Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
at times i reallie tink tt i m mad. yes. mad. takin on e job of doing backstage/av stuff 4 2 consecutive performances for 1 wk is more than enough 2 kill aniwan. esp sumwan whose immune system is practically non existent like mi. yahz. so my pt now is tt i m vry sick. severely sick. sick until i m takin more medication than i can count.
so basically i tried 2 hav sum rest on sundae to ensure tt i m able 2 come 2 sch on mondae. but e ting is my throat hurts lahz. survive thru e whole dae fairly well. considerin tt i did half of my quantum physics tutorial. i m startin 2 like n appreciate physics betta. wow! wat a astonishin discovery. esp at tis wee hours b4 common tests. hahaz.
went 4 guitar concert rehearsal after tt. erhz. was ok lahz. 4 a first time run thru. yahz. but e movement is rather slow. n quite sum time is wasted. n tis resulted in mi goin home frm sch at onli 10 plus. n tis juz aggrevates my condition. my cough became worse. my throat hurts more n i started to get rather grumpy. hahaz. but i muz thanx monash 4 helpin mi flag a taxi home. wat a gentleman! hahaz. was rather touched lahz. since i was tired till i was ready to drop to e floor.
yesterdae was horrible lahz. slept thru e whole dae except 4 maths lect. though i was dozing off 4 awhile. was quite surprised tt e teachers r so understandin. i still luv my tay most. hahaz. he let mi slept thru e whole lesson. n he always reminds mi 2 do my tutorials yet nv seem 2 be angree w mi. arhz. such a nice teacher. i luv him!!! hahaz. n mr low seem nt so bad after all. but i prefer 2 hav reservations on tt.
went 4 guitar dry run after tt. we r pretti much efficient i muz sae. at least e back stage pple. cant reallie sae tt 4 e control rm pple. hahaz. if u noe wat i m saein. then gd 4 u lahz. if nt. then dun bother. due 2 design probs. i ended up holdin e curtains 4 e main ensemble performances as e performers at e back row of stage left cant be seen. arhz. i m such a nice person. ok. enought braggin.
after dinner. went 2 get ready for e performance. i was practically doin av stuff 4 e guitar concert/rehearsals also. feel abit e dotz. hahaz. i ran out of adjectives. hav 1/2 hiccups along e wae. but overall was pretti much ok. xcept tt stuff always seemed 2 drop backstage n provide sound effect 4 quite a few items. includin e hci item. oh yahz. n i saw my frenz frm ny!!! hahaz. esp ms poon. arhz. so happie!!! okok. when e whole ting finished. all of us were vry relieved. hahaz. arhz. everyting turned out pretti alrite.
n i luv yu ying's totoros!!! so cute! arhz. hahaz. was playin w them backstage since i hav noting 2 do. n though i was irritated w certain pple. overall was a gd workin experience. at least i hav more tings 2 do than dance nite lahz. feel more useful. hahaz. n i was busily huggin sumwan's presenz. hahaz. so nice 2 hug also. realise tt ck's frenz r reallie crazy. now i noe y he behaved in such a manner. coz all his bb frenz abit crazy wan. was laughin so hard durin e rehearsals. hahaz. even e conductor was amused when he saw wat happened while conductin. hahaz.
after workin backstage 4 sum time. i hav come 2 a conclusion. it will be betta if e stage manager is nt one of e performers. coz sm hav 2 be present n available at every single moment. yahz. also. shall shorten rehearsal time lahz. n tt try nt 2 drag. coz e more time wasted. e more tire e pple r. yahz.
well. i shall go n sleep after takin my medication. or at least try to. n my parents juz told mi tt i will be goin 2 kl 4 e long weekend as they r goin 2 genting n there is no wan at home over e long wk end since my bro will be awae at chalet. so i guess i wun be there 4 my last band prac le. n av farewell also. but doubt aniwan will miss mi. hahaz.
dreaming awae at 2:25 PM
