Thursday, February 24, 2005
well. i finallie decided 2 start bloggin after missin in action 4 so long. nvm. was plannin 2 wait till ebloggy retrieve my archives n stuff n copyin them here but since their efficiency is so lousy. decided nt 2 wait animore le. alot of stuff had happened lahz in e past 2 mths. so shall c wat i can remember n write them down. hmmz.
first of all. muz tok abt my fractured/sprained/swollen rite pinkie. small finger. abit e blur can. n e doc blur w mi rite. both of us thot it's a sprain until my x rae on tues rite. last wk durin pe. i was reallie vry dotz lahz. first i was hit in e face by e ball. next i was jabbed by the ball rite. n my finger bend due 2 e impact n fractured itself. n i thot notin much rite. n continue 2 play. until i was wreacked a few more times. n e pain is so bad tt i start 2 cry. hahaz. muz hav given quite a few pple e shock of their lives manz. tis happened on wed. 16 feb. 2 daes b4 play. rj concert w rgs n ri. dotz. summore my first concert lahz. wow liao.
went 2 c e doc. n she made mi wear tis splint lahz. which i took off everydae while showerin. went 4 rehearsal on fridae. e dae of performance. tried 2 play e first 2 songs. n pressed e key of bassoon. e pain is so intense. i was quite surprised at my ability of tolerance tt i didnt cry. becoz of tis. e bruises on my finger spread 2 e next finger n my palm. sighz. feel vry dotz lahz. y everyting also muz like tt. first concert ended up cannt play alot of stuff. n i finallie realise e importance of all 10 fingers 2 a woodwind player. sighz. but nvm i did enjoy myself 2 a large extent. except 4 e pain though i hav taken my painkiller. but muz sae i luv my juniors alot n of course my batchmates. hahaz.
when my pain killers r almost finished on tues. went 2 c doc again. summore my sinus is back in action. hav a vry bad sore throat n can feel my nose gettin blocked. so i got my self sum reallie strong antibiotics. when i tell e doc tt i cldnt bend my finger even after like so long. she tink tt it's nt juz a mere sprain n send mi off 4 an x rae. which is quite a fun experience 4 mi. hahaz. coz i nv take x rae b4. hahaz. felt quite excited. ok lahz. i m abit e off. but u dun tis type of tings so often wat. yahz. so e report was out. n when i saw e word fracture in report. my heart abit e stop beatin 4 a few seconds. coz tis mean my pinkie is goin 2 take supreme long 2 heal. n my bassoon will nt be able 2 be by my side 4 quite sum time. my doc refer mi 2 c e orthopedic surgeons at tan tock seng hospital e next dae. i was wonderin will i need 2 go 4 operation...
my first appointment was w Prof Low. who is obviously quite a big shot surgeon. he look at my hand. look at my x rae. ask mi a few qn. then he juz sae. 'you need an operation'. i abit e stunned rite. he explained tis is becoz mine is a clean break. summore it's at e joint there. so in order 2 prevent it frm movin animore n worsenin my current condition. he will recommend surgery 2 fix e bone n stop it frm movin. n let it start 2 heal. i muz hav tt kind of horrified expression on my face. coz he look at mi n sae. 'y dun i refer u 2 a hand specialist n c wat he sae?' so off i went. 2 c another doc rite. tis time round. a consultant. Dr Matthew Cheng. e same procedures repeated itself n i answered sum qns. he look at mi n told mi tt i hav 2 options.
option 1: undergo operation n let him put 2 screws into my pinkie. operation will be done within 1 wk n it will be dae surgery. so i can go home on e dae itself. i will hav 2 bear w e pain n e stitches 4 1 wk plus. after tt i might be able 2 start movin my pinkie. overall full recovery will take like 1 mths plus. n e operation cost $400.
option 2: even though i fractured my pinkie 1 wk ago. my x rae which was taken a dae ago. showed e bone 2 be in pretti gd position. in other words. it haven moved much. so e splint which i hav been wearin 4 so long. might be quite an alrite treatment after all. so i can continue wearin tis splint non stop 4 1 more wk n after tt we will take an x rae again. if e bone still haven moved. i m on e road 2 recovery. 3 wks later i most prob can start movin my finger again.
conclusion: i chose option 2. w alot of reasons. firstly. both options take ard e same time though e surgery will most probably be faster. but then i hav a lot of misgivin on surgeons after my attachment at national neuroscience institute where i saw sum reallie 'off' surgeons doin surgery. therefore i tell myself tt i will try nt 2 place myself in e place of a patient. 2ndly. e operation cost money. summore i m nt rich. i m vry broke. so obviously i will wanna take e cheap wae out rite. 3rdly. i m gettin used 2 doin quite a few tings w my left hand onli. so i guess i can bear w e inconvenience of e splint a little longer wout much complaint. yahz. so decided i will nt be adventureous.
but there is a catch. next wk if i went back n e x rae showed tt my condition hav worsen. e bone had moved. i hav no sae but 2 be sent into e operatin theatre. which i desperately pray tt it wun happen. hahaz. it betta dun happen. til my finger recover i guess i juz cant sae e pledge properly n use rite hand rule 4 physics. hahaz.
well so far e most excitin ting n happenin stuff hav being my pinkie. typin w a heavily bandaged pinkie is quite weird. but well. i tink i will get used 2 it 2. didnt go 2 sch 2dae. coz was havin a splittin headache due 2 sinus. my nose is blocked until i need 2 use my mouth 2 breathe. n my breathin is quite heavy n difficult. e non stop cough n e fact tt i cant form 1 complete sentence wout coughin w heavy traces of phlegm is vry bad. decided nt 2 torture myself in sch n stayed at home. went 2 c e doc n was given sum more medication. sighz. my medical fee 4 tis mth is like a supreme big bomb. aniwae as my condition is vry bad. n e strong antibiotic is like nt helpin matters much. she wanna mi 2 cough my phlegm in2 tis bottle n send 4 test. i was like tryin 2 cough it out in e clinic. n it was quite gross. but unfortunately i m sumwan who dun noe how 2 do such stuff so yahz. i cough until my tears rolled down n my nose start 2 run. n i feel like pukin. but notin cum out. sighz. 4get it manz. i m reallie a failure. sighz. i hate sinus. last yr i suffered so long becoz of it. n tis yr it's back again. irritatin!!!
sighz. need 2 get sum work done. esp maths coz next wk got lecture test. tokkin abt lecture test. i tink i juz failed my physics lecture test. but dun tink aniwan will be surprised. since i always fail physics. sighz. next wk there is spa 2. n class test 4 chem. i tink i m goin 2 die soon. wateva lahz. feel vry terrible now. sighz. hope i wun die. ok. i m being incoherrent now. shall stop now b4 i feel worse.
