Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Thursday, April 21, 2005
erhz. ok. i m still struck at home. dotz. yahz. n i was wrong earlier 2 sae tt e pain is nt there. coz e pain on both my feet. continues 2 haunt mi till now. n e pain is further supported by my eva present swollen pinkie. sighz. so now i m like takin pain killers. plus walkin in a vry funnie manner on both my soles or as much as i can manage. dotz. n i minimise my movements ard e house so much tt i kept myself busy on e sofa w tis gigantic pile of newspaper which i seem 2 be nv able 2 finish readin.
so yahz. i managed 2 clear half of e pile of newspaper. but i m still left w e other half. e content heavy half. dotz. sighz. n i realise tt i hav a lot of work 2 hand in 2molo. i feel quite nua. sianz. n i still haven study 4 bio remedial test 2molo. wateva lahz.
aniwae juz wanna sae tis 2 dawnie. dun feel regretful or sorrie dear. coz ultimately no matter how much help i received. onli i can determine whether i will meet e mark eventually. n truthfully speakin. i m juz nt hardworkin enough lahz. coz i like prac bassoon 4 a few mths. then stop 4 a few mths. b4 tryin 2 continue 2 play again. tis type of progress no wonder will make my playin to be in such a wae now. so dun feel sorrie ok? i sorta bring tis upon myself lahz. n dun worry i m nt sad or wat. seriously. coz i guess all my emotions hav been used up cryin over my pinkie tt i hav none 2 spare 4 my failure 4 syf. yahz. n i do feel luved when u n samuel sae tt u all miss mi durin band prac. so u all muz play well well. n ensure tt i get 2 play 4 presentation ok? jia you horz. n dawnie. dun regret e decisions tt u hav made. coz there is no wae u can go back n undo them. which i seriously wished tt there r sum waes 4 mi 2 do tt. hahaz. considerin e great mess i got myself into last yr. but u noe wat? i sorta juz let it go le. coz i noe i cant do anitin 2 e past. wat i can do is 2 look 4ward. though my pearls n pw n pride suffered quite a big bruise tis past yr plus. n e fact tt nus med sch nv appear further than it can be now. but i still hold on 2 my dream. n i noe tt i will pursue it w all my might no matter wat. even if tt involves being debt ridden 4 a long time. so dear. dun look back now. but look 4ward. coz u still hav chance 2 explore all e opportunities offered 2 u. dun be scared. n dun be afraid 2 be urself. hahaz. hope u get my pt. tink i shld go n mug b4 i face more dire consequences.
dreaming awae at 9:25 PM
