Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Friday, September 03, 2004
well erhz. yesterdae is reallie vry 2pid lahz. i pass my dae quite peacefully. if u xclude kana check maths complex no tutorial n mr nah no lecture notes bio lecture. was piain physics prac skill c n d n a at e same time. phew. finallie manage 2 finish w yii ean's help of course. hahaz. after prac went ard nuain lahz. then went 4 physics remedial. n sneak out halfway 2 go n look 4 my shuai ge. w marlom n yee ke-ow. i cant believe tt i m actuallie tis crazy. oh my goodness. wat hav happen 2 mi? sighz.
n we were like gone 4 more than half an hour. then ms tan was like where r mi n marlom. n she went ard e sch lookin 4 us. oh my goodness. i feel so bad lahz. coz she gave us chocs n sweets earlier in e dae. she also treat those of us who help us blow balloon e black forest ice cream. i luv her so much. she is reallie vry vry nice. then guess wat. i m 2tally grossed out by marlom. first of all is e way he eat ice cream. it's like he didnt help ms tan n he ate ard 1/3 to 1/2 of e ice cream? n next is e way he treat ms tan's rabbit. oh my goodness. i m so thanxful tt i did nt hav nitemares yesterdae.
aniwae. tok abt my shuai ge. frm wat marlom observed. he will jog ard 5.40 to 6 plus on thurs n fridae. so we were like goin 2 c him n confirm tt e guy marlom saw is reallie my shuai ge. n it's we walk ard e side gate. 2wards e main gate we still didnt spot him. but we did spot sumwan. mr hodge. my principal. n he is so nice lorz. he actuallie ask whether e 3 of us need a lift 2 aniwhere. wow. i luv him manz. hahaz. oh yahz. then after tt rite. president yuen called mi. 2 tell mi tt he juz spotted my shuai ge near e carpark. n marlom started runnin like as though sum dog is chasin him like tt. dotz. n i muscle cramp can. sighz. in e end we still cldnt find him lahz. so decided 2 go back 2 sch. n juz as we were nearin e sch. we saw him. w his. in my opinion. not vry small dog. but vry cute. hahaz. i feel so embarassed. reallie. sighz. i cant believe i m doin all tis. sighz. then after went back 2 physics remedial. n cook up sum lame xcuse 4 ms tan 4 missin e remedial. sighz. then yee ke-ow. marlom. hui yun n my nanny went 2 eat kfc at westmall. n i went home alone lahz. was suppose 2 pia chem ionic equilibrum tutorial. but reallie vry xhausted. so fall asleep n wake up at 3 plus 2 pia awhile until 4 plus. n go back 2 sleep until 5.15. dotz.
as 4 2dae. went 2 sch w yee ke-ow. n saw my shuai ge. actuallie cldnt reallie c him lahz. he is like. kana blocked by e van. hahaz. n was piain e chem tutorial lahz. went 4 maths tutorial n get back my maths test paper. i fail lahz. by like 1 mark. i m so pek chey. wow liao. then mrs kuan said sumtin which i tink reallie apply 2 mi. when we ask those who dun do well y they dun do well. they sae it's becoz they nv study. n tt if they study. they will definitely do betta. but y izzt tt they nv put e 'if' into use. maybe it's becoz they r afraid tt if they reallie put in e effort 2 study. n yet still get back e same results. tis show tt they hav fail. reallie fail. i 2tally agree tt i m like tt. sighz.
then get back chem test lahz. i fail by 1/2 mark. u noe how frustrated it is. sighz. good luck 2 mi 4 promos. at e rate i m goin. i m goin 2 be retained. but overall my class did quite badly 4 e test lahz. n ms tang was vry disappointed lahz. coz we supposedly 2 be vry strong in chem. at least e rest of my class xcludin mi. chem mock spa was so nua lorz. ms tang let us discuss while we r writin our skill a. hahaz. so nice. went 2 collect all e worksheet n stuff. n realise tt e class fund is like how broke. n i hav 2 pay like 30 dollars first. luckily now is e beginnin of e mth or else. i cant save e class too. got back gp compo n compre. i like juz pass both again. i dun noe wat 2 sae lahz. reallie vry irritated w myself. y cant i juz start muggin. start studyin. i m like how far frm my goals n i like nv do anitin 2 correct tis. i m kinda disgusted w myself. reallie disgusted. sighz.
pe is quite ok lahz. play an alternative version of basketball. then went 2 play badminton w ms tan. hahaz. n realise tt she vry hiong arhz when playin. wow liao. vry powerful. hahaz. n i was nua lahz. 2 long nv play. then cannt like wreck e ball at all. so diu lian. hahaz. n i was like laughin non stop. which doesnt help e situation lahz. then chong keat n zhaoyi is like fightin lahz. hahaz. vry fun reallie. oh yahz. yi jing. wang yang. wei jie. yingmeiwong. jasmine. n another gurl also got play. reallie vry fun. 2 bad tt marlom went 2 c e doc 4 his back or else he can join us 2. n zhao yi play until a racket is like 2tally bend? hahaz. n i realise tt ms tan is e same age as my sis. hmmz. oh yahz. after ms tan left. i continued 2 play w zhaoyi n weijie. n wei jie saw my shuai ge runnin w his dog. oh my goodness. by e time i turn ard. i onli c his back. which is quite muscular. hahaz.
on e way home w weijie. on e train. saw tis china man hurlin insults at tis man A lahz who was juz coughin abit. abit onli ok. not like mi or yee ke-ow when we were at our worst. he was saein sumtin like tis in mandrain: u dun hav manners izzt. u reallie is not fit 2 be a pig or a dog.
then tis other man B was like tryin 2 help e coughin guy. n he rebuted n sae tt tt guy is juz coughin wat. u dun need 2 hurl insults at him wat. then tis china guy rebuted n sae tt wat's e prob w u to B. wow liao. mi n weijie cant stand tt china man lahz. he is like how obese. n his is like wearin his pants above his waist. if he hav one. n his glasses is like twice my size. n he is like baldin. gross. hello. cum on lahz. u tink u who. scare then dun take train lahz. wow liao. mi n wei jie were like debatin whether 2 scold him in eng. but decided against him. n started critisin his sense of fashion. when we reach woodlands. we purposely squeeze him in between us. reallie feel like kickin his ass lorz. n i smiled at B. great job manz. hahaz.
feel so tired now. no one is at home. goin 2 cook moi dinner le. n try 2 4get my shuai ge. coz it's reallie 2 much le. sighz.
did u ever realise tt when u wish 4 sumtin 2 happen it nv happen. but when u dun wan tt tin 2 happen it will happen. e same ting apply 2 pple. i wonder. y is it so?
dreaming awae at 8:39 PM
