Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
wow liao. wow liao. i feel so dotz lahz. wat e!#%!. i spent 1 hr in e hospital waitin 4 no reason. i m so 2pid. arhz. sighz. reached tan tock seng hospital at 1.53 pm. took e x rae n got e wet film at like 2.06 pm. juz nice 2 c e doc at 2.10 pm. but guess wat. i wait frm then till 3.25 pm b4 i get 2 c e doc. coz i wait n wait until 3.15 pm then cannt take it liao b4 i ask e counter staff 4 assistance. onli then was i informed tt i m supposed 2 tell e nurse inside e consultation rm tt i hav finished takin my x rae n is ready 2 c e doc. wat e!#*%! waste my time. wow liao. i wait until i fall asleep yet dun reallie dare 2 sleep coz i scared i miss my turn rite. 2pid lahz. make mi wait so long 4 no apparent reason. feel like stranglin sumwan rite at tt moment. aniwae my x rae show my pinkie in e same position lahz. so congrats 2 mi. n i mean in positive terms. hahaz. I DUN NEED 2 GO 4 OPERATION!!! yeahz! my life is beginnin 2 look slightly betta. hahaz. shld be able 2 start movin it abit 2 wks later when i follow up my appointment. yeahz!
but e doc i c 2dae...by e name of Dr Ernest Kwek. w his vry big n legible handwritin. sae i will take 6 wks after e fracture b4 i can use my pinkie again. n frm then till 3 mths later i muz take gd care of my pinkie still. b4 i m considered fully recovered rite. so i count n count. i abit like cannt play 4 a tempo le. syf abit e cannt make it liao rite. sighz. n i got myself an mc 4 excuse 4 napfa. but horz. e date he wrote like end at 13 april. dotz. i dun tink napfa is tt early. nvm. shall ask 4 another mc 2 wks later when i c Dr Matthew Cheng. hmmz. n i got my letter 4 e spa assessment. hahaz. will hav more time now! yeahz.
aniwae find tis vry funnie. durin class these few daes. we were teasin chong keat lahz. then e conversation evolved 2 e wife we tink he need. then ck n marlom started 2 heat up e discussion w marlom endin e conversation on a high note w tis statement...u dun need a wife. wat u need is a robot. (5 seconds pause) with batteries included. hahaz. find tis reallie funnie. mi n zhao yi reallie cldnt stop laughin. hahaz. ok i m being off. but who can blame it. life is reallie borin.
n horz i realise tt my germs r reallie vry powerful. till date i hav caused e infection of 5 pple. hahaz. all in worse state than i m now. hahaz. coz i m on e rd 2 recovery le. i m so happie rite. can finallie go 4 band on sat. yeahz. but i dun tink aniwan miss mi in e first place lahz. dawnie is e 5th person tt i passed e germs 2. so yahz. 2dae onli got samuel went 4 band. hahaz. poor samuel. lone survivor of e bassoon species. ok i m abit off le. hmmz. cannt remember wat izzt tt i wanna blog lehz. nvm lahz. will blog abt it when i remember. shall go n do my bio homeostasis tutorial n chem carboxylic acid tutorial. coz mr low will be checkin e tutorial. n ms tang wan us 2 hand in chem rite. sighz. she reallie abit e slave driver can. sighz. n 4 bio spa. in e end. i onli like studied 4 a total of 1 hr b4 i went in 2 take it rite. hahaz. confirmed died wan. but our class guessed e qn correctly lahz. so yahz. aniwae juz b4 e start of e spa. i stick out my pinkie n exclaimed. mr low. my finger like tt. how? then he actuallie sae tt i can hav extra time. hahaz. feel so dotz. hahaz. but in e end even wout e extra time i hav 20 mins 2 rot rite. n check answer. so yahz. i didnt use e extra time. but i will need it 4 chem spa next wk. coz how 2 do experiment properly. w like incomplete hands? maths test is ok lahz. overall. shld be able 2 pass. shld arhz. sighz. if i fail. i reallie tink tt mr tay will murder mi. n put mi on permanent remedial. coz tt test truthfully speakin. is easy. sighz.
dreaming awae at 9:09 PM