Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Friday, June 03, 2005
todae is e last dae of e camp 4 e first wk. n my last stint w S5 for tis camp. sighz. in e end i didnt manage 2 go back 2 S5. but i guessed it's ok lahz. come 2 tink abt it. i m also abit unreasonable. hmmz. coz my teacher 4 B7 is an experienced leader but juz become teacher recently. then my fellow leader is a newbie. n we r teachin a B class. whose theories r onli learned in sec sch. n alot of tings need 2 be prepared b4 hand. so i muz c tis as a 'promotion'. but sumhow i tink i will reallie miss mas n francis alot. hahaz. workin w them is reallie great.
felt reallie vry tired todae after e concert. when mas n i were dancin w e kids 4 3 hrs plus. as they were practisin their item. hahaz. as usual. e rehearsal is betta than e real performance lahz. but we reallie hav a great time dancin w e kids. who r so cute! hahaz. but being so 'loud' 4 e camp is reallie vry tirin. everydae when i reached home. i will juz flopped onto e bed after showerin. n i will need 2 summon all my will power 2 push myself out of e bed each mornin.
feel rather guilty 2dae. coz went 2 eat w tze hui twin sis who is leavin e country 4 new zealand obs soon n daddy gabriel. as i was reallie tired. i was in e dream-like state n wasnt payin attention 2 them lahz. at least i cldnt concentrate on e conversation. n in e end i hav 2 go home early coz i noe i wun be able 2 last tt long. reallie feel bad abt it. sighz.
juz in case i 4get. following my practice. i will write down e names of e children i teached.
sean chan. yang dingg. jo-adam. nicole. jia cai. jeriel (wei sheng). wei jie. jing lin. clarissa. annah. noorishah. grace. rachel. nicolette. charlene. sean wang. claudia. austin (nt powers). jodene. nicholas. hannah. yingqi. amirah. edley.
so tt's abt it lahz. will be workin w boon khing n joanna next wk. hope i will still be alive after tt. hahaz. frm wat happened tis wk. i tink i may nt be goin 4 chalet le. coz i may end up so tired tt i will juz sleep after reachin e chalet. hmmz. shall c abt it later. n i realise tt i need 2 set up another appointment w my occupational therapist. my finger hurts. sighz. tis is such an old piece of news. shall go n sleep now. n catch up w sum dreamz. hahaz.
dreaming awae at 11:59 PM
