Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
As you can c. i hav severely limited vocab. but nvm. hmmz. shld tok abt e channel u variety show. e seach 4 e idol wan. muz sae i m quite entertained lahz. hahaz. n i tink e show is gd. hmmz. hope 2 c it next yr. hahaz. but i still tink one of e gurlz shld hav won. nvm.
was a supreme slacker lahz. slack so much. n watch so much television tt i dun noe wat 2 sae. hahaz. aniwae. e most productive dae thruout e whole wk was on sundae nite after i watched channel u drama serial until 9pm. started 2 pia my ionic equilibra until one in e morning. was listenin 2 radio at e same time. but feel reallie productive. hahaz.
brought rabbit to sch n put it back on ms tan's table. it is quite clean. hahaz. of course lahz. since i washed it. hahaz. will not be bringin it back animore. feel quite pai sehz tt i hav been kidnappin ms tan's rabbit. n i tink it misses physics aniwae. hahaz.
yesterdae is quite ok lahz. xcept tt i suffered frm a splittin headache after e chem mock promos. topics energetics and kinetics. i feel like dyin after tt. was studyin durin lects n breaks. sighz. feel like such a failure. i noe how 2 do wan lorz. but juz cant do. sianz. but still muz thanx president yuen. hahaz. 4 givin mi sum help. hahaz.
was piain pw after sch. sighz. e prob is i cant use e com. so hav 2 use my sis's laptop. which hav no internet access. so i hav 2 plot e graphs usin excel. n e prob is i dun noe how 2 plot. gosh. n my sis wanted 2 use her laptop lorz. sighz. in e end coz e laptop hav no internet access. i hav 2 retype everyting tt gorgeous hav written into e com again. n add more stuff n correct sum mistakes. n my sis cannt burnt e file into my cd. i dun noe wat 2 sae. so she brought it 2 sch n send it 2 mi 2dae.
n i was like checkin my mail after every lesson lorz. n i miss my doc's call again. hahaz. supposed 2 go back n c her on fridae 2 get e result 4 e test tt they conducted on my phlegm. 2 c wat bacteria was there. therefore decided 2 take blue slip n go c her. printed e stuff b4 leavin. n i cldnt find mr loh 2 sign e blue slip. in e end. mr leong. our new vp signed 4 mi. hahaz. i hope e pw draft is ok. seriously. sighz. i m so slack. i cant take it. dotz.
my headache is cumin back. aniwae e doc sae e test turn out no pathogens. nua lahz. wow liao. which is 2 sae i wasted $44. wow liao. dotz. but i get 2 noe more abt myself lahz. i hav xtremely sensitive airway. i hav chest pain if i drink too much carbon dioxide ladened drinks like soft drinks. n my non stop phlegm may be due 2 tis again. sensitive airway. sighz. so i got a mouth spray n i was 2 continue my nasal spray. was quite relieved tt i can stop poppin pills. was quite sick of antibiotics. so frm 2dae onwards. u will c mi carryin 2 sprays whereva i go. hahaz.
shld go take a rest. n pack n arrange all my worksheets. lecture notes into e file. do finish my maths n bio tutorials. n if there is time left. do my articles review. sighz. n i haven even started muggin. dotz.
didnt c shuai ge 4 2 daes le. feel abit e disappointed. hahaz.
juz wan 2 wish my daddy gabriel. amir mummy. n all other j2s all e best 4 their prelims. jia you! hahaz. n 2 all my fellow j1s. muz mug horz. hahaz. i m down 4 physics remedial again. sighz. nicely put in ms tan's words. cordially invited. hahaz.
dreaming awae at 10:47 PM