Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
ok. i hav been miain 4 quite sum time. erhz. n i feel like i m goin 2 nod off soon. i feel so tired. sighz. i m like how unfit. w practically no stamina left at all. hahaz. ok. maybe workin at dvc may be a gd wae 2 toughen mi up. runnin after e kids n up n down e stairs dozen of times per dae is more than enough 2 build up e non existent muscles in my legs. hahaz. maybe i will hav more toned legs? juz like ymw. hahaz. i tink tt will nv happen. ok i m gettin out of pt.
went out w vicky on sundae. 2 go shoppin at raffles city shoppin centre 4 anmin's presenz. bought a crystal fish necklace 4 her. hahaz. w e pooled money frm 6 pple. namely mi. vicky. shen ye. iris biao jie. uncle hui yan n xinyi. hav a great time chattin w vicky. decided i shld continue 2 pester her frm now on. hahaz.
hav a reallie great time at e bbq at anmin's house. dunkin du yang into e pool is reallie hilarious. but i sorta feel guilty. coz it's e first time du yang dressed so nicely. hahaz. but it's reallie vry funnie. oh my. i cldnt stop laughin at tt pt of time. reallie like tis type of feelin i experienced while juz hangin out w my batchmates. maybe i wasnt close 2 them rite frm e start. but i do hope tt i wun lose them after we graduate.
then yesterdae is e first dae of DVC. i was so tired frm e bbq n e fact tt i reached home at 11 plus (thanx 2 e long waitin hrs of 961 n 911). tis is e reason y i nv went hc. coz i dun wanna 2 suffer e agony of waitin 4 961 while watchin other buses zoomed past u. summore e bus stop is so eerie n quiet. sighz. n i made e dae of quite a few mosquitoes 2. sighz.
i m teachin e primary 1 kids. n tis time i hav 25 kids. if i m nt wrong. e largest no of kids i eva hav. n they r all pri 1. do u noe how hectic tt is? n e prob is sum of them r reallie vry AA (attract attention) tt it almost gets onto my nerves. oh my. but overall. workin w children is reallie a great experience. n i experienced first hand how full of crap my teacher n fellow leader r. n of course. e non stop matchmakin skills of samantha. hahaz. but i reallie feel comfortable workin w them. n i m officially known as 'Auntie Estella' thanx 2 e instigation by Mas (my teacher). wateva. hahaz. dun u dare call mi tt! i will murder u! hahaz.
as 4 2dae. we went 2 west coast park. e last time i went there was durin my sec sch daes. so approx 2-3 yrs nv been there le. e weather is so scorchin hot tt i feel reallie dehydrated. oh my goodness. i thot i was goin 2 faint. esp after runnin to n fro at e 'flyin fox' station. pushin e kids frm 1 end 2 e other end. runnin in e sand is reallie tirin. n my shoes r completely filled w sand. tt i decided i shld go n buy a pair of sandles soon. i cant take it animore. hahaz. oh my. but i tink i lost sum weight due 2 water loss. hahaz. maybe i will be able 2 slim down?
well. i will be workin next wk 2. so i guess i wun reallie be physically there durin e band chalet. but i will be stayin over lahz. so each dae i will be rushin back 2 bukit timah 2 work. n i realise tt i hav a great affinity w rv pple. my first partner xiao qing is frm rv. my 2nd partner kah ming is also frm rv n now my current partner is frm rv too. i onli realised tt he's frm band 2dae. so we played at e same concert 4 a tempo wout realisin it. tis is reallie funnie. hahaz. so tis makes e 3 of us who r teachin S5. all members of e band. hahaz. woodwinds summore. life is reallie interestin. hahaz. ok shall nt bore everywan w more borin details of my life. i need 2 mug!!!
n congrats 2 mi. 4 bloggin my wae thru my first anniversary. hahaz. readin sum of my older entries. it's no wonder sum pple tink tt my blog is vry borin. i tink so 2. hahaz. ok. shall go n sleep soon le.
dreaming awae at 9:55 PM