Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
first of all. juz let mi wish GLEN...a vry HAPPIE BIRTHDAE! hahaz. so sorrie. hav therapy tis mornin so didnt go 2 sch in e mornin. pai sehz. aniwae. i hope tt u hav a great birthdae 2dae. hahaz.
aniwae went 2 c my new therapist. yahz. was kana squeshed in e train. cldnt even get out of e train when i reach novena. dotz. so went 2 c my therapist whose name is janice. frm ajc. hahaz. i like do background track on all e pple i meet in e hospital like tt. hahaz. so e diagnosis is tt my pinkie hav deteriorated. yahz. juz great manz. n my pinkie is like still gettin more n more painful rite. dotz. so she taught mi tis new wae of massagin my pinkie 2 reduce e swellin. which is vry painful. i seriously tink i wun be doin it correctly. coz it's like how painful. i was basically wincin thruout e whole massage. dotz. n she gave mi tis quite fun lookin bandage tt constrict e finger n reduce e swellin. she promised mi tt if i do everything correct. my pinkie will be less swollen in a few wks time. i hope so 2. coz now it hurts.
so went back 2 sch. n went 2 photocopy all my bills frm e hospital lahz. 2 prepare 4 e handin in of e forms 2 claim e insurance. abit off lahz. n went 4 pe after tt. fitness. dotz. well i m juz unfit lahz. cant even run n jump properly. n ms sim actuallie wanted mi 2 do inclined. which i tried. but failed. cant even hold myself up properly. coz i can sorta feel my skin near my pinkie there stretched n it feels as though it's goin 2 tear. n it hurts. so yahz. shall nt be 2 ambitious.
bio spa is nua. coz i onli like spent 30 mins studyin 4 it. it's e last spa liao. but i abit e dun care le. i m feelin vry irritated w all e spas. yahz. so wateva lahz. went 4 chem remedial after tt. n went 2 eat w marlom n yee keow.
basically. i feel numb lahz. seriously. i abit like emotionless now. i dun feel anitin 4 anitin. except pain 4 my pinkie. yahz. n i m hav sorted out my priorities le. basically frm now on. all tt matters 2 mi now is my pinkie. n my studies. all e best 2 everywan in syf. muz jia you horz. so tt i can play 4 presentation. hahaz.
dreaming awae at 7:37 PM
