Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Friday, August 19, 2005
alrite. time 2 update. hahaz. let mi c. my last entry was on 9 August. arhz! n tt's 10 daes ago! hahaz. so i actuallie dun quite remember wat happen. well. basically life is quite boring nowadaes lahz. hmmz. so i shld juz blog randomly lahz.
so lets begin. i would like to complain abt e air quality in sch. esp in blk A. goodness lahz. wat r they burnin next door arhz? i almost choked to death 2dae lahz. my eyes were so itchy n painful tt i hav 2 consistently wet my eyes w eye drops. can barely breathe wout feelin suffocated. dotz. maybe e sch shld consider installing filters at e windows. at one pt of time. i thot singapore is affected by e haze over malaysia.
erhz. i noticed tt there is tis gurl who lives near mi who takes her father's car 2 sch lahz. but horz. her sch rite. is riverside secondary sch lahz. which is like juz 10 mins walk awae frm my house. n she actuallie need her dad to fetch her 2 sch. wat kind of rubbish is tis? wow piangz! i thot i vry lazy liao. but actuallie there r pple in tis world who r reallie much worse than mi. hmmz.
n horz! i realise tt i m nt tt 2pid! i can do quite alot of physics qns!!! arhz! i m so proud of myself! hahaz. n i hav confidence i will be able to score betta 4 physics in e comin prelims. esp w e help given by benny lee! hahaz. i betta score a C or else i will cry! but then. my chem reallie cannt make it. my ionic equilibria foundation is like totally non existent! hmmz. i betta start redoin e tutorials! n i need 2 start on e horrible organic chem. yuckz! n i realise tt gp is like in 10 daes time? n i haven started revisin n memorisin stuff! dotz!
i cant stand e time in sch. yahz. every time after e nv endin remedials. i will juz dash out of e sch wout a backward glance. i feel so suffocated within e compound everydae. yuckz! sch is reallie gross nowadaes. hmmz. i rather they let us study at home. furthermore e amt of remedials i hav is reallie gross. n chem is reallie drainin. i hav 2 daes worth of chem remedials! i wanna die! oh my goodness! tis is an advice 2 all my slackin juniors. dun slack! start muggin now. it's ok 2 be labelled a mugger than to undergo all tis 'remedial torture' now. faintx!
n i went 2 national skin centre 4 my appt on mondae. n undergo e liquid nitrogen treatment. which i hav to go 4 every wk. e whole duration last ard 6 wks. so it's like all e wae until after prelims. oh my goodness! on one of e daes. i hav 2 rush down after prelims lahz. supreme dotz. sighz. but guess i hav no choice lahz. sighz.
n i received e batch bk 2dae. quite funnie lahz. sum of e classes' pages. hahaz. laugh n laugh. oh my goodness. hahaz. but sum classes' pages also abit e pathetic lahz. so yahz. shld nt sae 2 much. later kana bash then die. hav fun gossipin w yee keow n marlom. n i realise tt everywan in class is behavin reallie weirdly nowadaes. muz be due 2 e stress. hmmz.
hav a nice time tokin 2 dawnie 2dae durin break. sighz. how i miss my juniors. esp. yu kit. dawnie. samuel. glen. wen loong n e rest of my asapedeur n band juniors. aiyohz. sighz. tings r not reallie goin smoothly now lehz. n i m quite worried. but i hav no time 2 tok 2 them coz they r also busy w their pw n preparations 4 promos n e nv endin spas. hahaz. which all e j2s went thru last yr. juz tt old statement again lahz. if u eva need mi. juz come n find mi n tok 2 mi lahz. i do miss u all vry much. sighz. n of course. my bassoon! arhz! i miss my bassoon! i tink i 4got how 2 play liao. dotz. sighz.
will be doin community work 2molo. arhz! my first time doin community work tis yr. hmmz. hope i will hav a great dae 2molo. quite scared actuallie. n i received my internship application form 4 e singapore youth challenge 2dae. hahaz. quite excited abt it lahz. hmmz. but guess i shldnt place too much hope on it. since w greater hope n expectations come greater disappointment. yupz.
oh yahz. n i tink xin huey is reallie gd lahz. sighz. but she kana kicked out of superstar le. abit e sianz diao lahz. well whoeva get 2 be e superstar dun reallie matter 2 mi. coz all i wanna do. is juz 2 c all e contestants! hahaz. hmmz.
ok. enough crappin. i need 2 sleep le. feel supreme sleepy. did i mention tt i m sufferin frm a sleep disorder? i juz keep on sleepin. i wonder whether i m sufferin frm ani illness or not? hmmz.
dreaming awae at 10:28 PM