Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Saturday, July 03, 2004
hmmz. 2dae is a super busy n tirin dae. hahaz.
first of all i hav band spring cleanin in e mornin. n i m in e com lahz. so manpower was done by mi. yahz. was clearin up until like 11 plus. then i go n check my bassoon(s). got tis super new lookin bassoon tt was condemned. feel damn sad lahz. sighz. so wasted. but found a new case 4 e vry gd bassoon. yahz. so nua. then when i start to polish my bassoon. it was time 2 go 4 e syf openin ceremony briefin. so didnt eat lunch. was so hungry. then becum vry short tempered. hahaz. so funnie. keep on scoldin marlom n chong keat. hahaz.
after nuain ard 4 vry long. finally make our way 2 e stadium. reach like 2 plus lahz. so nua. then i couldnt go out w my daddy gabriel n amir mummy. so sadz. sighz. reach there like super early n was nuain lahz. then du yang e pope vry clever lahz. he dun noe do wat then a box of decomposed laksa gravy landed on e flr n stink e whole place down. wow liao. so smelly lahz. cannt take it lorz. while waitin i suddenly recalled e syf openin ceremony tt i took part in 2 yrs ago when i was in sec 3. reallie miss e days back then. sighz.
at tt time was young. nt tt i m nt now but. yahz. nvm. then first time holdin m-16 rifle. most prob e last time holdin. remember e first trainin. i m nt a vry fit person. tt i can admit wout ani pretense. so when i hold e rifle rite. then e sir make us march on e spot. i wan 2 die. reallie. ur arm will feel notin. it was numb lahz. after tt. u will realise tt u cannt bend it at all. then i remember e first time i fired e rifle at ncc hq. then e ncc sir rite. vry power. he use one hand 2 carry e rifle n fire it while xplainin 2 us wat 2 do. i was filled w admiration. my idol. hahaz. then after tt. e trainin 4 npcc dae parade. then e trainin 4 e ceremony. e laughter we shared w each other in e contingent. contingent 2 w michelle ma'am. who is super duper nice. then e vry shuai rite marker. frm hong kah sec sch. then my best partner. i miss them so much. n e contingent pple callin mi auntie estella coz i vry 'auntie'. oh my. how i miss all tt. then e breaks we hav under e hot sun durin e trainin. n tt indian sir who is vry fierce. n e drumroll. marchin 2 e drumroll. n of course e feelin of e no1 uniform on myself. all tis is reallie unforgetable.
4 e npcc dae parade rite. i remember clearly was e marchin forward 4 15 steps i tink. wow liao. tt time trainin was so funnie. everywan was marchin at their own pace. then no matter wat. will reach e end at e same time. so funnie lahz. if u look at e contingent. yahz. n e commands startin w 'korwalan kohomatan' (nt vry sure of e spellin -- malay) meanin guard-of-honour. e pride u hav lorz.
then e openin ceremony. e pride of marchin into a stadium filled w pple. e pride of wearin e no1 n firin e m-16 rifles. oh my goodness. n i didnt noe how 2 cherish all tt then. i feel so stupid. sighz. miss all tt so much. reallie. where r u all? do u all noe i miss u all alot?
then was watchin e ceremony lahz. ncc was goh tis yr. sighz. e formation was different. they hav 5 contingents w 3 rows instead of 4 contingents w 5 rows. n their dun hav mani gurlz. while ours hav 2 gurlz contingent. hahaz. i was gekkin yee keow lahz. hahaz. n was tokin w my nanny jun yan abt e contingent stuff coz he was in contingent 4. yahz. we were marchin in e same parade. dotz. i nv knew tt e supportin contingent didnt march past e guest of honour. sighz. so nua. but i did lahz. feel so proud at tt time. sighz. all r in e past. i feel so sad. i luv drill lahz. pple will tink tt i m mad. now. erhz. i like nv touch them liao lorz. 2 bad lahz. i wasnt outstandin. hahaz. but i was happy durin tt period of time. vry happie. makin frens w other units. e pride of all this. i dun noe how 2 describe lahz. sighz.
then there's e display band competition. was so awed by e drum major n e band. they play n march n do alot of tings at e same time. after in band. i realise how hard it is 2 play an instru lorz. was vry impressed. esp w pple holdin tubas. tt wan reallie power manz. then they twist tubas ard. wow. speechless. hahaz. e drum majors r all vry zai. so impressed. sighz. then e best drum major went 2 deyi sec n e best band went 2 tanjong katong sec. reallie vry gd. their performance reallie vry gd. i m so impressed lorz. wow.
as 4 e mass dance rite. a bit e nua lahz. yahz. shldnt comment much abt those. tt after tt went home w yee keow. ate a macs. n she has a dog key chain. yahz. thanx 2 a lady workin at causeway macs. who gave us e coupons coz we 4got 2 bring. so nice. yee keow luves her. ahahaz.
dreaming awae at 9:37 PM
