Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
wahhaha. yeekeow's typing this as a guest. this is stupid. we are camping at marlom's house and i don't know what i'm here for. i'm here for something. but what is that thing? i can't remember. this is bloody stupid. haiz. life rocks man. WHAT AM I HERE FOR?? shit. my memory is failing. SHIT. SHIT.
ok i m back in action. yahz. e past 3 daes hav been rubbish lahz. wow liao. keep on doing pw. dotz. it's so rubbishz. pls. can we juz scrape it? dotz.
17 October
yahz. was doin pw at zy's house lahz. feel so guilty lahz. coz his other coms all died lahz so onli left 1 com n i m fightin w him 2 use it. dotz. yahz. aniwae i manage 2 complete sum stuff b4 i left his house 2 go orchard n meet my daddy gabriel. tze hui twin sis. n marlom 4 dinner at e hard rock cafe. yahz. n marlom treat mi lahz. yahz. he paid more than half of the meal 4 mi. as a way 2 thanx mi 4 becumin a fossil when he was spending 3 hrs in e reds academy trimmin his hair. yahz. hahaz. aniwae. marlom khar. u still owe mi my BIRTHDAE PRESENT. pls be more initiative. yahz. hahaz. n my daddy almost hav an affair w sumwan. sumwan by e name of amanda. quite pretti i muz sae. n quite tall also. hahaz. yahz. n e pork ribs n chicken is nice. but e prob is i dun noe how 2 cut. yahz. so spent alot of time n energy tryin 2 eat e meal. abit e off lahz. hahaz. n tokin abt tt. daddy u owe mi a favour 2. 4 e opportunity 2 interact w amanda. hahaz. hav a reallie great dinner. it will be betta if pw wasnt at e back of my mind. naggin at mi.
18 October
erhz. 2dae sch start. i m so tired lahz. reach home so late. wanna pon sch lahz. sch is nua. hav pw. n feel like dyin. yahz. realise tt we hav alot of tings 2 rush. dotz. yahz. stayed back in sch 2 do pw lahz. manage 2 complete more mins n edit sum part of wu di's transcription of e interview. went 2 marlom's house 2 camp until 9 plus 2 finish editin. wat can i sae. i almost vomit blood lahz. wow liao. so nua. i started 2 feel betta abt my command of english. nua. n e most nua ting is when i went 2 marlom's house. i take 970. n when i was alightin. i was caught between e door. my arm is like squashed n e whole bus was lookin at mi. 2pid bus uncle. wow liao. he almost drive off w mi in tt position. then when i alighted. e pple at e bus stop. ard 20 plus of them were starin at mi. esp one acjc guy who was sitting in front of e door at e bus stop. i feel so no face. nua. when i walked off. they were still starin at mi. wow liao. dotz. then when i went home at 9 plus. i waited 4 tt horrible 961 4 ard 25 mins lahz. n e bus is like how packed. then tt uncle braked n i knocked into a guy. my bag banged against his chest. n he is quite a gd lookin guy u noe. i feel so nua. yahz. sighz. my reputation is in tatters. dotz.
2dae
erhz. was vry nua lahz. daddy fetch mi 2 sch. hahaz. coz i was laggin basson along. hahaz. yahz. got back all my results by 2dae lahz. xcept gp. yahz. was xcuse at 12 plus 4 rehearsal lahz. but then i went 2 do pw lahz. was transcriptin my interview w mr oura. yahz. then i realise tt i dun hav my diskette w mi. thanx goodness it's in marlom's com. thanx goodness. or else i hav juz declared a death sentence 4 my grp. phew. jon jia you. hahaz. u can do it. our report is in ur hands. hahaz. okok. yahz
erhz. yahz. my promos results r gross lahz. wat can i sae. i tink tt i m like behind alot of pple lahz. e grades i m gettin now shld be e grades i would get 4 common test earlier in e yr. yahz. so tt now i will score like how well. but i muz sae got study reallie make a diff. yahz. coz out of e 4 subj. i studied e most 4 bio. my grades r B (bio). D (chem). D (maths) n E (physics). i m hopin 2 jump grade 4 physics lahz. so tt i can get an ice cream frm ms tan. feel so disappointed lahz. esp 4 chem n physics. yahz. nvm. i shall work harder. yahz. i m goin 2 mug durin e hols when i go 2 KL 2 visit my godmother. yahz. feel so tired lahz. pw is reallie vry drainin. sighz. luckily it's goin 2 be over soon. yeshz. coz my patience is runnin out w sumwan. yahz. if u noe. u noe. i wanna go kboz 2 sing. i wanna. i wanna. yeshz.
dreaming awae at 8:10 PM