Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Sunday, October 17, 2004
well. i realise how long i nv cum online le. a total of 5 daes. i m out of touch w alot of stuff. nvm. yahz. aniwae tt zhai sheng yuan show's endin vry nua. seriously cannt make it. but overall e whole show is nice. yahz.
13 October
went 2 sch in e mornin. lagged my bassoon along w mi. finish my physics spa skill a. hand in 2 ms tan. nua w ms tan 4 awhile. then practise bassoon. then went 2 zy's house. n nua summore. hahaz. i start 2 camp at zy's house liao. hahaz.
14 October
went 2 sch 2 practise bassoon again. practise n practise but still nt much improvement. nua. then hav e farewell assembly rehearsal. n play more bassoon. carry e instruments up 2 e hall. yahz. then heard abt e fact tt band is nt gettin a band rm in e new rjc campus becoz co is takin e band rm. becoz strings is takin co rm. big play. wow liao. coz e ccas r combinin. ri n rjc strings r combinin. ri n rjc co r combinin. but band is not. so we dun hav a band rm. we hav 2 share w ri. while e instru put in an empty classrm. nua. tis is like ill treatin us? ask e admin 2 nua lahz. wow liao.
15 October
farewell assembly. arhz. reach sch 2 practise bassoon again can. coz i m vry traumatised by my lousy playin. dotz. force marlom 2 cum early 2 help mi open e band rm. nua. yahz. n practise lahz. yahz. then went 4 e rehearsal. n play. n marlom n my daddy gabriel can actuallie hear mi. i m like how nua lahz. dotz. didnt manage 2 go 4 e og meetin. coz of miscommunication lahz. quite sad lahz. sighz. yahz. then farewell assembly start lahz. e most nua wan is e wan when e whole saxes went on stage 2 play if we hold on 2gather. n i saw ms poon wearin a pink blosue w skirt n heels. i tell u. mi n jeanette almost fainted. we stared at each other after tt. hahaz.
n chong keat. wow liao. i m on e road 2 4get shuai ge liao. n u drop e bomb on mi can. nua. hahaz. now i hav more of his back photos n back video can. nua. i dun noe wat 2 sae. can i hav a photo of his face? hahaz. n i keep on cing him in orange shirt now. dotz.
play college song at e end. pple r playin w sparklers lahz. i wan 2 play also. but then. sighz. cannt lahz. sianz. will miss daddy n mummy vry much. sighz. jia you 4 e As levels can. luv u all always.
16 October
came 2 sch 4 ohana stuff lahz. rjc open house. nua. i feel so tired lahz. sighz. haven even play at all. sianz. was carryin newater bottles ard. packin sum stuff into e goodies bag. n paintin e goodies bag. my back is goin 2 break liao lahz. it has been how long since i dance liao dance liao lahz. cannt tahan manz. e non stop bendin of e back. dotz. after tt went 2 practise abit of bassoon. sighz. dun tink i will be performin 4 e open house lahz. i cant make it lehz. nua.
as 4 2dae. i m campin at zy's house. suppose 2 be doin pw lahz. but like i m online. hahaz. okok. muz go n do now. got alot of stuff 2 do. dotz.
dreaming awae at 12:08 PM