Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Friday, June 18, 2004
well i tink in one of my previous entry i sae abt browsin a bk on birthdaes w daddy gabriel n amir mummy. yahz. aniwae decided 2 tok abt it now.
originally set up tis blog 2 xpress my thoughts nt listin of everydae stuff. but sumhow it ended up otherwise lahz. xcept 4 e first entry. everyting else is description. so decided to do sumtin tt i always wanted 2 do.
actuallie i m vry easily depressed. it's juz how much i let others c. reallie. then was readin tt bk. n one of my weakness is reallie depression. wow liao. quite accurate arhz.
unlike other pple. i mind wat others sae abt mi. alot. yahz. n u can sae tt i m superficial lahz. u may nt noe it but i m easily hurt. but due 2 e fact tt i hav a smile plastered on my face (courtesy of tze hui). most pple dun realise it. nvm lahz. used 2 it liao.
i havin probs w my bro now lahz. n it's like i nt happie in e family lorz. then my sis sorta of married liao. juz dun hav weddin dinner yet. but she stay at her new home like 6 daes out of a wk. so i was w my bro lahz. we juz simply ignore each other. then he gettin married soon. i dun noe 2 feel happie or wat. i mean we will nt be stayin under e same roof. no more friction. no more indifference. no more arguement.but i look at my row of looney tunes soft toys then i tink. he bought e whole collection 4 mi becoz i like them. then at tt time he onli taught tuition. still a full time jc student. when i m sec 2 he bought my first n onli discman 4 mi. my sis n mum always tell mi actuallie in e family my bro luves mi e most. but becoz i always nv do hmwk make him angree then he decided 2 juz give up on mi.
then my papa vry...i dunnoe how 2 sae lahz. juz tt he has sum bad frens n he has certain bad habits. sighz. i dunnoe wat will happen in e future lorz. then my mum's health nt gd. reallie. she has high blood pressure. n her legs r bloated lahz. but she still worked coz we dun hav enuf income.
sumtimes i wonder. m i reallie happie? i mean i worry abt my own future. wat will happen 2 mi? no one can send mi 2 university. e onli way is 2 get a scholarship. but how? i nt prominent in aniwae. n singapore system is like i dunnoe wat 2 sae lahz. dun u tink tt u r demandin 2 much? i look at e kids in e dvc camp. my class. 4 goodness sake they r onli pri one. but guess wat. they noe alot more tings then they shld. competition is so stiff. those who cant catch up is juz abandoned. no one is helpin them. tt's wat happen in class. sum students actuallie scold others who r slow in learnin 4 pullin them back. i reallie dun noe wat 2 sae. reallie.
n interestin enuf. my tarot card is e card of death. maybe i will get enlighten soon. i hope tt dae will cum.
dreaming awae at 10:56 PM
