Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Thursday, March 03, 2005
hmmz. notin happened much 2dae lahz. i mean reallie notin much. erhz. i m quite productive in e mornin 2dae. like finallie rite. hahaz. learnt 2 stop crappin w my j1s. hahaz. oopz. aniwae i finished 1 qn 4 bio 2dae in e mornin. n wrote like 5/6 of e page. hahaz. at least got sumtin 2 show 4 tutorial. though in e end when he went thru e answers. my answer abit diff frm his can. so gross. in e end i still hav 2 copy so much stuff.
went 4 physics prac make up after chem lect (last lesson) at 2 like tt. n i spent like billion yrs doin e physics prac. coz i dun noe wat 2 do. i mean like wat r e steps i can skip or whether i shld repeat e experiment 2 obtain more results. reallie lorz. then i finallie realise how hard 2 do stuff w incomplete hands rite. i keep on knockin into stuff w my pinkie while tryin 2 assemble e circuit. pain u noe. n my pain is cumin back. tt kind of pain tt is always present in my pinkie. it's back. i m debatin whether i shld take e pain killer again. hmmz. yahz. so mr benny lee was goin thru e tings 2 take note of 4 spa skill b next wk. n he was highlightin e mistakes tt pple made 4 past pracs. one of them is e prac i m makin up 4. so i was like finished w e expt b4 i heard him mention sumtin like muz label e table like tis n muz repeat expt 2 get more results n take e average if u r measuring time. like no wan tell mi? lucky 4 mi. my graph is quite nice lahz. but i seriously dun remember wat i shld write 4 e 'precautions taken to produce reliable results'. dun noe wat 2 write so i came up w sum reallie ridiculous stuff tt i myself dun understand wat i m writin. dun even need 2 ask whether he will understand or nt. sighz. overall i still missed 1 prac. which is e more difficult wan. hmmz. hope i will do well 4 spa. nvm. at least i m gettin extra time 4 physics spa next wk. n chem spa 2. hahaz. feel slightly betta. *smiles*
but then my cough is cumin back. n i hav runnin nose again. oh no. i m nt goin 2 fall sick again. nope. or else i cant go 4 band again on sat. tis is bad. vry bad. hmmz. n dawnie is so sick i feel so apologetic. sighz. yu kit also. sighz. my bro also. sighz. ok everywan is sick becoz of mi. sighz. well. e best i can do is hope tt u all get well soon. hahaz.
i realise tt when i try 2 push sum ting w my pinkie. my pinkie hurt alot. hmmz. how? i reallie muz wait till 4 wks later b4 i start usin my pinkie arhz? tt will be like a tempo alrdy. n i cant play! die. hmmz. aniwae 4 syf rite. i seriously dun tink i m goin 2 get it. coz no1. a band dun need 3 bassoons. a band need max 2. yahz. n both dawnie n samuel r betta than mi. so e last person 2 kick is mi lahz. n actuallie i dun mind. reallie. coz i harbour no hope tt i will get ani scholarship. since firstly. i dun hav ani s paper. 2ndly i dun hav ani leadership post. 3rdly my grades r nt fantastic at all. so yahz. 4get it. hahaz. n tokin abt academic stuff. attended e St George's Medical College tok 2dae. abit e pathetic. like there'r onli 6 j2 gurlz n 1 j2 guy w 4 'out of place' j1. yahz. erhz. they r here 2 promote tis new course called e 'Biomedical Science'. so it's a science degree lahz. 3 yrs. but if after u finish e final yr. n ur results is like e top dun noe how mani percents. u will be selected 2 go 4 interview. n if u pass ur interview. u can go into e 3rd yr of their med course lahz. so u finish med sch 1 yr later than others but u get both ur MBBS n ur degree in science. sound quite interesting. but e sch fees abit e ex. summore in london. so like will be usin british pounds. which is like S$3. abit ex arhz. aniwae e sch fees is 13 000 pounds per yr. n e estimated cost of livin in london is 7000 pounds per yr. so in total 20 000 pounds. which is equal 2 S$60 000 per yr. S$180 000 4 3 yrs. wow. tt's like so far awae frm mi. hahaz. but they stressed tt e cost of livin near e college is nt so ex coz e college is sum distance frm e centre of london. but then. i m vry poor. so yahz. hahaz. no hope 4 mi. hmmz. but still like 2 attend such tok. who noes 1 dae i might become richer n be able 2 go overseas 2 study? hahaz. so i m goin 4 e uk universities tok. aniwan interested? wanna go w mi? i m nt considerin us at all coz i didnt take SAT. yahz. so tt's out of pt. yahz. tokin abt tis. i muz go n do work. liao. hmmz. got quite alot. well. shall c wat i can finish n try 2 finish b4 i fall asleep.
dreaming awae at 9:50 PM
