Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Sunday, July 04, 2004
2dae went back 2 ny 4 POP (passin out parade). e handin over of e unit frm e sec 4s 2 e sec 3s. wat can i sae. time reallie flies. nt so long ago. i was havin my own POP. n my baby sq is takin over now. reallie vry fast. sighz.
i was e first wan 2 reach lahz. n was waitin 4 e rest. feel abit e weird cumin 4 POP. was helpin e sec 4s take photos of e parade. sorrie 2 sae my photography skills nt gd. but still passable lahz. drill wise i tink i shldnt sae anitin coz i no longer involved in official matters. n dun wish 2 involve myself. yes. was watchin e performance put up by e cadets n e presents tt they make 4 e sec 4s. well. tt reallie bring back certain memories. was w sqmates n sum ma'ams. but dun noe y. dun hav much tings 2 sae 2 them. i m runnin out of things tt i shared w them. things in common. being w my sqmates was nt as at ease. i dun noe y. maybe becoz i drifted away ba.
out of all of us. i was e wan w e most changes. i mean in terms of cca n frens. coz i m e onli wan in rj. i rarely meet e rest. n i like nv contact them. my 5 ccas keep mi quite occupied esp band. n i juz start 2 fit myself into band. dun noe y. i feel tt i can relate more w sum of my bandmates than my sqmates. pple change ba. at least i did. but i do cherish wat we shared in e past. wat we had in e past. but i juz dun agree w them le. rite frm e start. i noe tt i tink differently frm them. couldnt agree w sum of my sqmates. feel abit e lost. n was vry unhappy. wanted 2 quit vry much in sec 2 n 3. but now in band. though tryin 2 pick up bassoon by myself is nt vry easy. i nv tink of quittin. coz e band pple will always be there 4 mi. nt all. but there will be sum. n i can relate easily 2 them.
i tink of dreyz n chong chyn who r overseas. i miss them. reallie. alot. coz i tink i onli start 2 appreciate them after they left. maybe dist make e heart fonder. wan 2 c them soon.
tis 2 daes is reallie quite tirin. tink abt alot of tings. yahz. hopefully i will find my direction in life soon. may frenship last 4ever.
dreaming awae at 6:39 PM