Thursday, April 14, 2005
HAPPIE BIRTHDAE YU KIT!!! HAPPIE BELATED BIRTHDAE SELENE. IRENE.
hahaz. realise tt i mia 4 quite sum time le. erhz. hmmz. shall try 2 recall wat happen lahz. since my memory is like how bad. shall tok abt a tempo first. yahz.
spent my whole sundae doin presenz 4 my batchmates n my juniors. hahaz. feel abit nua. but i muz sae tt i actuallie quite gd w handicraft. hmmz. feel so proud of myself. like real lahz. hahaz. n as i was doin e presenz. didnt get 2 prac bassoon. but oh well. i guess last min prac doesnt help much aniwae. yahz.
on e dae of atempo was quite excitin lahz. hahaz. my second concert in my life. my first concert in esplanade. due 2 sum misunderstandin. i didnt get 2 perform 4 vox last yr. wonder whether feelin will be diff. hmmz. oh well. aniwae i look like as though i was goin 2 move house like tt. hahaz. let mi c. i carried my bassoon. w my bag of handmade roses. w my uniform bag tt basically consists of my blazer. shirt. skirt. tie n tie pin. n my sch bag which is filled w my lecture notes. tutorial. pencil box. calculator. shoes. stockings. juniors' presenz. reeds. seat strap etc. basically alot of tings lahz. i muz look so dotz. oh well. shall nt complaint abt tt.
went 2 hav lunch at 11 am. i m like how guai. unlike so mani pple. who pon early. tsktsk. hahaz. aniwae after tt i was helpin jensen fold paper cranes 4 his letters 2 other pple. fold until my whole hands r filled w glitter. hahaz. was quite nua after tt lahz. slack ard while waitin 4 e bus 2 come. n when e bus finally come. we realise tt there r nt enough seats 4 e woodwinds. or simply e saxes. but some of e guys r reallie nice n let e j1 gurlz sit. so nice. hahaz. i was sittin beside anmin who was rushin her notes while i was tryin 2 repair some of my flowers tt hav disintegrated. oopz.
e changin rm is nt bad. hahaz. but all e gurlz squeeze into a single rm. n there r like 10 of us in 1 rm. hahaz. n e changin into uniform is reallie hilarious. i was like standin at e door n screamin 2 whoeva tryin 2 enter e rm tt e gurlz r changin. e frenzy is actuallie quite funnie come 2 tink abt it. n e feelin i hav durin e rehearsal. sittin there on e stage under e lights is reallie special. i guess tis is wat i m lookin 4ward 2 ba. hmmz. after all i nv c myself as a performer on stage until tt moment. guess i will miss tis quite alot when i leave band.
juz wanna sae thanx 2 all my frenz who turn up 4 e concert despite being so busy. first of all muz thanx my 408 clique. esp yii ean. nan xiao. boon2. xiang2. sok ee. thanx so much. i seriously miss e 3 of u frm hc vry much. so long nv c each other le. n though u all hav s paper. but u all still rush down 2 c mi. reallie luv u all vry vry much. thanx 4 e flowers. luv them! hahaz. n though u all dun noe wat a bassoon sound like. or cant hear it. i m glad tt u all r here. juz here 2 acknowledge my efforts. 2 show ur support 4 mi. i guess tis is wat i noe as frenz ba. luv u all always.
thanx 2 woo chiao. hahaz. seriously i didnt noe tt u actuallie remember mi. though we always irritate each other. guess ultimately u r a reallie gd fren. n we do hav a common background. havin come frm e same cca back in sec sch. n being involved in e same parade. hahaz.
thanx 2 wei jie n benny. thanx 4 rememberin mi n being there 2 support. hahaz. dun worry i will be there 4 e guitar concert. n benny u r reallie a vry nice person.
thanx 2 zhao yi. hahaz. though u leave abit e early but then it's ok i guess. since u hav another fren. hahaz. thanx 4 being such a great fren e past 1 yr plus.
thanx 2 jensen yee kiat n marlom 4 e chocs. hahaz.
thanx 2 samuel n dominic 4 e choc n e ice cream stick. hahaz. thanx 4 being such nice n carin juniors who visited mi durin my hospital stay. both of u r reallie gentlemen. though sumtimes u all r quite mean. hmmz. hahaz.
thanx 2 my saxes juniors who bought mi tis reallie nice 'bassoon care kit'. hahaz. tt hav 'swaps'. 'key oil'. 'glower' etc. thanx. it's reallie vry creative n nice. thanx.
well tis settle my a tempo XVI. as 4 feelin i hav. i juz wanna express my gratitude 2 everywan who hav encourage mi on e wae n e help tt everywan hav given mi. actuallie i m at a loss of wat 2 sae. maybe i shall leave it at tis now.
