Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Friday, April 29, 2005
ok. i m at home now. rephrased. stuck at home now. coz i juz went 2 c my doc. n undergo another round of freezing treatment. which once again. render mi unable 2 walk properly. n once again. i m tortured by pain. sighz. n e worse ting is tt i will need at least one more round of treatment before i can fully recovered. i hate tis. hmmz.
nvm. i will make full use of e hols 2 rest. or at least try 2. will be cin daddy 2molo. cant wait. let mi c. we hav nt meet up 4 like dun noe how mani billions mths. hahaz. ok abit off. erhz. e previous post is abit e depressin. so u r warned arhz. dun sae i nv warn u.
aniwae shall spend tis time wisely. will go n battle my wae thru e mountainous pile of newspaper. y cant i eva c e end of it? sighz.
juz wanna sae tis. hav been blog surfin. n realise tt sumtimes pple's naivety reallie makes mi feel insulted n amused at e same time. i dun noe lahz. i m sick n tired of all those 'we r one' stuff. coz juz 4 ur info. nt everywan is able 2 overcome e sense of failure n rejection as fast as others. n failure is nv sweet. esp 4 pple who reallie taste e sense of failure 4 e first time in their life. these type of words doesnt help. u dun noe how hard failure is 4 one 2 accept until u experienced it first hand. n of course tis doesnt apply 2 mi n yee keow. coz e 2 of us hav enough failures last yr n tis yr 2 tink abt 4 quite a long period of time. 4 those who were cut out of syf tis yr. i noe of quite a few j1s who r takin it reallie hard. yes. pearls doesnt matter 2 them. but it's tis sense of failure tt hav cause them 2 fall reallie hard. there r sum who r able 2 put on a brave front n try 2 go on w their life. but there r sum who will need more time. n pls dun sae sumting like u hope wat they can do in view of their failure. like stay behind e selected ones n give them all e support. coz u r juz being cruel. competition/tests nv fail 2 create a rift within a group. n wat both shld work 2wards is nt tis clinche 'we r one' ting. coz reality hav proven tt we r nt one. but understanding in both parties tt pple need time 2 recover. wat each party needs. like involvement thru outings 2gather n findin more common interests n topics 2 tok among them. 2 e selected ones. pls dun exclude e rejected ones n yet sae stuff like we hope tt u can support us. dun eva classified n tink tt juz becoz they r rejected they r nt gd enough. if u can straightawae admit tt u nv tink of e group now as e 'in' n 'out' grp. congrats. u r one of e rare few pple i noe. n 2 e rejected ones. i noe tt e selected ones. at least sum of them. still hope 2 hav u all back. so do be brave n try 2 mix ard them again. though u r nt in syf. u can still join them 4 activities. coz u all r always frenz. be strong n move on.
tis is juz my thots n is nt meant 2 be offensive. if u tink tt i m being unreasonable n biased. feel free 2 sae it. i m alrite w it. since i will hav tings 2 occupy mi at home. hahaz.
dreaming awae at 1:11 PM
