Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
2dae is racial harmony dae. i hav 2 sets of indian clothings. guess wat. i wear none 2dae. so 2pid lahz. wow liao. coz i lend one of them 2 xiang2 4 hcjc racial harmony dae celebration. then i thot i hav my hot pink n flashy sari w mi. was searchin 4 it in e middle of e nite. n wat happen. i cldnt find it. n realisation dawned upon mi. it's w vanessi since last yr prom nite. wow liao. sianz manz. or else can take pics w amir mummy. sighz. nvm. maybe it's nt meant 4 mi 2 wear it 2dae. sianz arhz.
aniwae i was involved in e lion dance performance lahz. play ba. hahaz. we r suppose 2 be let off at 12.30pm but then i need 2 hand in pw file so decided 2 pon maths tutorial. but tt mr tan n president yuen so nua lahz. went 2 tutorial. so by e time i finish handin up e file n reach e classrm it's like 12.05pm. within 10 mins i was leavin e class w them coz all 3 of us didnt bring maths tutorial n mr tay came over 2 check our work. so nua lahz. i dun noe wat 2 sae.
vry long time nv wear shi ku. sorta 4get how 2 wear liao. hahaz. n saw e long xie. remember tt time wear them n perform both lion n dragon dance. how i miss ny dalt. sighz.
e performance abit e screwed up lahz. hahaz. e rehearsal was act betta than e real performance. so nua. aniwae i look like an alien coz i was e shortest n i was e onli gurl. wat rubbish. almost fainted after e performance in e rm coz all e guys r so...smelly. dotz.
then went 4 band. erhz sit there n nua again lahz. though a lot of pple ask mi 2 play. hahaz. esp nigel. i agree w wat he sae. i shldnt be afraid of makin mistakes coz bassoon normally cannt be heard. so blow wrongly also no one noe (maybe xcept e pple next 2 u n infront of u). hahaz. so manage 2 blow a few notes. so nua. but e sch song is so nice. but i dun hav e score lehz. a bit e dun noe wat. yahz. aniwae went 2 find yee ke-ow after tt n practise 2gether. my lips tired vry easily. abit e sad arhz. then i realise tt sum of my cells on my tongue n inner lips r gone. coz i got tis numb n fuzzy feelin all e time. yahz. n my nanny jun yan play my bassoon act sound betta than mi. i dun noe wat 2 sae. maybe i shld let him be e bassoonist liao. cannt take it. wow liao. i m such a failure. rubbish.
oh yahz. 2dae hav pe. n once again i m e comedian. sighz. was playin captain ball lahz. then each team onli 3 pple includin e captain. so it's like e court onli hav 4 pple at ani one time. was snatchin ball w yingmei wong when i trip n sorta landed on her feet. then i was lyin on e floor laughin nonstop. so nua. n when she tried 2 pull mi up (due 2 my heavy mass). she ended up pullin mi in circles. n all tis time i was laughin. then when we play a class game. i m more nua. got butterfinger so e ball landed on e floor. between my legs. then i scream. n kneel down 2 get e ball. which was behind mi by now. n manage 2 throw 2 one of e captain who got it. e whole class is so amused by mi lahz. sighz. oh yahz. landed on my back again. coz i step on sumwan feet n trip. so nua. hahaz.
ailing. how r u now? pls cum back 2 us. we r waitin here 4 u. follow e light. we r at e end of e tunnel. waitin. waitin 4 u. luv u always.
dreaming awae at 7:59 PM