Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Monday, February 28, 2005
ok i m typin tis entry w a 2tal of 8 fingers rite. coz my family doc juz bandaged my fourth finger 2 my pinkie rite. sighz...now i look like sum wan who is beginning 2 get mummified. so off...typin is a chore manz. sighz. wateva lahz.
aniwae 2dae is e release of o level results. hahaz. it seem so long ago when i was goin thru e same process. quite long ago. all i remember was tt i cried rite. becoz i didnt get e results i wanted. n i thot i was seriously goin 2 be kicked out of rj rite. arhz. but aniwae e results didnt deviate much frm my 'expected' results so i guess it's ok. yahz. n i get 2 stay in rj. so no complaints. at least nt much lahz. n i got e same results as my darlin son...same no of a1s n a2s. summore same subj gettin a1s n a2s. hahaz. we reallie mother n son manz. nvm. i will get e chance 2 experience tis next yr. which i m definitely nt lookin 4ward 2 now. coz i feel like a vry big failure now. a level is tis yr. n i m still strugglin 2 pass physics n score betta 4 chem n maths rite. so gross.
aniwae muz first declare sumting. 2 all my aesapedeurians...arhz i nv 4get u all arhz. 2 my ny juniors n band juniors i also nv 4get u all arhz. e reason y i nv msg u all e whole dae is becoz tis mornin i dropped my phone in my papa's car who refused 2 believe tt my phone is in his car. until like i continuously called my phone 3 times. n jay chou sang 2 my papa 3 times. hahaz. so funnie. i can picture my papa's irritated look. yahz. my papa work in kembangan. so of course he refused 2 drive thru all e traffic jams 2 give mi back my phone lahz. so i hav no choice but 2 restrain myself frm kidnappin sum phone frm sum pple 2 msg u all. arhz. n my lesson end at like 3 plus. so yahz. can onli go 2 kembangan n get e phone frm my papa so tt i can msg u all. i so nice rite. ok. dun puke. but i do tink abt u all alot ok. hahaz.
2 those who hav done well. gd job manz. go party n play w all ur might 4 2molo...hav a life lahz...dun keep on muggin...it's bad 4 health. but if u score betta than mi then i wan a treat. which is like alot of pple. hahaz.
2 those who didnt do as well as they wanna to or expected 2. dun tink abt it so much ok. i mean if u need help rite. esp w appeals dun be shy ok? can ask mi or ur ccals. seriously speakin if u wan 2 appeal. appeal thru cca. dun try general appeal. u r wasting ur time. n dun try tt method of internal appeal. like u go 2 arts 2 appeal into science. tt method dun work also. yahz. so be more conservative n take e conservative wae when come 2 appealin. yahz. but no matter wat i juz wanna sae dun give up hope. n o level is nt vry impt. coz it dun determine which university u goin or which course u studyin. yahz. a level is more impt. n when u stepped into society. most pple dun look at o level results. yahz. so u can fight again at a levels next yr ok? hahaz. though i dun tink u will be lookin 4ward 2 it...if u r...ur brain abit need 2 c doc liao...
my sinus is gettin betta. n my throat feel betta. hopefully can go back 2 band on sat le. yeahz. hahaz. n i juz failed my physics test rite. sighz. i m down 4 physics remedial again. but nvm. i hav confidence tt w mr benny lee. such a hardworkin n nice teacher. i will be able 2 score my A 4 physics at a levels. yesh. i can do it. (i can do it) to e power of infinity. positive thots. hmmz. i wonder does tis work? aiyahz nvm lahz. shall go study 4 my maths test 2molo. which i nv done a single tutorial 4. n my bio spa skill a. which i nv study at all. i seriously tink i m on e rd 2 self destruction. congrats 2 mi...
dreaming awae at 9:17 PM