Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Saturday, July 17, 2004
oh wat can i sae. watch windstruck e korean movie. find it vry touchin. yupz. n cry. it's nice xcept e part where e sky is computer effect n e guy like in e horror movie like tt appear infront of her. but it's vry nice. got e all white keys piano n e windmills all ard her house. yahz. tis is e first movie 2 make mi cry so much. so far e onli movie i hav cry is lilo n stitch. e part where stitch found e ugly ducklin storybk n turn 2 e page when it sae 'i m lost'. then stitich touch e duck n sae 'mi too'. i feel sad. aniwae in tt movie when e guy was wavin gd bye 2 e gurl. yee keow who was sittin beside mi sae: have a nice dae (HAND). n i remember mctay. my chem lecturer. n started laughin non-stop. when others r cryin. wow liao. keep on laughin lorz n cldnt stop. then tze hui n marlom thruout e whole show got commentary. n xtra laughter. daddy gabriel n terrence also got watch w us. yahz.
n when i came online. did i receive e shockin news. ailing. my pri sch fren has met w an accident. n now in very critical condition. n i cant visit her coz now onli family n relatives can c her. i cldnt believe it. reallie. she is such a chirpy person. she is very small in size n thin. w a wide smile n teeth a bit e out of place. always smilin n laughin. n now she is lyin on e hospital bed. n there's nothin we can do 4 her. i m afraid. i m very afraid tt i will be attendin her wake. i dun wan. i dun wan. i dun wan 2 face reality. she is so sweet n such a gd fren. all of us r hopin 4 a miracle. a miracle. i wan 2 sae 2 her tt i luv her. tt being her fren is one of e best ting tt ever happen 2 mi. though we were nt vry close but i thanx her 4 e laughter n smile tt she brings mi. her chirpy voice callin my name. life is so unfair. she did e rite ting n now payin e price 4 sumwan else carelessness. i wonder how's she feelin now. wat's she tinkin now. is she worryin abt her parents. tt's y her heart continue 2 beat even when she is brain dead. i almost lost my sis once. but we manage 2 save her. i was in e icu everydae n my dad was sleepin outside my sis rm everydae. i can imagine e heartbreak ailing's parents felt. coz i hav seen it on my parents' faces. tt's one sayin: e greatest pain n grief of all is 2 see ur child off to the heaven. coz u r e one who bring him/her 2 tis world. who c her grow. w e promise of sumting great in e future. n all tis has burst like a bubble. i hope tt they will be strong.
dun take ur safety 4 granted. tink abt others n nt onli urself. dun becoz of selfish reasons. sacrifice others. their welfare. their dreams. their hopes. their lives. i will despise u.
as 4 2dae. went 4 band prac w swollen eyes. were cryin last nite. everytin is quite alrite. i can play a few children songs. n is tryin out my new reed. but sumtin happen lahz. n i reallie cannt take it animore. i reallie dun noe wat 2 sae. i m questionin myself whether my decision is correct. whether i shld continue 2 hang on. i m tired. vry tired. vry tired.
dreaming awae at 3:55 PM