aniwae tues was quite horrible lahz. i was practically 'sleepwalkin' e whole dae. luckily 4 mi i didnt hav 2 undergo e torture of like 2 hr worth of prac. instead i leave e sch at 1 plus 4 my check up at tan tock seng. so here i go. off 2 c my consultant again.
was actuallie quite early. hahaz. coz i 4gotten tt i dun need 2 take x rae 4 tis visit. take so much x rae. take until i dun remember tt i dun need 2 take le. oh well. so i was like juz sittin there at e waitin area. rottin. n listenin 2 my phone's mp3. e vol was pretti loud. basically i cldnt hear e surroundin. but guess i muz hav sum sort of sixth sense lahz. coz when my doc stepped out of e consultation rm. i juz happened 2 look up. hahaz. n he juz stopped in his tracks n look at mi. arhz. i m so impt rite. like real lahz. aniwae he hold up his hand n clench his fist. n gave mi tis question look. so i minic his action w my rite hand n clench my fist. though it wasnt a complete clench. he seem pretti satisfied w my progress n ask mi 2 keep it up. feel quite encouraged. hahaz.
so aniwae in e end i didnt get 2 c him lahz. i mean in consultation. i ended up cin e rjc alumni doc again. hahaz. oh dear. i tink she juz became my permanent doc liao. hahaz. n she call mi e 'rjc bassonist'. feel abit dotz. hahaz. n i realise tt she cldnt be a HO coz seriously i dun tink any HO will be given such a 'impt role'. yahz. so my guess now is tt she is a senior MO of at least 4 yrs of workin experience or studyin 2 become a specialist/on e wae 2 become an associate consultant. coz she follow up on e out patients on e behalf of Dr Cheng n she used his chop while writtin down e notes. yahz. so i was like askin her how come i hav tis scar on my rite wrist. n she was tellin mi tt it's becoz durin e op. when they were placin e green sterile cloth over my hand n clippin it. they accidentally clipped my skin. n leave e scar there. as i was asleep then. so obviously i dun noe wat's happenin lahz. hmmz. feel so dotz. like tt also can. wow liao.
n e reason y my finger feel numb is becoz when Dr Cheng was finishin up e op. 2 exit frm my finger. he most prob stretched e nerves at e side of my pinkie n caused my pinkie 2 be 'traumatised'. tis is e exact words ok. i reallie hav a great affinity 4 e word 'traumatised'. excellent manz. n i received my mc frm napfa. yahz. 4 e first time i actuallie get 2 c her own chop. hahaz. w her own name. yahz. so she is Dr Low Mei Yi. frm rjc. dun noe which yr. n frm fencin. hmmz. ok lahz i m bored lahz. so was like chattin w her. hahaz. n she was like askin mi whether i m an arts or science student. whether i wanna 2 study medicine. n assurin mi tt it's vry easy 2 get into med sch. hmmz. i seriously dun tink so lehz. oh well. i m tinkin 2 much now lahz. aniwae since my progress is so gd. they decided they shld onli c mi 3 mths later. as my swollen pinkie. Dr Cheng sae tt it is goin 2 take a vry vry long time 4 e swellin 2 come down. it may nv fully come down. so yahz. i juz hav 2 be contend w it. n i will be takin an x rae 4 e next visit. now u understand wat i mean when i sae tt i take so much x rae until it becomes a routine.
watched ms congeniality 2 w yee keow. didnt go 4 e batch outin coz heard tt we will be eatin sakae sushi. n i seriously dun wanna eat sushi. summore i dun wanna watch swing gurlz lahz. though it's band related. yahz.
hav chem remedial 2dae. did e distinguishin tests test 2dae. was quite ok lahz. went 4 e gp tok 2dae. 2 listen 2 Dr Balakrishnan. yahz. e minister 4 community development. youth n sports i tink. hahaz. he is reallie a vry engagin speaker. n he doesnt use a script at all. but e prob is tt his speech is like a summary of wat is inside e social studies textbk. oh well. but e Q n A is quite interestin lahz. hmmz. n i do support e buildin of e casino. yahz.
n i wanna sae tis 2 everywan who is readin tis. tt's my tolerance level has a limit. no matter how seeminly unaffected i appear 2 be. pls noe ur limit. ur jokes on my physical appearance n insensitivity is vry hurtful. n 2 tell u e truth. i m nt vry myself nowadaes. maybe becoz of e pain i feel everydae. maybe of sum other reasons. i realise tt i cldnt cldnt my emotions as well as i used 2 be. i cry at e most unexpected moments. n pls juz bear a thot 4 mi now. coz i seriously dun noe when i m goin 2 blow up. n seriously i dun tink it will be a pretti sight. i seldom cry in e past. but i guess now it's slightly different. maybe tis is e reason y i like 'reflections' so much. coz i suddenly cant find e mi i noe animore.
