Monday, July 26, 2004
ok it has been so long since i last blog. shld make tis a super duper long entry. yahz.
22 July 2004
erhz was absent lahz. didnt go 2 sch. coz throat n head killin mi. sianz manz. so ended up spendin e dae sleepin n foldin e paper stars 4 ailing. finish foldin e whole bottle. a total of 90 stars. may they help ailing 2 find her way back 2 us.
23 July 2004
well it's fridae. didnt do maths tutorial lahz. sianz. was nuain all e time. feel so guilty. but. i juz didnt do. though i did try 2 do. sighz. i reallie vry slack. aniwae. chem mock spa lahz. n was quite hilarious. coz once i turned 2 my rite n saw lilian heatin her hydrated magnesium(II) sulphate. n while doin so she was tryin 2 stop her runnin nose w her left hand. so funnie lahz. cldnt help but giggle. n tt teacher who was observin mi keep on touchin e testtube whenever i go n weigh it 2 c whether got cool or nt. so nua. but was quite ok lahz. i manage 2 finish. yahz. first time out of e 3 practices i had. then had physics remedial. was quite ok. actuallie i quite luv ms tan. i tink she is reallie a vry nice teacher. but 2 bad. nt alot of pple noe how 2 appreciate her. after tt wanted 2 go home w yee ke-ow n marlom khar n gabriel daddy n bro yee kiat. but then we heard lt 1 got music n pple singin so went in 2 listen. in e end stayed 4 e whole concert lahz. until 9 plus. my poor papa was waitin 4 mi n yee ke-ow 2 bring us home. he is so hungry tt he ate cold nasi lemak. feel so guilty. was so tired tt i sleep early.
24 July 2004
saturdae. band prac. aniwae 2dae my ah gon suyi is participatin in talent time at pjc. feel sad tt i cant go n support her. but i wan her 2 noe tt i will always be a first audience. though she didnt win in e end. in my heart she is one of e best singers. ah gong. jia you. u can make it.
so went 4 band prac. practise w yee ke-ow. n found sum bassoon practise bks. decided 2 use them. start w elementary. n found tt i m reallie vry vry lousy. muz reallie start frm basics again. went 2 eat lunch w yee ke-ow. hui yun. shen ye. du yang. marlom khar. lynette. mark. yahz. lugged my bassoon w mi coz i thot i was goin home 2 practise. in e end. ended up at hui yun's house 2 play games. nua lahz. ended up at home quite late lahz. then went out again 2 attend sumting. finally reach home like 11 plus. n fall asleep straightaway. wout doin ani work.
25 July
meet up w win2 n went 2 e hospital. spent e whole afternoon n evenin at hospital. coz when we reach there we juz miss e visitin hrs. spent e whole afternoon waitin at e food court n doin sum work lahz. nt vry successful coz was havin headache. finally 5 pm. went back 2 e ward n was informed by her parents tt she is transferin ward again. 2 ward 53. e ward i worked at 4 1 wk when i was sec 3. e ward w sum of my fond memories. saw her then. oh my goodness. i dun noe wat 2 sae. i was so stunned tt i was speechless.
her face is bloated tt i almost cldnt recognise her. her whole body was bloated. n her head. it pained my heart 2 c her w all e stitches. n e tube tt is linked 2 a hole in her throat. e permenant scar she will hav frm e hole even after it closed. coz my sis has e same hole/scar. it pains mi so much. i wan 2 cry. but i cldnt. coz her mum was so strong. keep on touchin ailing's hand n tok 2 her. askin her 2 stop slpin. my heart reallie ache.
after she had transferred ward. we were allow 2 c her at a close dist. she was sorta awake. in e sense tt she will open her eyes. but we dun noe whether she is reallie conscious. n she is vry agitated. will keep on flingin her arms n movin her legs. i can c tt she is tryin 2 hang on. tryin 2 understand wat's happenin. but then she will juz sank back into sleep or darkness. i feel so sad. reallie vry sad. when i handed e bottle of stars 2 her mum. her mum ask her 2 wake up n thanx us. ask ailing 2 wake up n thanx us personally. my tears almost fall.
ailing u muz hang on. muz cum back 2 us. reallie cum back 2 us. we r waitin. we r here 2 pull u back. jia you. u r almost reachin e end of e tunnel where all of us r. waitin. waitin 4 u.
26 July
as 4 2dae. coz yesterdae vry late then reach home so nv do ani work. wanted 2 pon sch so much. then yee ke-ow nagged at mi. make mi feel so guilty tt i came 2 sch. my papa fetched mi since i m goin 2 be late lahz. n becoz i vry last min. i ended up 4gettin 2 bring wallet n water bottle. was coughin like anitin. but manage 2 survive e dae. was doin compre 4 gp coz mrs yeo absent. sianz. reallie sianz. then went 4 chem tutorial. get back mock spa. got 8. hahaz. quite happie. then remedial. was reallie feelin unwell liao. after tt went 2 band rm n play bassoon. wasnt gd lahz. coz vry easily breathless. went home w amir mummy daddy gabriel n yee ke-ow. daddy treat mi n yee ke-ow 2 ice cream. luv u daddy. hahaz. mummy vry entertainin. tell lame jokes on train arhz. hahaz. went 2 kfc w yee ke-ow. n we nua 2gether. reallie muz thanx yee ke-ow. 4 stickin w mi thruout. luv u arhz. but dun get ur head 2 big.
now i m tokin 2 tze hui. my twin sis. hahaz. n i m nuain abt e symphony no 5 piece. coz got bassoon solo. n nick mai is askin mi 2 cum n join them 4 practise so tt he dun hav 2 play my part. hahaz. poor nick. so sorrie. can i reallie make it. i wonder.
muz sae thanx 2 paula jie2. princess pei xuan. ah ma zhong ye. thanx 4 e support. i feel reallie touched. thanx 4 everytin u all hav done 4 mi. thanx. luv u all always. n thanx 2 all those who had helped mi in band. marlom khar. tze hui. hui yun. iris biao jie. nigel bro. bro yee kiat. n everywan else who had shown mi their concern n encouragement. i will work hard. thanx.
ailing i m workin hard. u muz too. we r all waitin 4 u. cum back. cum back 2 us. cum back
