Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Saturday, July 16, 2005
alrite. i m back 2 blog a supreme long entry tt's almost e same length as my gp essay. hahaz. so dun read if u dun like gp essays. hahaz. i m gettin siaoz. dotz.
ok. first of all. let mi announce 2 e whole world. i passed my common tests! yeshz! all of them. hahaz. oh gosh. i cant believe tt i m so happie abt tis. oh well. i shld be. hmmz. aniwae. i got all Es lahz. so 4 E for Estella rite. hahaz. maybe i shld change my name. wonder does it works? hahaz. as 4 gp. it's gone lahz. sighz. dun wanna tink abt it.
erhz. let mi recall wat happen in e past wk ok? lets c. hmmz. on mondae. went 2 e biopolis 4 our chem trip. erhz. fairly interestin lahz. yahz. but once again. i tink i wun embark on e journey of becomin a full time researcher. coz no 1. u hav 2 study all e wae up 2 a doctorate b4 u can be considered a scientist. aniting less than tt? a lab technician. wat a waste! no 2. u need 2 be careful n consise n hav alot of qns. which i dun. yahz. so erhz. dun tink i will enjoy doin e same ting over n over n over to e power of inifinity again juz 2 test out the hypothesis one by one. but it was an enrichin trip lahz. n i tink of e pple there quite gd lookin! arhz. her name is yan. n her voice is reallie nice! hmmz...
tuesdae rite. hav tok regardin stress management. n donita rose came 2 tok 2 us. whom i seriously dun noe who she is lahz. sorrie. i dun watch mtv. yahz. i m deprived. dun need further elaboration. after tt dr william tan tok 2 us. he is reallie inspirin. n becoz he has e belief he did it. i muz work 2wards tt frm now on. yupz.
wed rite. we played interclass games. my class played handball against 3Q. hahaz. everywan who turned up 4 pe played except mi. coz seriously i hav phobia lahz. reallie. if we r playin juz within e gurlz then i hav no worries. but we r playin w guys. who passed ball reallie hard. n i m vry scared. esp when i hav tis automatic reflex 2 try 2 intercept e ball. i dun wanna fracture my pinkie again. esp w e fact tt e 2 screws r there 2 stay till i die. if i fractured my pinkie again. i wun get juz 1 clean break. i will get mani breaks. in other words. my bone will shatter. n i dun wanna tink along tt line at all. so yahz. went 2 eat at kfc after tt w zhao yi. lilian n wei jie. n i met tt notorious ri pervert who preyed onli at ri guys. erhz. he doesnt reallie looked perverted. but after encounterin 3 perverts within 6 mths. i tink looks r reallie misleadin. hahaz. oh well. but 4 e first time. i m quite glad tt i m a gurl. hahaz. went swimmin w yee keow after tt. frm 2 plus 2 4 plus. yahz. n i m rather tanned now. hahaz. ok lahz. i look burnt. oh well. but i did exercise. after a long long while. first time i m swimmin after my fracture. notin much. except my pinkie hurts if i exert too much force. hmmz.
thurs erhz. noting much lahz. yahz. watch project super stars lahz. juz wanna sae tt those contestants r abit e stupid lahz. no offense but e songs they picked r reallie a big no no! no 1. e gurlz keep on singin stefanie's songs rite. abit e no brain lahz. come on. her album's producer+teacher+writer is sittin there among e judges. n her songs r reallie well known. once u off. everywan noes. iznt tt 2pid then wat it is? no 2. on thurs itself. i heard 3 songs frm A*Mei. my idol. yahz. u didnt c wrongly. i adore her singin. though pple complaint tt her voice hoarse n stuff. but tell u. in e mandarin pop. no wan can beat her voice. her worthy opponents r e.g. celine dion. u get my pt. n they all screwed up. esp tt 2nd female contestant. sang one of her most difficult song. aiyohz! lucky she got in or else can go n knock wall liao. so conclusion. unless u r A*Mei. dun sing her songs. coz her dynamics n power n range is reallie one of e best.
fri. erhz. went 2 eat w marlom n yee keow after sch. b4 meetin yii ean at mos burger 2 do maths. tokkin abt tt. i haven finished it. hmmz. then went 2 coronation plaza 2 meet up w xiang2 n boon2. ate dinner at a cafe w a rather interestin name 'cafe wadever' hahaz. n e featured decor is related 2 austin powers. rather dotz lahz. but e food is ok lahz. after tt went 2 e nygh foa (festival of e arts) higher music (or mep) concert. i felt so terrible. oh gosh. yahz. u didnt c wrongly. i wanna die lahz. at certain parts of e concert. it was quite bad lahz. esp when u consider e fact tt tis pple r takin music at an examinable level. [faintx]. overall. e pianists r e best lahz. e string ensemble. i dun noe wat 2 sae. so messy n keep on got pple goin out of tune. even i can hear tt it's out of tune. mi w my rather untrained ear. oh gosh. was so thanxful when their performance ended. then e sax w e piano. e sax keep on squeakin. i mean reallie keep on. i cringed at every squeak. n her tone is reallie bad. was vry thanxful when it ends. e yang qin abit e dotz can. e first few notes played r wrong liao. thanx goodness he's frm chinese high (hwa chong institution) n nt nygh. hahaz. e flute w e piano i tink nt vry gd. but yii ean sae nt bad. so erhz. maybe i dun noe how 2 appreciate. but sumhow i dun tink e flutist is gd lahz. muz be becoz i m used 2 reallie gd players. hmmz. then e clarinetist is passable lahz. she got squeaked but nt vry obvious. but 2 of her notes r rather off lahz. but got reallie gd wans. like got tis pianist. who composed tis reallie hard piece at e age of 8 yrs old. yahz. 8 yrs old. n she played it. n my jaws dropped rite. oh gosh. 2 tink i cant even play bassoon properly. then another gurl. she played her own piece also. her movement is so fluid n beautiful that i m stunned. tis r e reallie gifted wans! i m so envious!
as 4 2dae. went 2 get a birthdae presenz. n went 2 run w yee keow after tt. actuallie. it's more like i ran she cycled lahz. ran 4 15 mins ard e neighbourhood. dun noe distance. tis is in preparation 4 my 2.4 run next thurs. coz i m takin my nafpa can. tink i m goin 2 fail liao. run abit then wanna die. sighz. oh well. aimin 4 a gold. pls let mi get a gold. or else. it's reallie vry ugly on my record. sighz.
i realised tt quite alot of tings happened wout mi noeing. oh well. e ting abt nt being online 2 read blogs lahz. my bro is home liao. hav 2 go le. shall continue next time when i hav time. yahz.
dreaming awae at 11:59 PM
