Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Sunday, March 06, 2005
ok. shall try 2 recall wat happen tis few daes. hmmz. erhz. went 2 watch e mep concert on fridae nite. which is actuallie a last min decision. coz i didnt wan 2 go home n sharon was crappin w mi. so yahz. decided 2 juz stay behind 4 e concert lahz. n support dominic. hahaz. aniwae e grasshopper song is quite cute. hahaz. but i muz sae tt my 'nono' 4 concert is strings. as long as got strings. then if e piece is nt vry dramatic wan. i sure sleep wan. hahaz. dun noe lahz. juz cannt take it wan. hmmz.
n i had my first physics remedial w mr benny lee lahz. hahaz. abit e funnie. aniwae i realise tt he quite qiang. coz durin ns. he was alrdy an officer. though he was e lowest rank lahz. but tis is coz he nv signed on 2 continue as a regular. or else now he is alrdy captain or major. hahaz. tis show tt nt all rv guys cannt make it. hmmz.
reach home quite late lahz. on fridae nite. n was plannin 2 go 4 band. but guess wat. i suffered frm bouts of diarrhea thru e nite. i reallie mean thru e nite. didnt get 2 sleep much. n was like cldnt walk properly. coz legs were weak frm all my trips 2 e toilet. sighz. finally e medication start 2 take effect. so decided 2 stay at home n rest. at least e toilet is nearer 2 mi wat. band prac now all at ri. n it's a guys sch. so like i dun even noe where is e female toilet. wow liao. if reallie need 2 go. muz run like how long a dist. dun tink i will tahan lorz. can juz faint. hahaz. hmmz. so was at home till like 5 plus b4 i leave 2 go 2 city hall 2 meet e class 4 e play lahz. tt mrs toh wan us 2 watch. called 'adolf'. common sense will tell u wat it's all abt lahz.
was late. so meet up w marlom n yee keow. b4 goin 2 meet e class. realise tt i abit e overdressed. but abit no choice also. coz my jeans r in e wash. then cannt wear t shirts w tt pants. so yahz. hahaz. kevin sae i look vry retro. hmmz. remind mi of my sec 4 grad nite. which was a total disaster. in terms of fashion lahz. aniwae. i did get 2 wear tt black pants tt i bought 4 play on other occasion. thus makin mi feel betta tt i m nt wastin my money. hmmz.
e play is nt bad. hahaz. vry racist. so tt u understand tt inside everywan of us. while we r laughin at all e racist jokes. do we at times agree w wat he is saein? do we at times hope tt there will be a leader like hilter who will stand up n help us get rid of these 'problem causin' pple? quite interestin lehz. hmmz. aniwae ms tan came lahz. n after i told her i failed my physics again. she abit like 'oh no'. hahaz. aniwae she make a deal w mi. if i passed my physics common test. then she will come 4 band concert. a tempo. hahaz. then i can help dawnie sell off her $21 tix. hmmz. so i muz work hard durin e hols. n make sure tt i pass my physics test. yahz. muz pass. ok i m goin 2 try tt positive thots tings again. hmmz. hahaz.
didnt get 2 go 2 e career fair 2dae. oh well. nvm. i guess next yr will still hav. then next yr can go lahz. hmmz. i m abit e sianz lehz. sighz. 2molo got chem spa. so muz go n study le. sianz. i betta do well arhz. or else sure die. n i still haven finish my carboxylic acid tutorial. sighz. ok shall go do now.
aniwae juz wanna sae sorrie 2 samuel 4 causin all e probs. sorrie. sighz. but juz a piece of advice. if u reallie wanna compose poems. perhaps u shld hav a separate blog. a private wan. hahaz. then u can do wateva u wan. can curse all of us. n we wun noe. hahaz. n juz let a few pple noe. those who u trust explictly. then those who shld be readin e stuff u write. will be readin it. n nt others. tis seem 2 be a better alternative.
dreaming awae at 2:20 PM
