Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
ok shld blog abt e past 2 daes. coz tze hui scold mi 4 nt updatin. wow liao. nt my fault lahz. tis ebloggy server keep on being "down" n i dun hav e chance 2 touch a com. so nua. aniwae let start frm sundae.
went down 2 NUH w win2. cldnt c ailing coz i m nt e direct relative. yahz. was foldin paper cranes w win2 n her frens lahz. fold n fold until i abit e "gong". but reallie hope tt tis will help her. our hopes. our wish. 4 her 2 get betta. as i was walkin down e corridors. i remember my time there on work attachment. my mentor. andy. n sum of e vry nice docs tt i noe. Dr Goh J.J. Dr Ruth. Associate Professor Paul Anan. yahz. they r so nice. e guidance tt they show mi n my frens. reallie thanx them alot. but e feelin tt i get when i was walkin 2wards e ICU is different. so different. sighz. it reminds mi of e time i walk down a different corridor in a different hospital. e feelin is e same. nvm. shldnt tok abt it.
frm wat i noe. ailing is gettin betta. though she is still in coma. e doc is hopeful tt she will regain her conscious soon. i hope so. n i do hav strong faith in her tt she will do it. coz she still hav a long way 2 go. jia you. ailing.
after tt went 2 buy foldin paper 4 stars n a glass bottle. prepare 2 make it 4 ailing. n went 2 eat pastamania w win2.
didnt do ani work. n nv practise my bassoon. sighz. oh well. i m juz a slacker.
as 4 mondae. went 2 sch lahz. was foldin e paper cranes at every poss moment. waitin 4 bus/mrt. on e train. durin lecture. durin tutorial. yahz. yee keow. hui yun. also helped mi 2 abit. then went 4 1hr+ chem remedial. so nua. sighz. feel regretful 4 nt studyin 4 CTs. sighz. then make my way down 2 e hospital. still cannt c her. but pass e cranes tt i made 2 her mum n sis. coz they r goin 2 hang all e cranes up as our prayers 4 her. i reallie hope tt it helps. our luv 4 her. ailing u can do it.
went back 2 sch n meet up w princess. ah ma. darling xinyi n paula jie2. 2 take mrt. eat at burger king n make our way 2 esplanade. 4 e RI ensemble concert. coz hui yan sae e bassoon vry li hai. so muz go n listen 4 myself. erhz. yahz. one of e bassoonist reallie vry li hai. shld aim 2wards there. i can do it. hopefully.
as 4 2dae it's a horrible dae. hav a cough. n sorethroat. but saw my shuai ge in e mornin. hahaz. so happie. but e dae becum worse as it goes. didnt study 4 bio spa. n dun noe a ting when i go in lahz. i m gettin "heck-care"ish. wat rubbish lahz. n e pw is even worse. mrs singh onli check our file 2dae 4 e first time. n we r selected 4 moe checkin. how rubbish can tis be. so we hav 2 make e changes n hand in by 2molo. wow liao. wat rubbish. muz thanx gorgeous. coz 2dae got lion dance n i m home late. luv u gurlz 4 helpin. muack.
aniwae lion dance 2dae i m abit e amazed. hahaz. sum pple nt as bad as i tink. hmmz. but feel so nua lahz. playin e ba4. n tryin 2 remember both e drum rhythm n ba4 rhythm. hahaz. poor yee keow hav 2 wait 4 mi. tt's y i luv her. hahaz. yee keow. i luv u. u hear mi? ok i m nua. will be performin 2molo. as e onli gurlz i feel so privileged. hahaz. tt's y i m so slack. i feel slack. i do hope tt i can play 4 college dae 4 bassoon. if nt. i will be down 4 lion dance. n avu duty. hahaz. tis is wat happen if u hav 2 mani ccas. hahaz.
aniwae 2dae marlom khar n mr tan chong keat kana gay lahz. wow liao. act so nua durin class tt e rest of us r speechless. then i realise tt president yuen like 2 change e names of e pple in marlom n chong keat phones. make them dun noe who is callin them. hahaz. so funnie. was listenin 2 chong keat n jing2 composition. how i wish one dae i will be able 2 do tt. wish will cum true one dae as long as i work hard. i hope so.
ailing. hang on. we r here 4 u. u r one of e strongest person i noe. i noe u can do it. continue 2 hang on. we will be here 2 pull u back. luv u always.
dreaming awae at 9:56 PM
