Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
well slept at 3 am tis mornin. coz i was rushin e teachers' dae presenz lahz. didnt reallie do a vry good job but i hope it's ok. yahz.
was helpin ms tan 2 to blow balloons. w ka ming. yii ean. yang lin. lilian n chong keat. so miss e aces dae. hahaz. muz thanx yingmeiwong coz she lent mi her shirt. though in e end i didnt participate in aces dae. aniwae can conclude tt ms tan dun hav much artistic sense. hahaz.
e concert is abit e dead lahz. enjoy e teachers' performance lahz. not bad. esp e mathematical induction wan. wow liao. make mi laugh until like dun noe wat. after tt supposed 2 hav class party lahz. but then. we all abit e slack. so. yahz. wasnt vry successful. n i keep on eatin other classes' food. hahaz. aniwae 3F food is good. hahaz.
went 2 give out e presenz. n then make my way back 2 ny w yii ean. nan xiao. gurlz2. lulu. nana. then saw alot of my teachers. miss them so much. ms tan. mr tan. ms yeo. mr chan. mr khoo. hahaz. mr chan is so cute. he actuallie printed out e class list of e classes he taught last yr 2 help him remember us. so my class was like crowdin ard him in e staff lounge while he sorta marked attendance. miss him so much. unfortunately my physics is still like rubbish. n he is so concern abt my grades. hahaz. luv him. our dear mr potato. saw derek tan also. n e most rubbish ting is he actuallie saw e episode of Get Rea! on CNA. e wan tt i was interviewed. i feel...nua. hahaz. he reallie resemble marlom. xcept e body size n shape. hahaz. his tummy is gettin bigger. hahaz.
n i was kana suaned by a total of 3 teachers 2dae of my size. nua. okok. i noe i need 2 lose weight. but tis is reallie vry nua. in e mornin mr loh suaned mi by saein tt my waist confirmed thicker than him. then back in ny. mr khoo suaned mi again. after tt derek tan suaned mi again. ok fine. wateva. hahaz. miss derek tan. n his lame jokes vry much. sighz. i reallie miss ny. dun noe y. i dun reallie feel e affection i hav 4 ny 4 rj. maybe 2 yrs is reallie vry short ba.
actuallie wanted 2 go back 2 pri sch. but then. my presenz 4 my pri sch teachers r ruined lahz. so hav 2 redo. so in e end went 2 eat w sum of classmates. those i m close w of course. which is basically half of e class lahz. hahaz. at SIM. e food is not bad u noe. quite good. n we tok lahz. or i tok then they listen lahz. was tellin them abt my shuai ge. hahaz. n yii ean is like practically wanna 2 wreck mi liao. coz i like mention him every dae? hahaz.
went 2 xiang2 house 2 nua after tt. feel so tired. n we were like tokin rubbishz lahz. but i reallie feel vry happie. vry happie. n e feelin of affection is there lorz. i can reallie sae tt they r my true frenz who will stick by mi no matter wat happen. luv them always. always. n we play bridge too. hahaz. i m gonna organise a class party durin e dec hols. i miss them manz. hahaz.
n thanx hui yun. 4 e presenz. ur concern n encouragment i will always remember it in my heart. thanx. luv u. muack. n can tell mi more abt .... soon. i m vry interested. hahaz.
oh yahz. muz not 4get. my shuai ge. hahaz. 2dae rite. yee ke-ow cum 2 sch w mi. then we were like discussin lahz. then she sae tt if she c my shuai ge. she will start coughin. then it's like we walk n walk n walk until nearin e rubbish dump. still didnt c. so i was like maybe he pon sch 2dae. hahaz. juz at tis moment. yee ke-ow started coughin vigorously/violently. then 4 one moment i reallie thot she vry sick. then i look up n realise tt my shuai ge is in front. juz tt 2dae he is wearin his house tee w shorts. arhz. n i nua can. hahaz. cant wait 2 get e cd frm marlom on thurs. hopefully can find out who he is...hmmz. i m obsessed. hahaz.
dreaming awae at 8:35 PM
