Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
went 4 my occupational therapy again todae. hav quite a nice time there. coz get 2 enjoy tis 'whirlpool' or dun noe wat lahz. so basically i juz place my hand inside tis machine tt has warm air at 44 degree celcius n hav soft sand. supposedly 2 help soften my skin n scar tissue. so tt i can clench my fist betta. which it did lahz. hahaz. i can like fully clenched my fist le! hahaz. so proud of myself.
aniwae my swellin is reallie vry bad lahz. even my therapist also sae tt. my left pinkie. at tt particular joint is onli 4.6 cm in diameter. but my rite pinkie is 5.6 cm in diameter. a difference of 1.0 cm. which is alot if u were 2 tink of e size of e pinkie. so now. i hav more tings 2 do at home. i need 2 moisturise my pinkie n rub it evenly 2 help reduce e swellin. n i need 2 tie tis tight bandage ard my finger so tt e blood circulation there will be reduced n e swellin will go down soon. but my hands still no strength lehz. coz she made mi clench tis gadget tt measure e amt of weight ur hand can carry. 4 my left hand it's 16 kg. but my rite hand onli 9 kg. oh dear. nvm i m goin 2 start doin push ups. hahaz. but wun be cin my therapist 4 next appointment le. coz she is goin on maternity leave soon. she is reallie vry nice, hope my next therapist will be nice too.
aniwae was quite scared of pe 2dae. coz ms sim is vry pissed. oopz. n i realise how lousy my stamina is now. coz i like 1 mths plus nv run le? then 2dae one go run 4 rounds. n i feel like i m goin 2 die. dotz. i m goin 2 fail nafpa. hmmz. n i seriously hav tis qn? aniwan noe wat happen 2 wu di's leg arhz? she supposedly sprain her ankle in like jan. then until now still cannt pe? like huh? i fractured my pinkie. went 4 op. n i can start pe le. n yj whose leg swell until reallie vry bad after her sprain. start 2 pe long time ago liao. so wat's wrong w wu di? hmmz. n i realise tt she goes 2 tan tock seng too. hahaz. we juz luv tt place.
went home w dawnie 2dae. hav a tok w her. hmmz. ok. i realise tt i m nt such a gd analyser after all. oh well. luckily i wasnt considerin it 2 be a full time job. hahaz. i m tokkin rubbish again. shall go n do my bio test now.
btw. i passed my chem test. so i officially passed maths n chem. but i confirmed 99.99% failed physics. coz i get like wat? 6 out of 24 for e mcq rite. n e rest of e paper. i like dun noe how 2 do? except e definitions. tt's how bad. oh well. i m now officially in physics remedial n chem remedial. coz ms tang tink tt i m still nt strong enough in e subj. sighz.
dreaming awae at 5:55 PM