Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Monday, May 09, 2005
well. didnt go 2 sch again 2dae. coz need 2 go n 'freeze my feet' again. tis time there is large improvements. onli need 2 undergo e treatment 4 4 spots in total. i was like jokin 2 my doc tt i came 2 c her every wk 2 undergo sufferin. hahaz. n we chatted abit abt 1st yr med sch. like 4 her. their first yr they alrdy started 2 dissect human body. yahz. sound so much more interestin than med syllabus now. hahaz. n i did a vry 2pid ting 2dae. i 4got 2 bring my atm card. so in e end. i hav 2 hobble home n back 2 e clinic again 2 pay. feel reallie stupid. i m blur lahz. sighz.
guess e greatest feelin of disappointment stem frm tis. e sudden realisation tt ur frens hav no faith in u. in ur character. in ur maturity. in ur logic. in ur compassion. in ur behaviour. do i reallie appear 2 be tt shallow? tt useless? tt biased? tt immatured? maybe i do. but all i noe is tt i can add sumting 2 e list of tings tt i will nv tolerate which includes betrayal n smokin. lack of trust. since it turns out tis wae. i reallie dun noe wat 2 sae. xcept tt since u dun trust mi. then pls. dun expect mi 2 trust u animore. wat's e use of frenship if u hav 2 worry abt my behaviour? to mi now. it's as if i dun noe u at all. n u dun noe mi too. we r juz strangers. strangers who r in each other lives for tis past yr.
suddenly i realise e imptance of independence. 2 be independent ensures tt 1 dae if u r reallie left w noting. u will still be able 2 move on. 2 rely on no wan but urself. i always hope tt i m tt kind of person whom u can dump aniwhere in e world n i will survive type. now i m goin 2 make sure tt i become sumwan like tt. 2 ensure my own survival n sanity.
dreaming awae at 1:59 PM
