Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Saturday, April 16, 2005
ebloggy finally retrieve my old blog. n i juz finished transferrin e entries over. i m goin 2 delete my account at ebloggy liao. hmmz. yu kit was like tellin mi tt no wan bother 2 read e archives. but y i copied them over is nt 4 others 2 read. but 4 myself 2 read. so tt i can still remember wat happen 2 mi a yr ago.
aniwae i got back my pw results. an A2. yahz. i m ok w it lahz. since my grp is vry screwed up n such. but oh well. at least it's still an A. thanx goodness. n tt irritatin person who slacked ard so much get A2 2. i m so dotz. wateva lahz. but tis yr vry little pple got A1 lehz. hmmz. wonder wat's wrong. aniwae 2 all e j1s out there. all e best 4 pw. jia you. n may ur gp members r all hardworkin beings. hahaz.
screwed up my physics spa again. oh well. tt's old news. but i juz wanna sae tt i abit dun care liao lahz. coz actuallie e percentage tt spa make up in e results is like how small. so in e end rite. i juz need 2 do betta 4 my theory exams then i can still make it. but e prob is. my physics is nv gd. i hav been in remedial 4 as long as i can remember. hahaz. i sorta challenged mr lee 2 push my grades up juz like wat my physics teacher back at ny did. hahaz. feel so dotz.
hav audition 2dae. was vry touched by samuel n dawnie. yes. i do remember e promise u all make at e beginnin of e yr. tt u all sae tt e 2 of u will make sure i will get into syf. i was reallie vry touched. but e fact is i noe i wun get in. seriously. lookin at how i play compared 2 u all. deep down i noe 4 a fact tt i will nv reach ur standard. at least nt within tis yr. therefore i went 2 e audition w a light heart. coz ultimately i noe tt i wll nt make it. n i m reallie vry grateful 2 osh n yee kiat. who did their best 2 make mi feel relaxed n betta. esp osh. who did everyting within his means 2 make mi feel more comfortable. but i still sound reallie horrible in e end. i sound like myself 10 mths ago when i only played bassoon 4 4 mths. tt bad. sighz. oh well. guess i cant go back n redo tt. but i m reallie vry happie 2 be in band. n 2 learn such a pretti instru. i will be waitin 2 play at e presentation ceremony. hahaz.
pinkie hav been hurtin constantly in e past few daes. 2 mi. e pain seemed 2 be increasin in intensity. hopefully it's juz psychological effect. n nt reallie tt bad. hmmz. but i cant help but feel scared.
tze hui sis is in NUH now. due 2 her eye. i hope she is ok. hahaz. wanted 2 go n visit her. but she absolutely dun allow mi 2. coz she feels tt she is vry ugly now n dun wan aniwan 2 c her. hahaz. oh well. i can understand tt kind of feelin. coz i look pretti gross in my hospital pyjamas. yahz. but i was quite lonely tt time coz no wan was there most of e time 2 accompany mi. but 4 her i guess it's different lahz. coz her parents r there most of e time. i m like how jealous. hmmz.
went 2 eat w my j1 saxes juniors. hahaz. hav quite a nice time. n i like 2 irritate jermyn. hahaz. so fun. n i bought an hp pouch tt is identical 2 e wan i lost. hahaz. so happie. n i realise tt i owe alot of pple birthdae presenz. oh well. i guess u all hav 2 continue waitin. hahaz.
dreaming awae at 6:10 PM