Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Friday, October 08, 2004
i m severely traumatised. supreme traumatised. dotz. n i m in sch now. browing thru e sif website 2 look 4 overseas cip trip 2 do. yahz. since my results r 2 lousy 2 be taken into consideration 4 e cip trip organised by my dear rjc. so yahz. i m nt goin 2 sit back n wait 4 e chance 2 land in my lap. dotz. but i realise tt there's nt much options left. yahz. sighz. aniwae muz tok abt yesterdae.
7 October
2dae is physics paper. my worst subj. n after e paper. i tink it's still e worst. sighz. truthfully speakin i tink i may nt get e treat frm ms tan after all. dotz. i m gone liao lahz. sighz. i feel so guilty lahz. like ms tan put in so much time n effort 2 coach my physics n i still did so badly. i let her down. sobz. i m finished manz. n guess wat. i still watch tv in e evenin. n i nv study 4 maths. i m reallie a slacker. i tink i deserve it. e bad results. y cant i learn frm my mistakes. failure. dotz.
as usual e onli consolation 4 mi is tt i c my shuai ge. n i almost knocked into him. yahz. coz i was turnin a corner lahz. dotz. sighz. nvm. feel vry happie 2 c him. hahaz.
but then my happiness is like squashed by sumwan lahz. sumwan who told his senior my name. so yahz. so now i noe my shuai ge's name n he most prob will noe my name. nua. i feel like diggin a hole n hidin in it. i m severely traumatised. dotz.
8 October
woke up at 4 plus 2 study lahz. study on e bus. study on e train. yahz. n tt 2pid pasir ris bound train is like how dotz lahz. e train i was on was pullin into e jurong east station. then tt train was pullin out lahz. wow liao. wait 4 1 more min will die izzt. make mi squeeze w so mani pple in e next train. i m nt thin lahz. dotz. but nvm i still manage 2 c my shuai ge. hahaz. quite happie. hahaz. ok i m off.
maths 2dae is like how rubbishz. i didnt even finish studyin e notes dun even need 2 sae practise e qns n i went in 4 e exam. all i can sae tis is even worse than common test. i can juz sae tt my maths may replace my physics 2 be e worst subj in my life. feel so guilty lahz. dotz. i wan 2 pass so desperately. but i tink i m nt goin 2 make it. how? i dun wan 2 be retained. i m sorrie mr tay. sighz. hav a chem test 2molo lahz. mock promos w ms tang. sighz. i m left w e last chance. chemistry. i destroyed my chance 2 score well at bio. hopefully i will do alot betta 4 chem. frm my common test result of an O 2 an A or B. yesh. muz mug le! n i m still traumatised. dotz.
dreaming awae at 7:03 PM