Living In Dreamz

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

well. i m dyin of exhaustion n pain now. great. juz great. so basically yesterdae is quite ok. except my feet r killin mi. n tt we braved e rain 2 watch e table tennis match even though my whole class like disappeared 2gather 2 go back 2 sch after a while. wow. tt's tis guy who is reallie vry vry qiang!!! my 'idol' frm now on. he is so gd!!! i cant stand pple like him who r so talented. sighz. y cant i be talented in sum waes 2? sighz. i m bored w life.

so i went 4 dance nite rehearsal after tt lahz. my bandages all ruined by e rain so i hav 2 come up w sum reallie weird bandages 2 cushion my blisters. which supposedly reduces e pain while i m walkin. n i m like how slack. hahaz. my job is 2 tell randy when 2 play e music. hahaz. e slackest person in e whole team. n tt hav 2 be mi le. hahaz. n e rehearsal ended at 11.15 pm. i almost died. decided nt 2 take taxi (tryin to save money). so ended up walkin 2 mrt 2 take e train n bus. when i reached home it's abt 12.10 am. n i slept at 1.30am so tt my hair is dry by then.

was so tired 2dae tt i dun noe how e dance pple survive. they r reallie quite qiang u noe. hav 2 rehearsals in 1 nite. but can c tt they quite tired coz alot of accidents happened in e 2nd rehearsal. yet still can survive in class. n i muz sae tt e chinese dances r reallie gd. remind mi of ny chinese dance which is vry gd. arhz.

so i was strugglin 2 keep myself awake durin chem tutorial 2dae. n keep on givin ms tang tt dazed look. hahaz. n slept thru half of physics lect. n slept another 1 hr after sch b4 goin 4 band. tis teaches mi 4 being k.s. try 2 go 4 all performances 4 free rite.

2dae band major/drum major elections. arhz. erhz. dun reallie hav much 2 sae lahz. since i dun noe e j1s like reallie well. except yu kit ba. hahaz. i juz luv 2 traumatise her. ask a few qns n feel reallie out of place lahz. since like i m nt in e exco n e choosin of successors hav notin much 2 do w mi. but was quite tired tt in e end decided tt i shld juz stop askin qns.

went 2 eat w yee keow b4 goin shoppin 4 cds. erhz. e cd i wanna buy is nt out lehz. sighz. nvm. but i realise tt music junction is reallie a bargain place. wow. i spent like $25 4 2 cds. arhz. i luv myself so much. erhz. aniwan hav e mj rewards card? coz tis mth is my birthdae n if i buy rite. i hav 10% discount. so muz make full use of tis discount. if u hav. tell mi hor. thanx.

n i went 2 do e handwritin test. is totally dotz by one of e description. oh my goodness. i m goin 2 faint. n my com hang 2dae. oh dear. i hope i didnt introduce ani virus inside or else my bro is goin 2 murder mi. arhz.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Estella has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Estella fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Estella has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Estella just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Estella finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

Estella has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Estella's y or g is large and opens up to the left side of the page. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Estella has regarding sex and physical things. So, her lower zone stroke is large, so her sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop is incomplete and extends to the left, this indicates a particular fascination with certain aspects of sexuality that have not been fulfilled, yet. In a nutshell, Estella is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once.

Estella has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Estella is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Estella basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

In reference to Estella's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Estella slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Estella can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Diplomacy is one of Estella's best attributes. She has the ability to say what others want to hear. She can have tact with others. She has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Estella can disagree without being disagreeable.

Estella will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Estella will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Estella believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Estella uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Estella does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise. Estella will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. Estella is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Estella doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

so in conclusion. tis is nt vry accurate. if wanna go 4 such test muz realie do tt kind of real handwritin analysis. w ur own handwritin 4 pple 2 analyse. coz tis test is askin u 2 chose e wan tt is most similar. so nt accurate. hahaz. i m practisin my physics spa skill d now rite. tokin abt accuracy n suggestion for improvements. abit off. sighz. fall into withdrawal symptoms every now n then. rather enjoys e silence actuallie. maybe i m juz lookin 4 sum peace. sumtimes tings r nt wat they seem or r they? wateva it is. i dun feel like tokin animore. silence is golden as usual.

dreaming awae at 7:50 PM