Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Saturday, March 12, 2005
Happie Birthdae Yii Ean! yeahz! my classmates 4 4 yrs! hahaz. luv u always. muackz!
ok. i m still alive n kickin. hahaz. i m tokkin rubbishz. aniwae. went 4 band 2dae. after missin in action 4 like 2 plus wks? yahz. tt's abit e long le. abit onli. hahaz. guess iris biao jie miss mi quite alot. cant sae tt 4 others though. hahaz. aniwae we played 'w heart n voice' 2dae. which in my opinion is a quite horrible song. e whole song i tink only yun yuan got e nice part. oh well. wat can i expect. aniwae. i sound quite bad lahz. who can blame mi. onli manage 2 play e bassoon w e new reed yesterdae nite at like 10 plus? lucky 4 mi no wan complaint lorz. or else...i dun wanna 2 tink abt e consequences. aniwae overslept lahz. hahaz. so in e end hav 2 drag my papa frm his bed 2 drive mi 2 sch. which he obviously complained abt lahz. sighz. band prac is ok. at least i played sumtin. yahz. juz tt i m totally lost in e 3rd piece tt we played. hahaz. which is like no surprise. considerin my supreme lousy sight readin skills. played w my injured pinkie. which is ok lahz. at least at e front. 2wards e end of e band prac. start 2 becom more n more painful. hope i didnt do further damage 2 it. hmmz.
went 2 e nus open house 2dae. horrible. seriously. in tis kind of weather. oh well. like wat i sae b4. i m tryin all my means nt 2 study in singapore. alot of pple will find mi weird. well. i juz wanna c e world. n medicine faculty is vry hard 2 get in in singapore. n singapore medical education is nt exactly tt gd. yahz. wanted 2 go 2 e ireland medicine tok wan. but decided nt 2 coz nt enough time. nvm. i can always go next yr. n i realise tt i shldnt be swayed by others. even if no wan wanna go w mi. i can always go myself. coz in e end i m considerin my own future.
tis wk hav nt been exactly great. sighz. 2 end of e sch term i hav physics spa skill b. skill b is e most easy skill out of all. n guess wat. i screw it up. seriously. i tink at most i will get 7. coz i 4got 2 write e unit 4 one of e quantity. excellent. n guess wat. i hav 10 mins 2 e end time while others r rushin 2 finish their graphs etc. all i did was 2 stare at e table n didnt c anitin missin rite. wow liao. i cant stand myself now. i hate tis manz. n 2 make matters worse. i screw up my skill c n d 4 physics last yr also. severely. even worse than tis. which ms tan told mi at most i will get like 4. i dun noe wat's wrong w mi. maybe physics is my jinx. but i do like e subj. juz tt i can nv score well. sighz.
i m gettin my momentum le. at least start 2 le. i finished my kidney tutorial when zy. marlom. ck. n hm didnt. hahaz. out of e 5 of us i was e onli wan who did it. feel so proud of myself. hahaz. finally. i show pple tt i can be hardworkin. n guess wat. tis tutorial was done at 4.30 am. sighz. ok maybe it's nt tt gd after all. but i do start studyin le. e last few daes were spent by teachers rushin 2 finish tutorials or revise w us e basic concepts tested 4 common test. wat's e pt? if u cant finish y did u bother 2 put it in e topics 2 be tested 4 common test? u r ruinin us lorz. sighz. i hav no time 2 study. no time. i need 2 finish revisin
physics n doin past yr common tests by
mondae. coz i hav remedial lesson w mr benny lee. i need 2 finish revisin
chemistry by
wednesdae coz ms tang is givin us another test. excellent. tis is juz so great. n i need at least 3 daes 2 study 4 bio. coz they r testin us on almost everyting we learned. which is like e whole syllabus except evolution n photosynthesis n respiration i tink. great tis is juz great. sighz. tt basically leave mi no time 4 maths. oh no. i cant fail maths! arhz.
aniwae on a happier note. i passed my maths test. hahaz. like finallie rite. got 17/25. hahaz. so happie. at least i can still do differentiation. but my integration is horrendous. shall nt tink abt it. hmmz. will be comin up w a 2 study list. which is alot lahz. hopefully will be able 2 finish. i muz pass my common tests!!! muz! muz! (positive thots at work)
aniwae i realise tt 15 march is a vry popular date. i hav 5 pple i noe havin e same birthdae. excellent. oh well. then 19 march is also quite popular. got 2 persons havin e same birthdae. hahaz. march will be a vry busy mth. hmmz.
realise tt sumtimes shld juz nt sae anitin. reallie. everyting will be so much simpler. oh well. i guess i m sumwan who like 2 tok. in nicer terms. express herself. hahaz. hope everyting will settle down n be ok again. sumtimes i wonder whether i m a pple person or a loner. surrounded by others. yet yearn 2 be alone. do u eva hav tt kind of feelin? hmmz.
e person who tok alot. may be e person who is hidin e most stuff. e person who dun tok at all. may be e person who is being e most obvious. do u agree? i agree. my reasons will remain w mi. coz tis is trade secret. hahaz. ok shall nt crap animore. coz my bro wanna use com.
mummy. i will miss u. all e best 4 ur bmt. jia you!
dreaming awae at 11:43 PM