Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
wat can i sae? look at e title. yahz. aniwae tis is e first time i so long nv blog. let mi c. it's a total of 7 daes. hahaz. i sorta of 4gotten wat happened on each dae lahz. yahz. coz my memory is like how bad? hahaz.
20 October
well. like usual. i went 2 pia pw lahz. every moment of my life now is associated w pw. yahz. n i n jon went 2 c jai singh lahz. coz we lost our whole stack of proposals. yahz. including e drafts n e work 2wards improvements stuff. yahz. n sad 2 sae. i was e wan kana e scolding lahz. yahz. e wan who was scolded. n nt e whole grp. wat can i sae. she juz dun like mi lahz. wateva. tis ting is goin 2 end soon. hopefully b4 my patience is stretched 2 noting. yahz.hav pe after so long. play handball lahz. hahaz. qutie fun lahz. but i feel so exhausted after a little while. my physical state is like how bad. dotz. hahaz.
21 October
erhz. 2dae is e preparation dae 4 ohana lahz. rjc open house. yahz. which came frm e film lilo n stitch lahz. yahz. aniwae spent e morning doin pw b4 going 4 e befrienders meeting. yahz. after e befriender meetin went 2 meet up w chong keat. marlom n yi jing. yahz. hav dinner. then we walked 2 chong keat's house. i was piain pw n watchin e movie 13 going 30 at e same time. hahaz. so of course i wasnt vry productive lahz. aniwae i lost my diskette lahz. reallie lost so i cldnt do my evaluation. dotz. tis is like how bad. i hav juz killed myself.
22 October
ohana dae. yahz. rjc open house. was so tired lahz. aniwae. 2dae suppose 2 hand in gpf n our file is like how incomplete. luckily i found my diskette lahz. hahaz. it's w hui yun. yahz. long story. aniwae i was wearing a skirt. hahaz. ok nt funnie. yahz. n i saw my juniors. hahaz. so long nv c le. yahz. but onli 3 of them. abit e sad arhz. sighz. y no wan like rj wan lehz. dotz. aniwae. hav alot of fun w them. but my throat hurts lahz. at e end of everyting. was so tired lahz. hand in gpf lahz. i sorta of dun care le. yahz. i m having attitude probs. but heck lahz. was doin alot of 2pid tings lahz w amir mummy. gabriel daddy. tze hui sis. darlin xinyi. marlom khar n yee ke-ow. so funnie. actuallie i like e ohana dance quite alot. but poor nick mai. he abit e 2 tall lahz. hahaz. like 23 cm taller than mi. dotz. yahz. n my flower fall off when i was dancing e first dance. dotz. so nua. yahz. but quite enjoy open house lahzhav dinner w amir mummy. gabriel daddy. n bro yee kiat at nydc. erhz. e food nt bad lahz. yahz. hahaz. chanced upon sum of e band guys there 2. who r on a guys' outin. yahz. miss my daddy n mummy vry much. hahaz. n muz sae tt we r reallie crazy tt dae. hahaz.
23 October
hav band prac. erhz. yahz. was self practising lahz. yahz. n i spoilt 2 bassoons. yahz. i dun noe wat 2 sae. yahz. e bassoon tt i was always using. spoilt liao. coz one of e key's padding came off. yahz. then e other wan is when bro yee kiat was helpin mi 2 disassemble. turn 2 much n e key was kana bent. yahz. so basically. i cant play liao lahz. since both bassoons spoilt. dotz. i m e best manz. oh yahz. there will be a bassoonist cumin in next yr. frm acs(i). yahz. i dun noe i shld be happie or nt. yahz. coz sumwan cumin in. then i can learn frm tt person wat. but then on e other hand. i m quite used 2 being e onli bassoonist liao. so. yahz. dun noe lahz. c first lorz. sighz. i wan my bassoon 2 be well. sighz. went 4 my first decor meeting. yahz coz e first meetin i was absent frm sch. dotz. hav a lot of fun lahz. was quite funnie. n i m in e same comm as e band pple. hahaz. iris biao jie. hui yan uncle. n vicky. hahaz. we r in e o pack comm. i m also in e costumes. so yahz. tis promises 2 be fun. dotz.
24 October
went 2 win2 house. actuallie we r suppose 2 go out wan lahz. but she cldnt find her umbrella. yahz. it was rainin then. so i ended up at her house. n we watched jap anime. vry funnie. hahaz. quite a nice show. hmmz. how i wish i can finish e show. went 4 dinner later n went 2 e library after tt 2 borrow 2 bks. yahz. was designin e logo 4 e orientation but then yahz. i m brain dead lahz. all my creative juices hav dried up. so yahz. noting productive came out. dotz.
25 October
erhz survive thru e dae lahz. my throat is like killin mi. dotz. hav pw again. yahz. she went thru a lot of stuff. n basically we hav 2 redo our whole group project file (gpf) lahz. dotz. wow liao. sighz. went 2 gorgeous's house 2 do e oral presentation slides. n her com broke down. yahz. basically died on us lahz. dotz. went 2 c doc after tt. becoz i reallie feel vry sick. yahz. n she hav 2 medical students observing her lahz. yahz. feel quite nua. dotz. so didnt crap w her as much as i used 2 lahz. toking abt tt. she sae i m well enough 2 go 4 e indonesia cip trip. but. i haven ask my daddy yet. yahz. n frm past experiences. i most prob cant go. sighz. how?
26 Octoberyahz.
so now i m at home. preparin 2 redo almost everyting 4 pw. yahz. hopefully 2dae will be a productive dae. yahz. hopefully. sighz. my eyes r swollen. n i dun noe y. sighz.
dreaming awae at 5:19 PM