Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Friday, June 17, 2005
i feel a sense of loss. i tink he is avoidin mi. seriously. oh dear. wat hav i done wrong? sighz. it seemed so awkward 2dae. even w mas n sam ard us. it still seem vry weird n strained. hav i done anitin tt make him tink in tt direction? but i hav been vry careful. been vry 'normal'. wat's wrong?
i didnt work tis wk. but i went back twice alrdy. yahz. but both times i didnt get 2 speak 2 him much. coz he's bus leader n is rushin off 2 send e kids home. mondae. i went back after my occupational therapy n shoppin at douby ghaut. was rather dressed up as compared 2 usual. was supposed 2 go out 2gether w mas. but last min. he gave a rather lame excuse n didnt turn up. on wed. i went back after my band invest. so i was wearin rj sch uniform. passed him his presenz as a thanx u gift 4 e first wk. n tt's all. 2dae went out as a group of 4. but sumhow i feel tt it's different. n i dun noe why izzt like tt. it feels alot more strained. sighz. oh well. nvm. we wun be cin each other until next fri le. hope everyting will return 2 normal by then. n we will be gd frenz again. w tis tinge of uneasiness gone.
sumtimes i wonder m i being 2 idealistic? hahaz. but guess ultimately i noe. deep inside my heart. such tings dun exist. yupz. shall go sleep now. n start 2 mug 4 my common tests. n everyting will come 2 its end.
dreaming awae at 1:46 PM
