Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Friday, September 02, 2005
ha! i decided i shld juz blog first in case i 4get wat i wanna blog again. yupz. so first of all. i shld start w e stuff i wanna sae in e previous entry but 4got 2 do so. n tt is my first time doin volunteer work w yee keow n hui yun! hahaz. it is totally hilarious! oh my goodness. tis is mainly due 2 my supreme 'qiang' hokkien tt gets mi nowhere! hahaz. as we were playin bingo w them. thus they need us 2 announce e no on e mike so tt all e elderly pple can hear us. n as i m e loudest person there. i was 'elected' to do e announcin. which is a supreme big mistake! coz my hokkien sound supreme weird! hahaz. in e end. e elderly dun understand wat e heck i m tokin abt. so pai sehz lahz! hahaz. but i muz sae tt my hokkien did improve after tt! esp in terms of counting in hokkien! my 7 n 4 keep on kana mixed up. so now it's much betta. n one of e auntie is so nice lahz! she gave mi sweets! n choc! arhz! i m so touched. i got a few handshakes n pat on e head/hand too. muz sae tt they r reallie one nice bunch of pple! i m lookin 4ward to meetin them again...after exams lahz.
but horz. i did meet sum reallie 'disturbing' incidence lahz. coz i was caught in a quarrel between tis malay woman n chinese woman. n i hav no idea wat they r tokin abt! hahaz. well. basically they r speakin in a foreign language. n as yee keow sae. it shld be malay lahz. hmmz. n one rm flat rite. is reallie abit depressing lahz. sighz. we shld make more efforts to help e less fortunate in our country. reallie.
oh yahz! my niece rite. she finallie laughed w mi! arhz! i feel so gd manz! hahaz. she no longer juz cry wheneva she c mi! hahaz. such an accomplishment. n it's e credit of e little cutie dog tt princess gave mi 4 my birthdae presenz! hahaz. coz i was makin funnie noises w e cutie dog n my darlin niece juz started smilin n laughin! hahaz. gd rite! but 2 bad. as i was 2 busy tryin 2 cheer her up tt i didnt prepare my camera. oh well. nvm. she is stayin w mi 2molo. so i hav plenty of opportunities 2 capture her on film.
well. i watched project superstar! hahaz. n i saw my fav contestant!!! hahaz. erhz. shld nt sae is who. if u noe is who. then gd lahz. hahaz. but i tink sin huey reallie improved alot! n she is so much prettier now! arhz! got e mei4 li4 n xing4 ge2 coming out! wow! n her vocals is reallie qiang! but my A*Mei still e best lahz. unbeatable! hahaz.
n i muz sae tt wei lian's sis is so pretti! sin huey's sis also! hahaz. reallie pretti! arhz! i m so jealous. sighz. oh well. nvm. hopefully wat i m lackin on e outside. i will make it up in e inside. hahaz. tink alot of pple is goin 2 puke! hahaz. as 4 e winner. i shld nt comment. since i tink both hav their strong pts. though wei lian abit lose his touch yesterdae lahz. n horz. i tink tt scandalous pic of junyang n candyce huggin 2gether n she 'kissin' him is quite sweet lehz. n can c tt jun yang vry shuang. no wonder pple all tink they 2gether lahz. n 2 quote e reporter. nobody will believe tt they r nt 2gether. hahaz.
n as a conclusion to tis superstar craze. i shld announce tt...i m goin 2 watch e concert w my darlin son!!! hahaz. after tryin so hard 2 secure a gd seat online n facin e trauma of nt gettin reasonably gd seats. i still hav 2 beg my sis 2 give mi her credit card so tt i will be able 2 pay 4 e tix online n nt let other pple kahpo e seats! oh my! feel so dui1 lian3! sighz. it betta be a supreme gd show or i m goin 2 bash up unusual productions/mediacorp. waste my money! n if they suka suka announce goin 2 be an additional show...i will hate them 4eva! irritatin! arhz! well. nvm. as 4 now. i shld juz look 4ward 2 watchin them perform live on 30 September. after my prelims.
n lastly. one of e rare few times in my life. i actuallie remember my dream. n in it. is non other than...yee keow! hahaz. a supreme nua dream tt feature my bro n a bad guy as well. shld nt elaborate much except tt my handphone played a vry impt role in e dream n i almost kana disfigured in e dream. nt tt i hav much looks at first. but becoz i dun hav much at e beginnin. i shld cherish it more rite? hahaz.
n readin tt doc's blog brings mi into a reflective mode lahz. in chinese we sae. she4 hui4 de3 bei1 ai1. in eng i m nt so sure lahz. e ugliness/depression/sadness etc of society. when u c pple dumpin their parents in hospitals so tt e family can go 4 a holidae. n e abuse of adoptive children juz becoz u hav ur own children. but i do believe in retribution lahz. reallie. everyting tt has a beginning. has an end.
dreaming awae at 11:59 PM