Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Sunday, March 13, 2005
ok. shall abt wat happen 2dae. meet up w yee keow 2 go 2 e Aust Uni Open House at RELC buildin. which i seriously hav no idea where. yee keow noe it's sumwhere near Shangri la hotel which is near rgs. so off we go. took 2 buses 2 reach. n guess wat. RELC is at e other side of e hill frm Shangri la. so we climbed up e hill. realised our mistake. n climbed over e hill 2 e other side. n i inflict myself w 2 blisters. excellent. n inside. i met quite a few rjc j3. one of them is my ogl. wen kien. who exclaimed tt i m disgustin. coz i m like how kiasu. which i dun deny. coz in a sense i noe i m. pple who visit e open house r mostly e j3. but u noe wat. all e unis fair n stuff r within like these 2 daes. n spread all over e place. i m goin tis yr. so tt next yr i dun hav 2 go so much. u noe how tirin it is 2 go 2 such places? go n experience it urself next time.
so we reached there n r juz in time 4 a tok by e UNSW (Uni of New South Wales). e representative quite funny. but he did make e curriculum sound quite interestin. yahz. n he keep on jabbin e monash uni. hahaz. quite funnie lahz. oh well. grabbed a few info bklets n was on my wae 2 ps 2 eat. coz i haven eaten my lunch yet. so yahz. went 2 eat long john. n was like how pissed by tis 'gangster' lookin person. who keep on knockin on his table. as our tables r linked thru e partition our table is jumpin also. i almost feel like takin off my slipper n throwin it at him. i hav enough liao lorz. climbin up e hill in a supreme hot n humid dae. kana blisters. n my body rash actin up again is enough 4 aniwan i tell u. summore he is tis fat ugly lookin person. in my opinion. u wanna be a gd gangster. firstly u muz look like nicholes tse. in e gen x cops n wu yen zu. i 4got his eng name lahz. e wan acted in e new police story...e supreme bad guy. who i tink quite shuai wan. yahz. u wanna be gangster or pia kia. no 1 criteria. u muz be either vry gd lookin. or vry scary lookin. n nt plain ugly. no 2. if nt 4 e fact tt i dun wanna spoil my shoes n create a scene n ruin my image. i will seriously splash e drink in ur face. n his purpose 4 doin tt is 2 irritate e 2 of us enough 2 move 2 e adjacent table n let his frenz sit. wow liao. 2pid idiotic pig. go n die. u r e waste of e society (4get e more cheem word. oh well. my eng was nv gd). make sure i nv c u again. or else u will get it frm mi. n i mean it.
went 2 e uk fair after tt. which is at suntec. n guess wat. i tink half of singapore descend upon suntec 2dae lorz. wow liao. coz got like how mani billion pple millin ard. n e escalators r spoilt summore. in e end mi n yee keow hav 2 like dash across e rd. remind mi of e rds in malaysia. hahaz. lucky 4 us. most of e pple. abt 90% of them r goin 2 e IT show. phew. but we did hav a hard time tryin 2 go 2 e sixth floor exhibition hall. oh well.
went 2 get more info bklets. n noe more abt e cost of studyin there. basically e cheapest is still in singapore. n e most ex in uk. but if i m given a choice. i will go uk. becoz i m attracted 2 their environment. i wan 2 c e world!!! i wan 2 touch e snow. i wanna life in a place w scenery. or aniwhere near e ocean. or lake. or wateva. i wanna learn skiin. i wanna build a snowman. i wanna enjoy hot chocolate in a cold winter. sighz. even my mum is goin 2 aust durin e june hols i tink. wow liao. ok lorz. so now i m e most 'cave-like' person in e family. my papa went 2 canada 2 c his frenz b4. my bro went 2 taiwan. aust durin his ns stint. n he's goin 2 genting like soon? sighz. my sis went 2 thailand. taiwan. n hongkong. wat abt mi? e furthest i had been is sarawak. which is still in malaysia!!! sighz. n tt's in pri 6. 6 yrs ago. i feel like how big a failure. oh well.
went 2 c my sis after tt. yahz. n e first ting she sae 2 mi is tt i had put on weight. ok lorz. i noe lahz. i m like how fat. dun need u 2 remind mi. i m reminded abt it everydae when i wear my uniform. sighz. oh n i saw e photos of my niece. whose name is en xin. sound like e name of e korean main female lead in e show. autumn sumtin. e prelude 2 winter sonata. where i get my current blog song frm. hahaz. n horz. she got big ear lobes like mi. n her eyes r reallie big. juz like mi also. hahaz. but she is still so thin. sighz. but i guess she will grow 2 be as cute as i was in e past. i was reallie quite cute wan horz. juz tt sumting went wrong when i was growin up. hahaz.
ate one of e best pig trotters i had in my life. so nice. hahaz. oh well. feelin abit e bloated now. well so i m behind time in my study schedule. sighz. supposed 2 finish physics by 2dae. n guess wat. i like nv touch anitin? coz i was out e whole dae. hmmz.
estella's list of topics 2 be studied:
1. Physics
- Electric Fields
- Capacitance
- Current Electricity
- DC Circuits
- Electromagnetism
- Electromagnetic Induction
2. Chemistry
^Chemical Bonding 1 n 2 (which is like alot)
^Chemical Energetics
^Organic Chemistry
> Alkanes
> Alkenes
> Arenes
> Halogen Derivatives
> Hydroxyl Compounds
> Carbony Compounds
> Carboxylic Acids n Derivatives
> Nitrogent Compounds
3. Mathematics
~ Differentiation from Tutorial 11A to 11D
~ Power Series 1 n 2
~ Integration from Tutorial 13A to 13C
~ First order Differential Equations
4. Biology
* Cell Structure
* Biological Molecules
* Enzymes
* Transport in Plants
* Transport in Animals
* Nervous System
* Homeostasis and the Endocrine System
* Excretion (Kidney)
* Genetics
n how much hav i finished? nothin rite. sighz. hav remedial w mr benny lee on tues. chem test w ms tang on wed. band prac on wed n fri. sectionals on fri. sighz. wat kind of hols is tis? sighz. n my mum is naggin at mi again. saein tt i m nt hardworkin. n tt i watched alot of tv. which is nt exactly true. coz i onli watch e 7.30 pm show on channel u. called jie da huan xi. tt last 1 hr. nt alot wat. sighz. oh well. n she keep on harpin on e fact tt i dun hav s papers. unlike my bro n sis. who hav 1 n 2 respectively. but their grades r nt tt fantastic wat. my bro is qiang lahz. so he got distinction 4 his S. but my sis got 1 merit n 1 ungraded. but then she was severely ill when she was takin her A levels so cant reallie sae anitin there also. ok lahz. it's all my fault tt i nv study hard enough durin my j1 yr. but it's 2 late 2 cry over spilled milk. all i noe is as long as i get 3 A n 1 B minimum 4 my A levels. i can go aniwhere i wan. n i m goin 2 make it. (positive thots at work)
dreaming awae at 11:11 PM