Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Monday, March 07, 2005
well. nothin much 2 sae. juz e usual. like i nv study again. sighz. was formatin my template 4 awhile n tryin 2 find suitable music 4 tis blog. spent like 2 hrs plus n came up w notin. basically all chinese mp3 websites r off. wow liao. sighz. nvm. aniwae came across tis song when i was searchin 4 e song tears in e movie windstruck. hahaz. tis song is nice ok. juz tt abit e sad. i always like tis song n sum other korean songs. tink tt their music vry nice. n they strike sumting deep inside mi. yahz. hmmz.
aniwae i reallie didnt study 4 chem spa skill c n d 2dae. well anihow do lahz. n 4got 2 write sum vry impt pts 4 skill d. well heck lahz. i m tired. seriously. sum more wed is gp common test le n fridae still hav physics skill b. like i hav enough of spa 4 tis term? irritatin. i cant wait 4 it 2 end which will be next term. sighz.
stayed back in sch 2 finish up my maths assignment. integration is horrendous. wow liao. my head practically ache frm tryin 2 solve e qns. they r like how hard? oh well. managed 2 finish it n hand in. met up w my dear amir mummy. hahaz. so happie 2 c him. mummy. juz wanna sae no matter wat happen. u r still my mummy. n i luv u lots. muackz! thanx 4 being here 4 mi 4 e past yr. though we onli noe each other durin e june chalet. hahaz. u r goin in on fridae le. erhz. dun die horz. hahaz. if daddy can survive. i m vry sure tt u can do so 2. coz u r supposedly fitter than daddy rite. coz u 'gave birth' 2 e 5 of us. take care mummy. ur youngest daughter will be here 4 u always. luv u always.
aniwae find tis quite off. sum of my classmates tink tt marlom n i r 2gather. i m seriously speechless. wow liao. tis continue 4 like 1 yr liao n they r still nt bored? like hello. marlom is juz my gd fren. juz like zhao yi. if like tt i will like hav how mani boyfrenz le? 4 goodness sake lahz. n i alrdy hav sumwan in mind liao. tokin abt tt. marlom can u pls pls pls to e power of infinity. help mi get e stuff i wan. pls. hahaz. i noe it's difficult on ur part 2. but seriously lahz. i wan 2 noe lorz. i wan 2 noe how's my shuai gor2 now. whether he did well 4 As or not. whether he is goin into ns soon. sighz. n how he look like durin their grad nite. i noe i m abit off. but then i m curious lahz. hahaz. sound abit e despo. which i m nt ok. hahaz. until now all i hav is juz a photograph of his back. sighz. so deprived. hahaz. ok marlom?
well i hav tonnes of hmwk waitin 4 mi 2 do. like 2 bio tutorials. nervous control n kidney. maths tutorial 14. n 2 study 4 gp. which i hav a high chance of failin. coz i can nv write fluently. unlike sum pple in my class. sighz. eng language is nv my forte if it's chinese. it will be like a total different scenario. wateva lahz.
was tokin on e train 2 my amir mummy n yee keow. was asked e qn wat i wanna study in future. well truthfully i dun noe. reallie. inside my mind there's tis voice tt tell mi i wanna be a doc. but on e other hand. alot of doubts of e poss of mi attainin tt r churnin in my mind 2. well. i guess i will juz c how it goes 4 mi. how will i do 4 my As will determine my path. if i cant be a doc. i guess i can always study other stuff. like hotel management. public relations. tourism. forensic science. n i m even considerin philosophy. but my eng is abit e off lahz. abit e hard 4 mi 2 argue stuff also. oh well. n e countries i wanna 2 study in r switzerland. ireland. australia n uk. hahaz. all abit e far frm singapore. but i guess in e end i wun go there lahz. coz i cant afford it wat. but who noes? maybe i will reallie strike lottery 1 dae? hahaz. n 2 tink tt i dun reallie support gamblin. hmmz. sighz. perhaps. maybe juz perhaps. my dream of cin e rest of e world will come true. perhaps.
dreaming awae at 10:20 PM
