a short speech. wat e ?!%^?! waste my time. left halfwae 2 go 2 suntec w birdie. kevin. jian hong n hao ming. yupz. 4 e straits times scholars' preview seminar. erhz. e seminar is quite gd. hahaz. e uk representative is rather funnie. hahaz. as 4 e exhibtion. it's quite crap lahz. i tink rjc scholarships dae will be more useful. yupz.
went 4 e imm project superstar ting. a total waste of my time! gosh! 4get it. i m nt goin 2 attend such events ani more. hahaz. even if i go. i will onli go 2 e wan organised by M1 coz i m a user of M1. n save myself probs n trouble squeezin w everywan. disgustin. yuckz! n met tis 2 ah bengs. wow liao. wateva lahz. knowledgable pple dun use violence n cursed words. n i m proud 2 sae i m a person who is rather knowledgable.
n hav dinner w my sis after tt. yupz. n tt includes en xin! hahaz. she is so cute lahz. i m goin 2 flood tis blog w her pics i tink. hahaz. will be uploadin later lahz.
as 4 yesterdae. i spent like 2 hours finish watchin [tian long ba bu]. hahaz. coz my bro has e vcds. i didnt like watch everyting lahz. juz scan thru. so i noe e endin liao. which is quite dotz. hahaz. n tt xi xia princess. u like nv c her face at all wan lahz. quite dotz also. yupz. e rest u can happily catch e last 2 episodes on sat lahz.
n i juz came back frm e polyclinic. my viral infection is gettin reallie worse. so went 2 c e doc lahz. who referred mi 2 national skin centre. hahaz. next 2 tan tock seng hospital. erhz. i hav great affinity 4 tt place arhz. nt tt i wanna sae tis. hahaz. hope i will survive e treatments. sighz. oh. my bro is under tremendous stress now. coz his ct class. 18 out of 20 plus pple failed chem in e most recent test. so nowadaes. he like pick one dae. n force them 2 stay back until 9 pm 2 do work. so scary lorz! wow liao. thanx goodness i m nt in his sch. but can c tt he is vry worried abt them lahz. n sum of them r my x sch mates. n he is scoldin mi nowadaes for nt studyin. sighz. A levels is reallie horrid. oh well. nvm. guess tt's all le. bye.
ahha! hahaz. i m here 2 blog. after my disasterous nafpa stint. sighz. well. i didnt get e gold i wanted. though my situps improved. n overall i confirmed get gold. if n onli if. my shuttle run didnt screw itself up. my timin is so horrible i dun dare 2 listen. summore i ran until tis big patch of skin on my rite foot came off. yahz. in summary. i hav tis extremely big blister tt is still bleedin abit now. i cant believe my luck. seriously. sighz. i dun tink i m goin 2 retake everyting next wk or on 16 august. which is e last test date le. coz i m juz 2 tired 2 redo everyting again. tink i hav 2 be content w a silver ba. sighz. wat a failure.
went 4 e hc talk on sat mornin. a total waste of my time lahz. i thot e sharing session will be like engagin q n a. in e end it turned out to be juz a short speech. wat e ?!%^?! waste my time. left halfwae 2 go 2 suntec w birdie. kevin. jian hong n hao ming. yupz. 4 e straits times scholars' preview seminar. erhz. e seminar is quite gd. hahaz. e uk representative is rather funnie. hahaz. as 4 e exhibtion. it's quite crap lahz. i tink rjc scholarships dae will be more useful. yupz.
went 4 e imm project superstar ting. a total waste of my time! gosh! 4get it. i m nt goin 2 attend such events ani more. hahaz. even if i go. i will onli go 2 e wan organised by M1 coz i m a user of M1. n save myself probs n trouble squeezin w everywan. disgustin. yuckz! n met tis 2 ah bengs. wow liao. wateva lahz. knowledgable pple dun use violence n cursed words. n i m proud 2 sae i m a person who is rather knowledgable.
n hav dinner w my sis after tt. yupz. n tt includes en xin! hahaz. she is so cute lahz. i m goin 2 flood tis blog w her pics i tink. hahaz. will be uploadin later lahz.
as 4 yesterdae. i spent like 2 hours finish watchin [tian long ba bu]. hahaz. coz my bro has e vcds. i didnt like watch everyting lahz. juz scan thru. so i noe e endin liao. which is quite dotz. hahaz. n tt xi xia princess. u like nv c her face at all wan lahz. quite dotz also. yupz. e rest u can happily catch e last 2 episodes on sat lahz.
n i juz came back frm e polyclinic. my viral infection is gettin reallie worse. so went 2 c e doc lahz. who referred mi 2 national skin centre. hahaz. next 2 tan tock seng hospital. erhz. i hav great affinity 4 tt place arhz. nt tt i wanna sae tis. hahaz. hope i will survive e treatments. sighz. oh. my bro is under tremendous stress now. coz his ct class. 18 out of 20 plus pple failed chem in e most recent test. so nowadaes. he like pick one dae. n force them 2 stay back until 9 pm 2 do work. so scary lorz! wow liao. thanx goodness i m nt in his sch. but can c tt he is vry worried abt them lahz. n sum of them r my x sch mates. n he is scoldin mi nowadaes for nt studyin. sighz. A levels is reallie horrid. oh well. nvm. guess tt's all le. bye.
dreaming awae at 5:24 PM
