Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Saturday, May 07, 2005
Happie Belated Birthdae Nan Xiao! Happie Belated Birthdae Win2! Happie Birthdae Dreyz! May u all be as pretti as mi. hahaz. nono. i m juz jokin. Juz wanna wish e 3 of u all e best n may happiness be with u all always.
well. yesterdae seem 2 be e longest dae i hav eva live thru. was physically exhausted. n i dun noe e reason y. saw my batchmates in sch. most of us look pretti alrite. all r grievin. but most hav alrdy started 2 move on. n i muz sae tt i m vry proud of all of u. coz u all displayed e courage n strength tt i noe will help our band 2 move on.
stayed back in sch 2 film e chinese drama. n e drama is nt bad. n some parts r reallie funnie. but pac is reallie vry cold. i was frozen. even w my jacket. tis reminds mi 2 bring my jacket n maybe pants 2 change into 4 my 5 daes stint in pac until 10 pm next wk 4 dance nite n rehearsals.
went 2 teach tuition 2dae. at 9 am. so tt i will be able 2 rush off 2 batch outin. but i was so tired tt i practically dozed off while waitin 4 my tutee 2 finish doin e qns. in e end i give in 2 my exhaustion n slept after tuition. so didnt go 2 batch outin. feel quite guilty. sighz.
i was awoken by amir mummy's call. askin mi whether i wanna hav lunch w him. which of course i agreed lahz. coz i missed my mummy. so long nv c him liao. but my cousin bought food 4 mi so in e end i ate like half packet of vegetarian noodles b4 meetin up w mummy who is 4eva late. sighz. tok abt being a woman. i tink he is more like 1 than mi. hahaz.
hav a long chat w mummy on e train n in cafe cartel. i ordered pork chops while mummy ordered his all time fav e dory fish. keep on tokin n eatin at e same time. n wat mummy sae strike mi. he sae tt wateva we feel now shld nt hav anitin 2 do w e seniors n e past glory but onli us. coz at every syf. it's diff grps of pple who r competin w each other. true. we all belong 2 rj. but every syf. it's a diff batch of rjcsb fightin w other schs. we cannt expect rj 2 stay on top 4eva n tt all e other schs 2 stay below 4eva. pple look up 2 us as a challenge. a goal 2 work 2wards 2. we shld feel honoured abt it.
n maybe becoz we dun hav a bandrm 2 ourselves. band pracs whether sectional or self prac seem like a chore. sumting 2 be dreaded. i muz admit tt e enthusiasm 2 prac has decreased drastically. we no longer hav a place 2 call our own. n mummy is saein tt we shld ask e admin 2 give us a rm. but i dun tink it's goin 2 happen. rj is saturated alrdy. all large enough rms r used up. there is no place 2 house us animore. i dun noe lahz. maybe e admin shld wisen up abt tis. morale matters more than anitin. bet tt they dun understand.
met iris biao jie on my wae home. was tellin her wat a pig i was. after eatin at cafe cartel. i ended up goin 2 orchard w mummy 2 eat dessert at coffee club xpress. ordered a triple choc a la mode. while mummy ordered a tiramisu al cafe. i tell u. my triple choc is so sweet n fat laden tt i feel sinful. oh my goodness. can u imagine how much fats there r w 4 pieces of chewy rich choc w almonds n 1 huge scoop of vanilla ice cream. feel so high after eatin so much sugar. hahaz. n apparently biao jie ate alot 2. hahaz. oh dear. e 2 of us r growin 2 become a piggy. hahaz. n i muz sae thanx 2 mummy. who treat mi 2dae. yupz. shall get u a huge nice birthdae presenz. luv u always mummy. n congrats 4 gettin e teachin scholarship. go n pursue ur dreamz. ur youngest n most spoilt daughter will be always supportin u! but i will need rewards like tis at times arhz. hahaz.
i m so full tt i didnt eat dinner 2nite. hahaz. but piggin out do makes mi feel betta. arhz. realise tt i hav alot of work 2 finish. oh dear. includin a gp essay. which i m tryin nt 2 remember abt. yuckz!
2 my batchmates n juniors in rjcsb. i luv u all lots. n i m nt being cliche. i mean it. i learnt alot frm all of u n e bonds tt r forged among us is sumting i will remember 4eva. i nv regretted joinin band. nv. becoz of u all. 2 my dear princess. u r reallie one of e strongest person i noe n i luv u lots. 2 vicky. u r one of e most logical n clear headed person i noe. though u might disagree w mi. 2 everywan. deep inside we all noe where we belong n tt place is rjcsb. may happiness be w us always.
dreaming awae at 10:50 PM