Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Thursday, July 08, 2004
on mondae rite. hols. so went to watch spiderman 2 w yee keow marlom n gim hong. so funnie lorz e show. erhz at least i tink so. yee keow said tt e whole cinema can hear my thunderous laughter. watever. hahaz. but reallie enjoy e show. hmmz.
after tt went 2 sing karaoke w my darlin xin yi. iris biao jie. uncle hui yan n ah gong wei fang. hahaz. tze hao abandoned wei fang becoz of sleep. so nua. aniwae mi n hui yan almost bring e whole buildin down lahz. coz e songs we chose r those super duper high wan. e.g. A*Mei's songs n sum Fish Leong's songs. so erhz. yahz. i was screechin into e mike. so nua. then sang dreamin of u w iris. but both of us dun noe e whole song. so we onli sang those we noe. which is so nua. yahz.
then hui yan keep on addin songs. until e list was always full. in e end we hav 2 sing each song halfway n skip 2 e next song. so nua. n wei fang wanted 2 leave early. we refused 2 let him. he called my nanny jun yan 2 ask 4 help. which is absolutely useless lahz. hahaz. reallie enjoy myself tt dae. muz go kbox soon w win2. yupz.
then on tuesdae which is a sch dae. erhz. went 2 sch. got back chem n maths. n scored an 'O' n 'E' respectively. which is 1 pass n 1 fail. hahaz. quite happie u noe. xpected Fs 4 everytin. coz i onli studied on e dae of e test itself. which roughly amount to 1 hr 15 mins. yahz. then did microscope 4 bio prac. erhz. n saw how dirty my contact lens were. so gross. yahz. considerin changin 2 monthly contacts after tis pair cannt be used liao. hmmz.
went 4 lion dance. n was quite pissed. yahz. w e pple. i dun reallie care who is readin tis now. aniwae muz sae sumtin. miss ny dalt vry much. coz rj is so different. e pple r so slack. wout ani discipline. nt tt i hav alot. but still betta than them. n i can feel e hostality aimed at mi. 4get it lahz. if u r unhappy juz sae lahz. wow liao. u tink it is vry easy 2 change izzt? cum on lorz. i noe more than u. i do. juz tt e tings i learned r different. different drum rhythms. different ba rhythms. but u noe wat. i hav more xperience than u lahz. u tink it is vry easy 2 change izzt? 2 learn e new drum rhythm when u hav e old wan embedded in ur mind. go n die lahz. i hav 5 ccas lorz. n goin 2 hav 6 soon w e addition of archery. i can jolly well drop one lahz. since no matter wat. my core cca is still band. u tink u r vry gd then go ahead. i m nt goin 2 stop u. as e onli gurl in lion dance. there's notin much i can do. since i cant lion dance. i m so damned pissed. do u noe how strong others r? i mean in terms of skills in lion dance? it's so sad tt e teacher didnt allow u all 2 go 2 e xchange camp n c 4 urself how powerful others r lorz. it will wake u up n let u noe how lousy u all r. i m nt goin 2 care animore. i go becoz i make e decision 2 commit myself 2 lion dance. i m goin 2 stick w it. becoz i dun break commitment n becoz tis will make chong keat's position vry difficult. 2dae e coach is cumin down. i will like 2 c 4 myself who he is. n hopefully learn frm him n nt frm pple who r unwillin 2 even teach mi n xpect mi 2 noe. i m vry pissed. watever. i had enough.
as 4 wed. erhz. got chem spa skill A. rubbish lahz. didnt study much lorz. then went in. anihow do. n it was e first time i m writin sumtin on gas collection. n i 4get 2 convert cm3 to dm3. i cant take it animore. e regard 4 safety i do not hav enough points. tis is rubbish. then receive back bio mcq. scored 12 out of 20. sighz. n make alot of careless mistake. watever lahz. hav band. was practisin w yee keow. n was so nua. coz she keep on laughin when she c mi blow bassoon. coz she tink tt i look like i m doin 'big business'. fine. i tell u i m nt cultured liao wat. aniwae managed to set up an interview w mr oura 4 my pw on sat after chasin after him to e carpark. n my skirt almost drop down. so pai sehz. dotz. thanx princess 4 callin mi 2 let mi noe tt mr oura is leavin. yahz. n oh we officially promote du yang e pope to SAINT DU YANG. short form -- STD (Saint Du) or if u like (Sexually Transmitted Diseases). hahaz. so nua.
ok. n 2dae was quite ok lahz. xcept i juz got back my gp. erhz. yahz. got a 'C'. which is vry bad. my compo seriously cannt make it. my language got 9 out of 20. sighz. i m so useless. reallie compared 2 my classmates.
let mi give u sum statistics...
chem
4 A. i tink it's 6 B. 2nd in e whole sch (28 classes). gd rite.
maths
12 A. i dun noe wat 2 sae
gp
1 A. 9 B3.
physics (teacher sae wan. haven c paper yet)
2 F (one of them confirm mi. my physics suck)
2 O
1 Ee
rest A to D can.
i had enough. i shld start muggin soon. i cannt take it alrdy. oh gosh.
dreaming awae at 8:41 PM
