Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Friday, February 25, 2005
sighz. i m sick. reallie sick. physically vry ill. tis is e first time i remember feelin so horrible. even when i m typin tis now. i feel reallie ill. cldnt stop coughin. n my breathin is like how laboured n heavy. e doc sae i m on e verge of wheezin liao. eekz. it make mi sound like sum old woman. which obviously i m nt lahz. i m so young n pretti. ok. shall nt make aniwan else puke. but 2dae is reallie horrible. was breakin into cold sweat on my wae home. my skin feel clammy n cold. but i felt so hot n dry. sighz. cldnt reallie eat anitin coz was feelin vry giddy. sighz. hope i will be ok soon. i cant take tis much longer.
b4 i sae anitin else. juz wanna wish my newly born niece a HAPPIE BIRTHDAE! my sis gave birth 2 my little niece 2dae in e hospital. didnt get 2 c her but she is a premature baby. due date supposed 2 be like 2 May. but my sis condition abit e unstable. coz she got lupus n stuff. yahz. nvm. at least i got a niece 2 play w. her weight is onli 1.24 kg now. but i m confident tt soon she will be as heavy as other babies. hahaz. wonder how she look like. hmmz.
aniwae muz sae tt tis yr valentine's is e tirest valentine's i hav till now. coz was doin all e mittens 4 so mani pple. n i finished 3 bottles of fabric paint rite. hahaz. was actuallie plannin 2 write notes 4 everywan. but then realise tt i will nv be able 2 finish them so decided against it. hahaz. but was quite happie tt those who received e mittens like them. hahaz. btw. juz 4 ur info. if u r one of e mani who receive e mitten rite. tis mitten may also serve as ur birthdae presenz after all. coz i hav a supreme high tendency 2 4get others' birthdaes. hahaz. a special mention 2 samuel. my dear junior. hahaz. thanx samuel. coz u r e first person 2 give mi flower on valentine's dae. hahaz. now it's hangin upside down in my room. dryin up. hahaz. u r reallie a great junior. another special mention 2 e guys in my class. esp marlom n kevin out of e 8 lone survivors in my class. hahaz. thanx 4 e ballon. though it keep on flyin awae when i m walkin but muz sae it'a quite cute. hahaz. n marlom. stop tinkin abt e 4eva frenz bear. hahaz.
went 2 watch howl's moving castle w my band batchmates on chinese new yr dae 3. was swept awae manz by e movie. coz it's so pretti. hahaz. like e openin scene when howl 'escort' sophie up into e sky 2 escape evil beings. hahaz. tt part is like how nice. wow liao. hahaz. in e movie. he actuallie offered her e whole landscape as a presenz. sighz. i m so jealous. i wan a landscape as a presenz also. hahaz. tokkin rubbish rite. hahaz. but howl reallie abit e vain can. so nua. hahaz. vain until like tt. hahaz. but he's 2 pretti 4 mi. hmmz.
wonderin y is everywan's blog music mononoke. hmmz. hahaz. make mi miss play. quite alot. sighz. had a great time dressin up n tyin e silver cloth 2 e bassoons. make e 3 of us. samuel. dawnie n mi stand out lahz. hahaz. coz our instru is like how brown n nt silvery as compared 2 others. hahaz. e playin i cant reallie sae anitin coz i cldnt play quite alot of stuff. last min tryin 2 convert 2 another fingerin 4 e a flat key is quite horrible. sighz. nvm. at least i hav great memories of e dae. thanx 2 everywan who hav written mi e cute little cards. hahaz. n thanx 4 mentionin my little rite pinkie. thanx 2 all. luv u all vry much. muackz!
quite alot of pple's birthdae in aesapedeur hav passed. hmmz. need 2 get down 2 work soon. hahaz. once i feel betta. o level results r cumin out. sighz. reallie hope tt all is well n everywan will still be here. i will still be able 2 c everywan. cldnt imagine nt cin aniwan at all. sighz. but aesapedeur is reallie abit e dyin le. less n less pple r cumin. nvm. will juz hope 4 e best. may happiness be w us always.
dreaming awae at 9:50 PM
