Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Happie Birthdae Samuel! Happie Birthdae Lulu!
yahz as u can c. 2dae got 2 pple birthdae. one is my bassoon junior. one is my fren 4 6 yrs rite. same class 4 4 yrs in ny. hahaz. oh well. spent 4 hrs plus doin samuel's presenz which is a cute jigsaw showin 3 cute kittens. actuallie wanna buy a shirt 4 samuel. but e prob is no 1. i dun noe his size. no 2. i nv buy shirts 4 guys b4. coz e presenz i get 4 guys r like bks or wallet or i 4got wat le. hahaz. yahz. well. i didnt noe tt it looks feminine coz i thot samuel like cats. then yahz. summore e pic show 3 kittens. juz nice 4 e 3 of us. aniwae i abit no time management lahz. so slept at 2 in e mornin. n nv study ani ting related 2 gp rite. sighz. aniwae lulu if u eva read tis. i m goin 2 get ur birthdae presenz soon ok? n i will be finishin up e christmas presenz also. so tt e next meetin. i can give u n my darlin son who i owe e presenz also. aniwae log in 2 my friendster account juz now. n realise tt there r like more than 10 pple birthdae within e wk. n got 3 on e same dae. same dae as my sis's birthdae also. hmmz. such a coincidence rite?
aniwae gp is horrible n horrendous 2dae. i reallie mean tt. sighz. 2 tink tt i pon pe 4 e first time in my life 2 study gp n tis is how it turns out. but was quite tired lahz. so was dozin off when i was readin all e sample essays. yahz. feel quite terrible. aniwae. when i got e compo qns. i was like stunned lahz. was starin at e qns 4 10 mins nt noein wat 2 write. juz stare at e qns. all e qns abit e off lorz. in e end did e qn on television programmes. sumtin abt 'izzt true tt nowadae choices offered by e tv is nothin more than trivial rubbish'. n i anihow crap rite. at least compo i noe wat i m writin. 4 e compre. it's one of e worst compre i hav ever done. if i can pass. i m seriously vry surprised. i dun even noe wat i m writin 4 e application qn. seriously. oh well. i can juz join in 4 gp remedial i guess. sighz.
aniwae was quite happie on tues lahz. coz pe e class played badminton. well we didnt get ani indoor place 2 play but i did enjoy myself. hahaz. i miss badminton. even i cldnt hav a firm grip on e racket due 2 my pinkie. i did hav fun. n i like ms sim. i hope she stay as our pe teacher. hahaz. coz she vry nice. she let us decide wat we wanna 2 do. so nice rite.
realise tt i m gettin more n more incoherent. n tt when i feel stressed. i will juz tok nonsense. reallie nonsense tt doesnt apply 2 anitin. n i will juz start gigglin non stop. or juz stone thruout e lesson. hahaz. tt sound quite bad. but i guess e non stop gigglin is my wae 2 relieve stress. hmmz.
always hav e habit of readin others' blogs b4 writin my own blog. so tt i can express my own views. but e prob is my memory is so bad tt i 4got wat i read. sighz. erhz. juz wanna sae tt marlom's blog is still as descriptive as eva n as cheem as eva. yahz. i m goin 2 fail gp. dotz.
realise tt i reallie like my blog music. coz it's quite soothin. yet help mi 2 get into e reflective mode. well. i guess i m sumwan who like 2 analyse stuff. seriously. give mi sumwan i noe. i will luv 2 analyse them. provided i hav enough interaction w tt person. n i noe e person quite well lahz. well. 1 ting i realise frm all tis is tt diff pple hav diff wae of dealin w stuff. juz like when we come face 2 face w pressure or failure. e wae we react will be diff. all of us hav our own pathwae of tinkin. n it's becoz of tis tt we r diff. diff environment will help 2 shape e person we becom. maybe 1 dae i will learn more abt tis lahz. but oh well. i m nt plannin 2 becom a fortune teller. so let it be like tt now lahz.
brought bassoon home 2dae. will be pracin 2molo n on fridae. coz so long nv play le n i need 2 get used 2 my new reed or else vry weird. cant even play a scale properly. well i m nt goin 2 tink so much now. abt syf or a tempo. we will c how it goes now. coz maybe i m juz nt suitable after all.
need 2 finish kidney tutorial n first order differential eqn tutorial by 2dae. realise tt all e teachers abit e slave driver. hahaz. well wat else shld i expect. since i will be sittin 4 my As in less than 8 mths. i need e momentum. wat happen 2 e slightly more hardworkin mi in sec 4? hmmz.
dreaming awae at 9:47 PM