Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Sunday, July 03, 2005
ok. erhz. due 2 e fact tt i mia 4 a vry vry vry long time. tis is goin 2 be a supreme long entry. so if u dun hav time. feel irritated w long entry. or erhz juz dun wanna read abt my life. then dun continue. yupz. so no complaints arhz.
ok first of all. of course muz tok abt common tests. ok. let mi juz sae tis. i m e unbeatable lahz. i tink no wan can beat my record of studyin. i onli studied a max of 3 hours per dae 4 e subj tt was 2 be tested e next dae. i slept at ard 3 am each dae. how qiang is tt?
4 physics on wed. i blank out 4 alot of qns. coz i cldnt remember e formula tt i memorised! oh my goodness. esp 4 nuclear physics. coz i nv do e tutorial. n when i was doin e page on nuclear physics. w my page 3/4 blank n guess wat. mr benny lee walked down e row n he stopped beside mi. rite at tt moment. i wanna die. oh my goodness. i m goin 2 his remedial liao. sighz. n i feel reallie guilty. coz he reallie put in alot of efforts 2 pull my grades up. so i m nt goin 2 disappoint him 4 prelims liao.
4 maths on thurs. erhz. tt wan i nv study. reallie. i juz speed read thru all e notes. coz there r juz 2 mani topics le. hahaz. n i didnt do 40 marks. yupz. out of 100 marks. n considerin e fact tt i m 50% unsure of those tt i do. e highest i m goin 2 get is 30 marks. which is a F rite. dotz. sighz. it feels like i m studyin 4 A maths 4 O levels again. when i failed all e wae up till prelims. yahz. 2 tink i used 2 top maths in my pri sch. tis is so off.
4 chem on fri. confirmed die. i cldnt do so much qns! oh my goodness. i actuallie blank out at thermochem n kinetics rite. wat rubbish. n e rest of e topics i was so unsure tt i tink my answers r all wrong. guess i will need 2 c ms tang again. 4 remedial. sighz. chem makes my head hurts!
n of course. i m definitely goin 2 fail at least half of my subj lahz. n becoz of tis. i m goin 2 force myself 2 mug soon. like next tuesdae onwards. coz seriously. i m gettin panic attack frm e noeledge tt prelims is like 2 mths later n A levels is like 3 mths plus later. 2 all my frenz. pls nag n scold mi if u c mi slackin my time awae. i will be 4eva grateful 2 u all. thanx!
watched 'in my father's den' on fridae lahz. it's an art film n it's a M18 show. so if u r of legal age. pls try n go n watch it. coz it is seriously a vry gd show. reallie. n tokin abt tt. i wanna watch mr n mrs smith!!! arhz. sighz. but it's no longer airin animore le. i m so disappointed. oh well. nvm. at least i enjoyed in my father's den alot. yupz. it is reallie money well spent.
went 2 teach tuition yesterdae. after a 1 mth break. n saw my tutee. who is so sweet! arhz. she bought tis bear 4 my birthdae. n e special ting abt tis bear is it has a birth certificate! hahaz. yupz. it's like u go 2 e shop (time zone. arcade) then u choose e skin of e soft toy u wan. got winnie e pooh etc lahz. then u fill e bear up w cotton urself. after tt u put a heart inside e bear n sew it up. then u choose e clothin 4 e bear urself. n tada! u get e bear w it's bc. hahaz. it's so sweet lahz. i feel so touched. sighz. n guilty too. coz her midyr results r reallie horrendous! oh my goodness! i muz make sure she get at least an A2 or B3 for her A maths n maths 4 her end of yr exams. or else. i dun wanna tink abt it.
n i went shoppin 2dae! hahaz. i bought a digi cam! yupz. n i m reallie vry happie w my purchase! yupz. so frm now onwards i dun need 2 borrow digi cam frm my daddy n mummy le! but still muz thanx my daddy gabriel 4 lendin his cam 2 mi 4 investitute! yupz. feel so shuang. hahaz. it pay off 2 walk all e wae 2 sim lim square coz i get e cam at a discount of $89 as compared 2 e price frm courts etc. arhz! next time go out. i can bring cam le! yeahz! i m goin 2 mug e manual 2dae! hahaz. arhz. i luv my darlin son. we r always vry productive wheneva we go shoppin. confirmed got buy stuff wan. hahaz. but e weather is reallie vry hot. n bugis is flooded w pple. most prob becoz of e food festival there lahz.
hmmz. 2molo i m goin cyclin! arhz. let mi c. tis is e 5th time i m cyclin. hahaz. 2 tink i can actuallie remember. hahaz. i m lookin 4ward 2 it. juz hope tt i haven 4gotten how 2 cycle. hahaz. yupz. 2molo will be my official last dae of playin! yahz. supposedly lahz. muz tok myself into muggin soon le. guess tt's all.
dreaming awae at 8:00 PM