Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Friday, April 01, 2005
ok. pai sehz. samuel. i hav a vry high tendency 2 tok alot. hahaz. tis is further reflected in my blog. when i will describe everyting under e sun n try 2 make my life sound interestin. ok enough rubbish. hahaz. erhz. juz wanna sae tt blogspot is nt tt fantastic after all 2. juz 1 dae after i compliment it 4 being a betta server than ebloggy. it is down. at least 4 my account. i cant log in due 2 an unspecified error. oh well. excellent. shall nt compliment anitin frm now on. hmmz.
played handball 4 pe on wed. yahz. u didnt c wrongly. handball. w my 'on e rd 2 recovery' pinkie. hahaz. it's so funnie. intuitively i will juz raise my rite hand 2 block e ball or try 2 catch it. but once i raise my hand i immediately realise tt my rite pinkie is still vulnerable n 'breakable'. n i will put down my hand straightafter tt. sighz. cldnt catch e ball properly also. hahaz. invented new waes 2 catch a ball arhz. so funnie. n tryin 2 dribble w my rite hand is reallie a vry 'strange' experience. i sorta 4get how 2 place my fingers le. hmmz. but did hav a great time lahz. at least i start 2 use my rite hand more actively le.
took chem common test after pe. in e library. frm 11 plus 2 1 plus. wat can i sae. i tink i abit e 2pid lahz. hahaz. which is no big surprise. yahz. 99.99% will be scorin a 0 for e first essay qn. coz i drew sumtin totally diff. n i didnt do part b n c at all. excellent. oh well. tink i will juz be goin 4 remedial lahz. sighz. which is expected. hmmz.
went 4 band after tt. my first band prac after 2 excitin wk in e hospital n at home. hahaz. abit off lahz. actuallie didnt get 2 ask e doc whether i can start playin bassoon le. but since he expect mi 2 do alot of tings by e time i c him again. i assume shld be can liao lahz. summore a tempo is like 1wk plus awae. muz start practisin liao. or else i will self destruct. hmmz.
cldnt play alot coz pinkie hurt alot. when i m pressin e key on e instru. it will cause my pinkie 2 be straight. but as my pinkie is vry swollen n hav a vry big bruise now. it cannt be straightened. so there's tis strain there. n my pitch is like totally off. so sighz. cldnt play lahz. basically.
took maths test yesterdae. after sch. was a totally horrible experience. coz i nv study integration at all. yahz. so like didnt do e integration qn. n e first order differential eqns qns. abit off lahz. but still. i managed 2 pass w my power series n differentiation. hahaz. i m so gd rite. i totally agree. ok. abit off.
went 2 sectionals after tt. felt vry apologetic 2wards samuel n dawnie. 4 makin them wait 4 mi. sighz. i m abit e guilty. but was quite happie tt i m gettin sum of my feelin 4 e bassoon back. i mean nt tt i hate it. but i m gettin e feelin tt i used 2 experience when i play bassoon back then. n guess wat. i realise sumtin. my tuner/metronome which i always complaint tt it's spolit is actuallie nt spolit. but i connected e batteries wrongly since like dun noe how mani billion yrs ago. tis is e reason y i cldnt use it at all. i m totally amazed at my own stupidity. great manz.
will be takin physics 2molo or sundae. coz e paper is w mi. tink i m goin 2 fail it. but tt's no big surprise. n bio on tues. oh dear. my best subj. i betta score e best still. or else i will nv luv sch. hahaz. okok. i m gettin incoherant.
sumtimes juz wan sumwan 2 reallie listen. listen. n nt take it as a passin comment n make fun of it. or sumwan 2 reallie tok 2. but guess everywan is e same lahz. i cant help but feel tt wae. i m gettin tired. n i m gettin more silent. coz i dun bother 2 tell aniwan now.
dreaming awae at 2:40 PM
