Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Thursday, July 01, 2004
well. wat shld i sae now. i feel like weepin. i feel dumb. tt's y u c tt dumb face on ur rite. i cant take it animore. 2dae is bio. supposedly my best/2nd best subj. now it's e worse subj. even worse than physics. reallie. i feel like a loser.
topics tested: proteins, carbohydrates, lipids, enzymes, water, microscopy n cell, cell membrane, photosynthesis, respiration, transport in plants.
n out of this 10 topics i studied 5. which didnt cum out 4 more than 20 marks. so e rest. i crapped. n felt like a useless person. i tink i m one of e biggest slacker in e world. i didnt studied lorz. coz i sianz can? wow liao. wat's wrong w mi. back in ny. no matter how sianz or tired. i still managed 2 finish e syllabus tested. sighz. sighz. sighz.
though e whole common tests is not counted (yahz it's true 4 rjc) but i feel defeated. my momentum 4 studyin has disappeared. i cant stand myself animore. i tink i reallie gettin royal flush. 4 Fs. goshz. i m reallie so dumb n useless.
2molo is maths. i tink i dun hav much chance. back in ny i failed a maths all e way until like prelims. which i got a b4. lowest in class. sighz. now maths is like a maths in sec 4. wat do u tink e result will be? FLUNKED. again. i wish e results r nv released. nv.
i cant take it animore. wo shou gou le. i hav enough.
dreaming awae at 5:34 PM